Kimba relates some of the unusual experiences that she had as a Starseed growing up. Her tales of encounters with dark figures in her life is something that I’ve heard from other Starseeds. Hers was definitely not the type of life that one could describe as “normal” and is not so today either. But where can one discuss such things except among other Starseeds?
Growing Up Starseed
By Kimberly Holmes
May 18, 2011
Ever since I was a young girl, I was very drawn to the stars, sky, sun, and Mother Nature. Always pondering the mysterious question, “Why are we here?” I had a strong feeling I belonged in the stars and asked why I’ve reincarnated so many times and was not allowed to leave. There were always questions in my head. I used to see the motion of trees as an Animal Kingdom there to watch over me, as well as the clouds in the sky shaping into wonderful loving animal figures. I always spoke aloud to the animals that crossed my path, including bugs and spiders. I knew they were created for a purpose – not to kill, but respect.
My eyes were very intriguing to me. I could look directly into them in the mirror at a younger age only and it would seem as if the whole universe was swirling around in them trying to remind me of something lost or forgotten. It was very overwhelming, but very beautiful at the same time. My eyes are hazel, and they always reminded me of the ocean. I was born January 23, 1966 and my astrological sign is Aquarius, the water bearer. In my sign, I have Mars, the Moon, Venus, and the Sun for those that understand this.
My nighttime travels through the star gate, as I came to call it, always began with a tone or frequency in my ears. Then I’d begin rapid eye movement while my eyes were closed. I’d see triangular multicolored shapes flashing in different sequences. It had a specific pattern and would speed up and then finally a bright light would appear moving at hyper speed, like a space ship at warp speed. It would move outwards and then I was gone … quietly sleeping. Then the wake up in the morning felt like I was falling back to Earth or being chased back to my body and then I’d wake up, sometimes almost falling out of my bed.
"I feel like a diamond in the sky full of love and light."
Now I know it wasn’t time to leave Earth. There was still much work to be done. I also know that this whole process was basically sending communications and transferring information to other dimensions or possibly to the galactics themselves. I do feel that what was occurring during my sleep was always of great importance. Now we are nearing 2012. This is leap year and the greatest leap of all time faces humanity.
In November of 1976, I lost my mother to liver cancer. She was only 45 years old. I was 10 at the time. The loss was very difficult for my family, especially my Dad. Everything went into pure responsibility mode and I jumped directly into the role of an adult, ready or not. I still carried an honor-roll grade record in school. But I ended up losing touch with the fantasy dreamland of my child’s creative mind for many years.
The materialistic world, and the need to work for survival totally prevented my mind from focusing on anything but that. I had no time for even simple pleasures, let alone dedicating myself to my soul’s purpose. What was that all about? I had no idea at the time and wasn’t even aware of my situation.
Throughout most of my younger adult life I had many different jobs. I was part owner of a largescale IBM computer refurbishment facility. I must have moved more than 25 times in my life always looking for something, but was never sure what it was. Then from 1993-2003 I settled into a Parts Manager’s position for an Industrial Forklift Company, I enjoyed my career there. I worked with inventory, parts sales and technical and mechanical support for customers, and read schematics and parts manuals. I had the ability to visualize what a customer was looking for without them knowing what the part was properly called.
I enjoyed this job for ten years. Even during that time, I still had not found how to look into my heart and find myself yet. I was always looking outside of the box and noticing that the world was not right. It never felt right. I always had a strong feeling that the world was not what it seemed or how it was intended to be. I saw how corrupt governments were. Taxes seemed unjustified. The individual’s health seemed to be uncovered for a large portion of the population. That did not sit well with me. We have all these great medical programs and technology, in this day and age. This situation should not have been happening to the extent that it was. My perceptions and consciousness kept telling me that this was more like hell on Earth, way beyond what it should be.
A son born was born to me on March 29, 1999. He was beautiful and very well behaved. When I was pregnant I would rub my belly and pray to my mom to make sure he was in good health and that he was the right boy for me. Well, it came true. You wouldn’t have known there was an infant in the house, he was so quiet. Even as a toddler he was quiet and well behaved and could occupy himself easily. He is 12 years old now and receives almost straight A’s all the time. A very bright and wonderful son. I’m truly blessed.
Then the pain started about 2001, I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, I had an extreme nervous disorder. Now that I know more about our very near future, I relate these symptoms to the activation and ascension process. I had 11 different symptoms. I had to leave my career and medically retire. I had such extreme pain that it created chronic depression and addiction to prescription drugs. It was a very trying and challenging time for me. I always felt alone. I never felt I quite fit in, but I would always talk to everybody. I was always kind and caring, but I never had a steady friend.
About the year 2006 I was abruptly woken up out of a blinding sleep. At the time my other half, as I call him, was a darker figure than I then realized. We had many arguments and physical fights. He was an ex-Vietnam Vet, Marine and a retired police officer with post traumatic stress disorder. Lots of anger in him. He didn’t like. let alone love, himself.
The controlling part was more than just a spouse controlling everything. He was a dark one trying to control me through using electronic devices and frequencies and tones. I would wake up in the morning sore, as if I had literally been magnetized to the bed and forced to do things I could not remember while I was sleeping. Then one morning it was like a huge download that was coming in and I could see pictures whizzing by, but they were going at such a rapid rate I could not make them out.
