This was written in the evening of Wednesday the 7th of November. Yesterday (the 8th), we got power back to our house at 12:30 pm. after 11 days without, and I had one of the best showers of my life. After finishing a special meditation upstairs, my daughter called up to me from outside and said happily that there was a chem trail with a rainbow through it, and I took this picture.
The camera battery then died and when I got back outside ready for more pictures, this is what I saw. All directly over my back yard.
I’m writing by headlamp, with firelight and flickering, aptly-named hurricane lamps adding to the ambiance. I’m using a legal pad left over from a former life and an actual pen. Snow is falling outside and I can’t recall a more unwelcome storm. I guess that doesn’t mean much because many of my memories seem to be fading away, and I’m feeling okay with that.
There was so much excitement around the conference, and the energy only continued to build all through the first one. At 8 O’clock on a cold and sunny Sedona morning, I felt energized while helping out with registration on the first day. My heart was singing inside of my poncho-covered chest looking into the faces and eyes of folks who were high with anticipation about what was about to happen. Some had names I recognized from “Contact Us,” and it’s always a joy to match an energy and presence with a name one is familiar with.
Being in the presence of some 300 open-hearted people for 3 days was life-altering for me. More than that, it felt as though everyone present had awareness of their own divinity to varying degrees, and we were all there to share our hearts. It was really quite lovely. The beautiful clothing that people wore expressed individuality while their simple presence revealed a true desire for unity and an availability to love.
The business cards that I collected were from a metaphysician, counselors and all kinds of healers. It felt as though all of us were already enjoying our connection despite the fact that we’d only just met. This conference had the flavor of things to come. Juicy and delicious it was and continues to be…life and love with no need to pursue happiness. We are Light itself and all we need do is recognize it in ourselves. Once that magic happens, we see love in everything around us and life starts to get very interesting, indeed.
On the second night of the conference, people planned on going out to try to call in a light ship or three. From where I was standing, I heard “Cathedral Rock at 9:00”, and off I went to my hotel room. It didn’t occur to me that I didn’t know where I was going and that by then it would be dark. I just knew it sounded like fun, and I had a flashlight, map and confidence in the built-in guidance system we all have.
It may be that in order for us to access our gifts, we need to entertain the possibility that we might even have them. Call it sacred play and give it shot, right? After passing the trail head parking lot twice on a dark road, I turned the rental car into our meeting spot, quite on time.
Christopher was the organizer of the Cathedral Rock group and he very kindly waited for any stragglers to show up. We walked up the fairly short but slightly steep trail together and when we got up to the rock I just had to lay flat out with my arms spread wide under the full moon and stars. I was answering an undeniable call to just get my energy as close to the Mother as possible, merge with the rock even.
I felt the presence of my Star Family and had been bathing in celestial and galactic energy all day, so it really didn’t matter to me if we saw a ship or we didn’t. In the full moonlight, the red rocks were no less magnificent than under the Sun and I felt so happy to be there that disappointment was impossible.
My 22” Remo drum came with me and Christopher’s totally awesome hang drum accompanied him to the rock. There were perhaps 20 other Cathedral Rockers up there with us. After circling up and offering our intentions, we sat in the center with our drums and played to the moon and stars and to the red rocks. The experience was dreamy, and I felt to be in a place far away from 3D. Some rather astonishing orb pictures were taken that night in both our location and at the airport, where a much larger group assembled with the same intentions.
These hints at higher-dimensional awareness included a rare occurrence of knowing that I belong somewhere. It may be that everyone at the conferences experienced similar warm, fuzzy feelings because so many of us are isolated in our lives. Being free of the odd-man-out feeling was truly welcome and transformational. Our hearts will carry this energy into Terra Nova and beyond. My feeling is that in our joining, we’ve helped to set in motion an unstoppable wave of love and light across our beloved planet. We aren’t as alone as we might sometimes feel.
Being so focused on the conference, socializing and sight-seeing weren’t so much in the cards for me. Although I did have an unexpected reunion with a fellow who’s been on this Earth from the beginning, as I have. Our connection is an ancient one. Several realizations came through for me during the conferences. As it seems to be with even quantum leaps in consciousness, those realizations felt normal almost immediately.
