As with most members of the group there came a time earlier in your life when the lights came on, so to speak, and you realized there was more to life than meets the eye. You knew you didn’t understand everything, or even very much, but you felt drawn toward altruistic goals of improving life for all human beings. If you spoke in metaphysical terms at that point in your life you might have expressed a desire to awaken yourself and help others move towards the light.
You uncovered a desire to be of service to all people. Since that time life has been filled with dichotomies, highs and lows, challenges and victories, many surprises, and an ever-increasing desire for understanding and awakening. In other words, we each live the typical, while unique, life of today’s light worker on planet Earth. We haven’t completed our own journey to enlightenment, thus the remaining challenges.
But, we are close enough to graduation that our recently acquired understanding has empowered us to join as partners with many Masters, mystics and healers. From their perspective it is a partnership of equals. We know that our task is to assist in evolving planetary group consciousness one more step up the ladder.
We can’t change humans through words or actions, no matter how articulate our voice or how imposing and forceful our actions. The human ego always resists those who would try to change it in any way. Our job is as simple as sharing our own consciousness telepathically with Gaia and her inhabitants. What can we share that will be beneficial to the billions of souls in our class? Nothing less than joy, happiness, inner peace, and that feeling of “finally all the pressure is off”. That feeling of “I’m home”.
How do we acquire these states of consciousness so we can share them?
The ego is what Earth School is all about. If there were no ego there would be no need to spend millions of years releasing ourselves from the illusion of separation. This is a good thing, as we will see. The ego can be said to be that part of us which believes it is truly a separate individual, not connected to the infinite. Therefore the ego believes it is responsible for its own survival and responsible for whatever meager level of comfort it can attain and pain it can avoid.
The ego has always been dependent on an active fear mechanism which will warn it when danger approaches. The ego can’t see the future and therefore it sometimes fails to fend off danger. Guilt results. The ego can’t understand the past, therefore it sometimes judges falsely. Guilt results.
At this stage of our evolvement the goal of the school is to release all fear and guilt and return to a perpetual state of the awareness of love’s presence. But there is more to the story than that.
The goal is also to retain the individualized sense of identity which we have acquired through believing we were separate from Source. We developed our unique identity by thinking we were an ego, not in spite of the ego. Now as we release the illusory part of the ego, the fear and guilt, we are forever unique and forever Source, the One, All That Is.
How should we regard the ego that seems to make a mess of our life occasionally?
Allow me to repeat a story you have already heard. Soon after I discovered my inner connection with something far more expansive than I would have believed possible, I received a message from the voice within.
“When you speak to people don’t ever try to tell the truth. The truth of the divine reality is so much grander, so much more magnificent, so much more beautiful, so much more expansive, then anything you have reference points for, or vocabulary to describe, you have no shot at telling the truth. Just say something useful.”
I was told that no Master Teacher ever tried to tell the literal truth of the infinite nature of eternal life. It is beyond our comprehension. They all spoke in parables, metaphor. Rumi, Hafiz and Emerson spoke in poetry. Words are only pointers. The intuition of the listener then interprets the words, personalizing them to fit the unique needs of the person at that moment in time.
No two listeners receive the same message. So when anyone tries to explain the reason life is the way it is and why ego is, and always has been, a necessary ingredient of the spiritual path, feel free to know your intuitive interpretation of their words is the only one which will work for you.
From our present viewpoint we can’t understand 10th dimensional reality, let alone infinite mind, anymore than the indigenous cultures could understand transistors, satellites or jet planes and what benefits these things would bring to society.
When it comes to true infinite reality we know nothing. It is wise to grasp the understanding that we know nothing so we do not delude ourselves into thinking we know something about healing or enlightenment or what I or another person need to do or learn next to move down our spiritual path.
Believing we know anything at all about our own spiritual path causes a delay in time, slowing our progress along the path. The ego’s self worth comes from knowing things, from having the ability to be “right” and win arguments so you may feel resistance when you say to yourself “I know nothing”.
Instead of the ego’s path of trying to figure it all out, there is this simpler choice: an empty mind is ready to be filled with spirit. This is an essential step away from thinking we are separate individuals, responsible for our own well-being, into the understanding that we are one with All That Is. It is the All That Is, with its infinite vision that is responsible for our well-being, not a separate ego’s vision which can’t even see tomorrow. “Zen mind, no mind” can access the all powerful mind of God.
That said, here is a made-up, hopefully useful story or metaphor about how we arrived at the present point in time and the experience we refer to as “my life”. Perhaps a story like this can help us ease our way back to that state of consciousness where we feel “I’m home”. In the beginning God was lonely/creative/innovative (not true but there is no need to pick apart the details here, as egos love to do. We aren’t trying to tell the “truth” here, this is just a useful story.)
