It’s as if my consciousness is imploding into itself, structures are collapsing, and belief systems are exploding.
I’m experiencing a collapse of what I’d call a “self” or an “ego.”
And I welcome it. I remember that, earlier this evening, I asked for it. And now it arrives, barely an hour later, I’d say.
Every image of collapse, destruction, and explosion is flashing across my mind. Everything about me that could collapse is collapsing.
The old is falling away and the new is being revealed. Only it’s happening rapidly, almost in fast forward.
What keeps us in the Third Dimension is negativity. But what would keep us in the Fifth Dimension is not positivity. That’s itself a part of a duality.
It’s contextuality. Contextuality is an appreciation of the whole, a universal consciousness. It takes in everything. Examples of contexts are peace, love, health, and completion.
When we can think from a universal standpoint and love from the same, then I think this world will work.
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I’d call the space I’m in at the moment “ecstacy.” Thirty years ago I did the drug ecstacy. And the space ecstacy presented then is the space I’m in right now, without the use of any stimulant.
It’s predominant characteristic is depth, profundity, fulness.
It’s almost as if I’m on a scenic tour of the transformed space – be it Fifth Dimensional or otherwise.
Each day, more of it’s revealed.
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I’m still in the space of ecstacy, some hours later.
I tried making a smoothie for a friend in this space. I’m in utter abandonment of thinking. Could I even slice an apple?
It was very hard to concentrate. Every act I didn’t like to do I could have resented. That would’ve been my Third-Dimensional response. But instead of that, I did it out of love for my friend.
There are rules of the road for ecstacy, just as for love and bliss. And I’m finding them out by experience. This is all brush-clearing.
I feel buoyed up so high that it would’ve been hard to imagine this space if told about it previously. I’m not trying to suggest that it’s a high enlightenment. It isn’t.
It’s a high subplane, if you will, of the transformed space. So I mean “comparatively” buoyed up, short of enlightenment.
There were several times today I thought it would take a turn towards enlightenment, but it didn’t.
And so I’ve continued to simply hold myself open to what is an unfolding experience.
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I now feel routinely and totally free of emotional trauma and pain at this moment. No vasanas (or core issues), in other words.
They could come rushing in in an instant, but right now I’m pain-free.
This breath that I take, I take without the memory of past upsets or any trace of resentment or regret.
I call this “back to innocence.” Original innocence, rather than original sin. That’s the feeling.
I feel fresh and pure.
I turn the ordinary method of breathing around and breathe into myself profoundly, as deeply as I possibly can. And then I breathe out ecstacy. I go as high as I possibly can. And I repeat this.
Again I marvel that these are events in consciousness. Not a Light for me. Not a vision of the Beloved. But a continual expansion in consciousness, with the rewards of love, bliss, and ecstacy and the absence of pain that they have – so far – brought.
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Paramount to this space is how relaxed I feel. I feel totally at peace with myself and the outside world.
And it turns out that I’m the only person I absolutely have to be at peace with. Ups and downs with other people I can endure. But I cannot manage being at odds with myself.
The absence of peace within my self makes me right away a breeding ground for mayhem and chaos.
But it takes real work to maintain peace with my self. Any judgment could start a war. Any blame, resentment, regret.
All of it, I earlier called “negativity.” All of it now has to be put aside to keep the peace within my self.
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Having chosen the path of consciousness or awareness, I now find my reward in constantly-expanding. consciousness. This validates what the Arcturians said: “Where your attention is, there you are also. … attention is how you connect with realities.” (1) I connect with the reality of love, bliss and ecstacy through awareness of my internal states.
It also validates the notion that we can walk any path to Ascension. Any path that elevates our consciousness and hence our frequency will do.
I feel totally different than I did even a day ago.
I feel … well, it’s always that I feel more of what I did then. These are obviously areas of life I’ve been working on and working out and I’m now reaping the benefit in these areas.
I feel confident. So obviously I’ve been working on issues of confidence.
I feel strong, peaceful, free from desire.
I feel content, satisfied.
What more could anyone ask?
And yet I know there’s always more.
(1) “Transcript ~ “The Arcturians on AHWAA: Ascension is a Multi-Demensional Activity,” Channeled by Dr. Suzanne Lie, November 26, 2015, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=269824.