I had a self-righteous bus ride today.
I watched myself judge people right and left on the way to the bus.
I watched myself react self-righteously to a scraggly line-up at the bus stop.
I saw myself responding self-righteously – internally of course – to an ill-positioned passenger who was blocking the way to my seat.
I definitely had my druthers and I was quite self-righteous about it.
And yet all the while, love was coursing through me.
A few decades ago, if I felt self-righteous, any love that I felt, which would have been a microfraction of a thimbleful, would have vamoosed the ranch.
But nowadays, such is the energy we’re swimming in, that my love continued to flow and the self-righteous thoughts flew away. They could find no foothold, which is the way it is with love. (1)
To have self-righteousness fall away is an incredible development. I remember the first experience of transformation I ever had, at Cold Mountain institute in an Enlightenment Intensive. I got who I was. And then on the ferry home, I probably told a white lie or sold myself down the river in some other way and the experience of Self entirely disappeared. Oh, that was a hard lesson!
But now the experience of love is sufficiently strong that it wins out against other really strong feelings like self-righteousness, provided I don’t attach to them. That is an evolutionary step, I’d say.
Earlier in the morning, I was struck by the fact that the sidewalks suddenly looked cleaner. They almost looked like marble. I would have ignored that kind of a sensation years ago but today I paid attention to it and, because I did, the sensation grew.
I haven’t really thought about the psychic development side of things. I’m not really drawn to it. But today I wanted to allow it to happen.
I noticed there was something like a light around me. I learned long ago not to expect “light” to show up just as brilliance. Sometimes it shows up as “clarity” of vision. And my vision was definitely becoming clearer.
There was however a very subtle but increased brightness, which I noticed, and then looked more closely. It was if I were in a well-lit room and my vision had improved. I walked in this light for perhaps a block, marvelling.
Then I noticed that I was walking ramrod straight and my steps had an odd feeling to them. They were very present and solid.
I could feel each footfall. My muscles seemed super responsive and eager to bite into the ground. I was enjoying the sensation of merely walking.
Sandra Walter, in a recent, germinal article, says that “the changes in the body vehicle … are very strong right now.” (2) She adds:
“The Shift in our consciousness, the expansion of our consciousness, is the goal. The True Higher Self will override all of the lower experience[s] when we are complete in the merge of lower and Higher Self.” (3)
To say the true higher Self will override the lower is, I think, the same as saying that the lower vibrations cannot find a foothold in the higher.
Later in the same article, she suggests: “We detach from what we were, yet the Higher Self feels vividly different; powerful, Divine Pure Love. Radically New.” (4) That certainly fits with my experience. The manner in which the higher consciousness (or love, same thing for me) was making itself known was radically new, vividly different, and divinely powerful.
I also saw that I had two other, very different sensations going on with me at the same time. On the one hand, I felt groggy, fatigued, tired. On the other, I felt alive, in trim, energized.
How could both be going on at once? Perhaps Sandra has suggested how: The new and higher Self is peeping through and making itself felt. “Peeping through” may be the operative words.
I’m not big on psychic phenomena but these are interesting and I’m sure they’re part of Ascension.
In fact, because I’m sure they are, I’ll practice a trick I learned from Werner: I’m going to act “as if” everything unusual that happens right now is attributable to Ascension. Children call this “make believe.” It’s a vital first step in creation.
That way I’m always open and available to what comes next, in our steady climb towards the higher vibrations.
(1) It’d be useful to read Sandra Walter’s article along with this one: Sandra Walter, “Embodiment: How to Lose your mind without Losing your mind – Part 1,” Creative Evolution, May 10, 2015, at https://www.sandrawalter.com/embodiment-how-to-lose-your-mind-without-losing-your-mind/.
(2) Loc. cit.
(3) Loc. cit.
(4) Loc. cit.