How could absolute oneness create something out of her oneness (all that exists) which could appear as a companion while still being the one and only absolute oneness? By using illusion and creating the ego which would buy into that illusion, of course.
The magic, the sleight-of-hand, is that when we graduate from Earth School we will have released the parts of the ego self which no longer serve us; fear, guilt, limitation, and the need for time and space, while retaining eternally a sense of individuality, yet completely remembering the whole, the IAM, the One, the All That Is, is who I am. We re-merge with the One and keep our unique awareness. Magic.
We are nearing the end of our journey through time and space. We can see the goal of living free from fear, guilt, pain and struggle, but we still have residue of all these. We can see the value of having worked with fear as a warning mechanism, helping us avoid danger.
To give up fear is to lose a long time companion. From where we now stand the remaining part of our journey will go more smoothly if we don’t regard the ego as the enemy. No more battles. No more resistance. The ego is and always has been an essential ingredient of the spiritual path, a friend, a teacher. As our friend Scott Kalechstein Grace says: “Getting rid of the ego is just another ego trip”.
Ego equates to individual awareness. It doesn’t preclude awareness of the One. We want to keep the individuation and the oneness and release mind sets that served us in the past but now we have outgrown. That is no small job. Fear kept us from dancing on the edge of the cliff. Karma taught us not to do harm to others. Now we go with spirit’s choices as to where we dance and how we serve others. It is now safe to release fear, knowledge of right and wrong (judgment), and lack of self confidence.
We cannot give a gift to humanity that we do not possess. We want to give the gift of total inner peace without a trace of fear or guilt. Fear and guilt are ego states of mind only. Fear and guilt are the cause of all the apparent problems, conflicts, disagreements, and wars which seem to manifest in time space. When fear and guilt have been released the only state of mind which exists is love. When fear is released love and peace are our natural condition.
Love does not have to be learned or acquired. You don’t need to seek it. It is the universally normal state of being. It has always been in you. It will always be in you. It has only been temporarily hidden behind the belief in the need for fear to keep us from stepping in front of speeding cars and being damaged or destroyed. The ego says “Fear is good. It warns us of danger”. Spirit says “Look with inner vision. There is no danger.”
How can we give the gift of peaceful mind to group consciousness when we haven’t finished healing our self; when we still encounter fear, caution, and the need for vigilance in our daily lives? Ah, the paradoxes. We teach what we need to learn. We gift what we would acquire. Our gift to humanity is the gift we give to our self as we learn to trust in the safety of Source.
To the ego healing or freeing humanity from the effects of fear and limited belief systems would be an overwhelming job, if it had any interest in going that direction. Fortunately, what the ego thinks is required for us to be a success as light workers is not our job at all. We heal ourselves, our mind, by constant communication with inner guidance, hearing or sensing the voice more clearly each day, building our trust in the safety provided by a holy/healed mind. As we see things more clearly by relying on spirit’s vision instead of our body’s vision, healing is automatic.
Soon we will find our self doing the mental dance of awareness. By paying close attention to our thoughts and feelings we become very aware of old habits of fear-based responses to people and situations, such as arguing, defending or withdrawal (fight or flight). This reminds us that our old friend fear is ready to step in and keep us from falling in a hole.
But with our new friend “spirit guidance” at our side it is now time to thank fear for its service in the past and set it free to transmute into an expression of love. Then we gently, very gently, forgive ourselves for having been fearful and ask for inner peace to return. When we heal our mind, release fear, we will have healed the world. It’s all one, remember?
Our only job as light workers is to change our mind. Nothing out there needs fixing; it is only a mirror whose images can be viewed with inner vision to remind us that there are no victims and we have never made a mistake. We are not powerless in the face of fear; rather we are empowered healers, free to change all threatening situations into expressions of love by allowing inner guidance to reveal the way to us.
It is time to complete our journey. It is freedom time. Jesus said: “It is the father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom”. You can’t work for it. You can’t earn it. You can’t become deserving of it, you have always been deserving of it. You can relax. It is your free gift for playing the game. You have passed all the tests; you have met all the requirements already.
You are home free. You have just been watching a training video low these many lifetimes – a video on individuation and oneness. That’s all just a useful story of course, not a “truth”, because you never left home. You never left your oneness with all that is while you used time to create your uniqueness.
“A Creation Story, A Completion Story,” by Paxton Robey, not dated. https://paxtonrobey.org/