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Saul via John Smallman: You All Have Pain from Way Back that Needs to be Seen, Thanked, and Released

April 7, 2019 by Paul

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We are watching from the spiritual realms with joy, as humanity moves forward very rapidly indeed along its collective path to awakening. That awakening is absolutely inevitable because collectively the Oneness of Spirit that is the life within humanity, in all its many cultures, races, ethnicities, and religious and political persuasions and none, has chosen to cease playing the game of separation.

Separation was a choice to experience a totally unreal state, a state in which you, each individual sentient being, was in competition with every other one for the resources to ensure your survival. Initially food, shelter, and clothing for your bodies, then power over others as the individual felt that that was the only practical way to ensure its survival.

But you are all One, with each other, and of course with God/Source/Wisdom, the Creator of all that exists. What Source creates is everlasting, eternal, without end or termination, it just is, and nothing can change or alter that. Therefore competition with and power over others is pointless and meaningless. How can you possibly beat yourself in competition or have power over yourself?

What you can do as a human is to evolve, by allowing the knowing that you are a spiritual being at one with Source and with each other into your conscious awareness. That is what it means to awaken.

As modern science has conclusively shown within the last two or three decades, absolutely everything is entangled with and permanently connected to everything else. That there is One vast, immense, infinite energy field of consciousness in which myriad forms, in an infinite variety, form and disperse continuously, and where nothing is lost or destroyed. All that happens is that the forms keep on changing as the One creates in utter joy for Its own endless delight, and that, of course, also means for your endless delight.

What has happened is that you – humanity – have become so enraptured with your own forms that you find it incredibly difficult to open to the awareness that you are, always have been, and always will be infinitely more than the forms in which you clothe yourselves and that enrapture you.

You are all inseparably one with the infinite divine field of energy – LOVE. However, you also exist as individual expressions of the Essence that is the One as you each expand and share the Love that you each are.

While in form, using your human brains and intellects, this seems like an incomprehensible paradox, but it is only incomprehensible because of the limitations in which form encloses consciousness, hiding from it its eternal and infinite knowing, and apparently separating it from Itself.  To reaffirm, there is only ONE, in which All That Is has Its permanent and eternal existence.

Modern science has shown you that nothing material can be destroyed, or entirely removed from existence, it just changes from form back into energy. Matter – rocks, rivers, earth, metals, plants, animals (which includes humans) – is energy that has taken form. Form has a lifespan that varies depending on the fabric from which it is made, whereas energy is eternal, it is never destroyed, spent, or terminated.

You are, therefore, beings of infinite energy temporarily confined in a very limiting form. That form has no power over you. You control and direct it by the power of your beliefs, beliefs of which you are frequently, in fact mostly, almost entirely unconscious. Instead you have accepted the beliefs that were ingrained in you by others as you grew to adulthood, and which are reconfirmed daily by your family, society, culture, religion, politics, and environment.

You can change your beliefs, and you need to change your beliefs to bring them into alignment with Love, with Reality.  You are Love incarnate, and Love is infinite perfection.  It has no issues – emotional, psychological, intellectual, or physical – or problems to solve or heal, but, because of your ingrained and invalid beliefs, encouraged and fiercely defended by your fear-driven egos, you do.

Taking time out daily to go within, to that holy inner sanctuary that lies at peace within each one of you, is the way to shed your invalid beliefs and heal yourselves. No one else can do it for you, although others may be able to offer loving guidance that can help you to access the infinite power you each have within yourselves.

You can, and if you set and reset the intent, you will heal yourselves. It may not be possible to heal serious damage or illness to your bodies, but you can and will heal your minds and hearts, relieving yourselves of suffering and coming to a place of deep peace and self-acceptance.

You are all incarnate as humans in the perfect bodies and in the perfect environments for the lessons with which you chose to present yourselves during this lifetime. You are precisely where you are meant to be, where you intended to be, and you have limitless resources in the spiritual realms on which you can call for support and guidance 24/7. Take advantage of this power which is available to you, because, in fact, it is yours, and it will enable you to let go of beliefs that limit and repress you, beliefs that do not serve you.

Attempting to use your intellects to analyze, understand, and remove your issues will not work, because all that happens is that they run continuously through your mind on what seems like and endless and circular track, repeating and repeating, and thus draining your energy and leaving you feeling helpless to do anything about them.  Then you cruise the fridge, or check your phone, or turn on the TV – if it happens that it is turned off!

To start the healing process, just sit quietly in a meditative, contemplative, or deeply relaxed state and focus on the wall in front of you, or your breath, or a candle, or a plant, or whatever works for you to help you quieten your mind and slow your thoughts. Then accept whatever arises, without judgment or anger, and ask it if it has a message for you.

You all have pain from way back that needs to be seen, thanked, and released. Often you will be amazed at what arises from the depths for your attention – maybe a shaming from when you were an infant, or an unfair punishment – and the pain from it has remained. Look at it, accept its message and comfort it lovingly, thus offering it what should have been offered way back when.

When it is seen, accepted without judgment of any kind – either of self or of the perpetrator – and lovingly comforted it will start to dissolve. This may happen almost instantaneously, or it may take longer, so again accept, do not insist on instant relief because that is, of course, a negative judgment.

That inner child is hurt, and the way forward is via acceptance and comforting. Do not accept your ego’s suggestions that this is unnecessary, that you are an adult now, and that this pandering to your suffering is childish. The ego suggests this because it does not want you to release the pain, because it uses pain and suffering to control and direct you. When that happens you sometimes say or do something that you later very much regret.

By loving and comforting your inner child for the pain and suffering that it has endured you are effectively healing and integrating your ego, making you whole-hearted. Those of you who have worked with small children and infants know that their emotions can take them over very easily, and you know that patient loving of them when they are upset is the best way to calm them and help them to come back to a place of peace, knowing that they are loved and accepted.

So, give yourselves the love that you would offer to a small child in need, and do not judge doing this as childish, unnecessary, or stupid! To love yourselves is absolutely essential. It is also absolutely essential to forgive yourselves whole-heartedly for any failings or errors that you believe you have made throughout your lives.  Accept that where you are physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually is precisely where you are meant to be, and in doing so, know that you are infinitely and eternally loved by God, and that that state will never change.  Doing this is an essential part of your awakening process.

With so very much love, Saul.

httpss://johnsmallman.wordpress.com/2019/04/06/you-all-have-pain-from-way-back-that-needs-to-be-seen-thanked-and-released/

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