It’s easy to lose sight of where we were in our understanding before all these rearrangements and rememberings came along. My presence in the ancient Egyptian Mystery School feels like something I’ve always known about but in reality, it’s only come to my conscious awareness this year. Things are moving so quickly now and I can only imagine how my/our understanding will expand by even next week.
Being in the company of the folks I’ve worked with for the past five months was pretty awesome. As Stephen has already said, it felt anti-climactic because seeing one another just felt natural. Now as I write this I wonder if any reunion that feels as though we’ve seen one another last week is because we have, on ships, at night. That goes for the wonderful folks I work with on the 2012 Scenario and InLight Radio as well as the channelers and many of the conference attendees. Some people we hug just feel really good to be with, and looking in their eyes is an experience unto itself.
I love holding hands, so when Mike Quinsey was between my daughter and I on the lunch line and he reached for both of ours and we passed the time chatting away and holding hands, it was a very sweet time for us. When Mike channeled SaLuSa for the first time publicly, at one point he said something like, “We see you. We know you by your light.” I absolutely felt as though they were looking right at me and in retrospect I imagine everyone in the room might have had the same feeling. I wouldn’t be surprised if that magic transferred to everyone who watches it on DVD.
It’s striking how powerfully individual we are and at the same time we feel our hearts as one heart. This is a big message for me and I think for us all. This is the true way of the world, beyond illusion and sourcing from the heart.
In large part it’s a result of the conference, but my role at the 2012 Scenario appears to be shifting. Truly, one person couldn’t keep up with the mail unless one’s life was devoid of any other responsibility or desire. At the first conference, Stephen was doing a fabulous job of being an emcee and I heard him say, “Suzy” and assumed he meant Suzy Ward.
After bouncing up and down a couple times the confusion was cleared and I went up on stage and had a few words to say about what I do and how I came to be doing it. After that, no less than 5 women offered help with the inbox. Plans started developing in my head on how to manage the delegation process and when I got home I was hoping to implement those plans.
What I didn’t plan on was returning to a world devastated by Sandy. We arrived several days into the aftermath where gas was virtually unavailable within range of my almost empty tank.
As it happens, my Ex is a very decent man and he came to rescue us in the wee hours of Saturday with gas he had in a can. My home had already been without power for five days when we got there and today I cleaned out the freezer and fridge. It didn’t bother me as much as I thought it would.
There really have been hidden blessings in this storm for me. The conference trip didn’t allow for much time to be outside or doing my usual meditation. Before today we had two glorious sunny days and I spent much of my time being steward for the land I live on. It looked like a battlefield and it did my soul good to work on bringing peace and order to at least the back yard where we hang out anyway. Not to mention getting time in the magic meditation hammock under the Sun.
We’re devastated by the loss of a big old oak that was blown down. The root ball is ten feet high and it took out 4 other smaller trees with it, and all those are leaning over on several other trees. My insurance company won’t cover any of it because they didn’t fall on a structure. No worries. I reckon I’ll be able to manipulate molecular structure as I like pretty soon. In the meantime I noticed two very exposed and straight roots that would make wonderful carven staffs. What better way to honor such a tree as this?
Back to my plans to delegate. The situation of my unavailability dictated that the process be accelerated, and in that I found an easy way to just let go of needing to give thought to the transition. A few hours at Starbucks every couple days doesn’t cut it, so things happened rapidly in accordance with what was presented in the moment.
Patricia of western Australia has been heroically working to clear the inbox. No time to create a drawn-out procedure…just let go! It’s kind of like jumping into a pool all at once instead of little by little. Anticipation can be a little brutal but once you get in it really isn’t so bad. In fact, it’s downright refreshing! I’m not sure yet what I’m being freed up for but I’m here to serve the Light in whatever way I can.
Post-script ~ Living for six days without power to my house has been a brilliant reminder of all the things we take for granted. It makes me wonder if we’ll be trained to be able to access our power to create in more expanded ways, or the memories will just come in the proverbial blink of an eye.