After that, I got out of bed quite disoriented. My head was pounding so hard it felt like it wanted to blow up. My vision was highly sensitive to every little grain on the wall. I could literally see the walls in motion and I could also see every little pixel in the television screen. Talk about strange. My hearing was also amplified. Every little noise either startled me or I responded by looking in the direction where the noise came from.
I felt as if I was being physically controlled, not just mentally. I felt as if I was going crazy, I literally cried out and asked for help, I was rattling off all kinds of Government Agency names and then all of a sudden I requested help from the Galactic Government. That’s how I said it. (Keep in mind I knew nothing at that time about the Galactic Federation of Light.) Suddenly my whole body and head felt like I was getting pinged from outer space. Talk about pain. I think every one of the galactics answered my distress signal. Interesting time, and very scary.
The next few years I watched and learned how the dark ones behaved and operated and discovered much about myself also. I could hear them talking about me off in the distance. They were nowhere around or near me. It was if they were in an alternate reality or dimension. I wasn’t certain but their voices and conversations were distinct and clear. For instance, I heard them talking about my energy and how it was very strong and they wanted to use it… Red Flag there… I don’t think so…
Also, the dark ones magnified my vision beyond anything I had ever seen. They somehow could tap into my eyes and see what I saw and amplify my eyes.
Now this is where much stranger things happened, and I don’t want any one to go into a panic or get upset so I’ll leave this subject aside for now. I dissolved the bonds they had on me as soon as I came to understand what was really going on.
During this time also, I was in short-term therapy on five ocassions. I kept getting these thoughts or messages trying to tell me something. One kept telling me that the crystals were broken and needed repaired. I did not have a clue what this meant at the time. Another message was that we need to take back the keys from the ones that control things.
I also saw out my window on several nights a blue beam leaving the ground and shining all the way into the night sky. I didn’t think anything of it other than that it was some sort of display. Then after much research and communicating with others, I saw that what I was going through at the time was mind control and could have been part of Project Blue Beam. However, I couldn’t prove it. I was only guessing.
Then one night a very beautiful feminine voice, that I’d never heard before, spoke to me and said that we miss you very much and need you home. We love you Kimba. That is the nickname I go by. And believe me it was like being touched by the divine angelic realms. I felt love and joy fill my heart and I also cried and knew at last that I wasn’t alone.
The time had arrived to clear the poison in my mind, let go of the toxic prescriptions and start researching why I felt the need to look at the end of the world and the year 2011 and 2012, which had already popped into my thoughts. I studied and read everything from ancient civilizations, the Universe, astrology, quantum physics, Mayan and other prophecies, UFOs, ancient aliens…etc…
Then while looking up and watching different videos on Youtube I typed in the “Galactic Federation”….then the rest popped up…of Light… Wow, I was stunned and excited to have found such a thing. It was right in line with how I felt and what my mind was truly focused on. Then I found other wonderful sites such as 2012 Scenario, Share11, and PAO Connection, where I finally found friends with whom I could share all my crazy adventures with and learn from as well, and at this point I just kept feeling more and more uplifted and full of joy.
Since I’ve reconnected with my higher inner self and raised my frequency I know that love and truth is within my heart and my days are filled with joy, I still feel the ongoing daily pain of energy changes and DNA upgrades, but I know in my heart it’s well worth the sacrifice. I do some meditation, but I mostly resonate with song and dance, with being outdoors, more of a Native American approach to connect with all the unique energies happening.
I have strong feminine and masculine characteristics about me which seem to help a great deal to remain centered and balanced, and not get caught up in other people’s drama and problems. I remain pretty isolated from most people who are not positive. My Dad is the only person in my life that I can speak to openly about all that is going on. We witnessed a UFO together when I was a teenager and he believes in quite a lot of what I talk about with him. He actually started seeing the 11:11 activation code before I did. My most recent UFO experience was in April 2011. I saw 8-9 yellow orbs above my house. They were dancing about in the sky and swirling around. It was a beautiful sight. I don’t own a video camera. Otherwise I would have documented it.
Furthermore, concerning the dark individual I spoke about, I don’t believe he truly understood the changes that are coming. I feel that he was hiding from or fighting even darker ones, with their really bad agendas. I believe now he was only seeking me out for assistance due to shortages in his own resources. I still communicate with this individual and he has changed much and isn’t as mean, so to speak. He tries to understand what this new light experience associated with these times really means for him, so I do wish him well on his journey. Also, he no longer interferes or creates uncomfortable scenarios. That is the result of compassion from the heart. Not all are truly evil, just lost in the dark, waiting to go on in their own journey as well.
The most important thing I feel I’ve achieved at this time was programming myself. I took much time and put forth much effort, but it was a highly effective technique for me personally. It was like an inner knowing of what to do and how to do it, I would share this but everyone has their own path and unique way of applying their “I Am” Presence in the “Now”.
My mission as a Starseed is to stay grounded with Mother Earth and direct energies and frequencies, (1) remain in communication and transfer information as required. I also have a responsibility to help connect to as many dark people and bring them up to a higher level with my love and compassion so they also understand what is to come in the near future. I do this through mental telepathy.
When a dark individual woke me up, I somehow got connected with the dark ones through the wake-up process I went through. The dark do not have to ability or are not allowed to speak about such things, but they can speak through telepathy openly.
And I love working with all the light workers and learning more from them as to better help the direction we are all moving in.
I wish each and everyone of you a wonderful journey on our path to Enlightenment.
“Free your mind, fly and be free”
Much Love and Light to All,
Kimba
Footnotes
(1) Readers may remember that Ellie Miser also plays this role.