Building Nova Earth: Toward A World That Works for Everyone

Who Am I?

In my view, there is no question more important than “Who am I?”

Everything created in form was brought forth from the Formless to help me answer it.

Every event that happens to me, and every event that does not, happens to help me answer this question.

Ascension, transformation, enlightenment, spiritual evolution are just words that point to the eternal unfoldment of my knowledge of who I am.

The created universe is a closed loop designed to carry me from the Formless, who I am, into form and back to the Formless again. Said Jesus: “I came forth from the Father, and am come out into the world: again, I leave the world and go to the Father.” (1)

The same could be said for each and every one of us: We are on a journey out from the Formless into the world, to know our true identity as the Formless, and then leave the world and return to the Formless again.

Down into form we go, physical angels descending Jacob’s ladder of consciousness, and then up we ascend returning to God.

Up the dimensions we travel, to the Dimensionless Dimension, at each stage knowing more deeply who we are until we reach full knowledge and the end of our journey. The prodigal child has returned Home to the Father.

When I ask the question, “Who am I?”, I either get an experience of who I am or else a barrier to that experience. The whole of my journey is about transcending the barriers to knowing who I am.

It may be that, as long as I’m in form, I may never know the whole answer. I don’t know. But no duty, I believe, has been laid on me higher than to find out that whole answer. No duty stays with me eternally as the duty of answering that question does.

I cast that question, again and again, and get experience or barrier. Sometimes the experience I get is a little more bliss; sometimes an insight; sometimes a moment of direct knowing.

Sometimes the barrier I get is fear, sometimes regret, sometimes resistance.

No matter what else happens, the duty upon me never lifts to persist in answering that question through lifetime after lifetime.

This eternal duty alone was laid upon me – to find out who I am. As far as I’m concerned, all other temporary duties serve it.

Therefore, in all that you read on this site, I invite you to remember that the quintessential duty laid upon us, I think, is to find out who we are.


(1) John 16:28.

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  1. In the fall of 1967 I was walking the streets of San Monica Calif. with a friend. Suddenly Jim asked me this question: “Carl, do you know who you really are?” I stopped, “Well, yes of course, I mean – well, just what are you asking, – I mean – what is it you want to know,” Jim just looked looked deep into my eyes as tho he was peering into my very soul. And in a calm voice said again, “Carl – do you know who you really are?” I paused for a moment and replied, “No Jim, I don’t know who I really am.” That was the end of our conversation the rest of our walk was in silence.

    In March of 1997, I was meditating one evening (alone) in my apartment. Thirty years of time flashed through my mind. Jim was now long departed at far too young an age, My marriage was was no more, and in my own despair of life I had spent 8 years of it under a prison sentence, yet all through that journey I realized I had been helped by my own Spirit Guides who had never abandoned me. I acknowledged their help and that night I said to my Guides, “All these years you watched over me, guided my steps and saved me from certain death; and I don’t even know what to call you. Do you have a name?” Suddenly like a gentle breeze I heard these words, “We are Azcar.” “Is that spelled A-s-k-a-r” “No, A-z-c-a-r” I said OK, if you are Azcar, who am I in relationship to you?” The Answer, “You too are Azcar, together we are One.”

    It took me three more years to find out what the word “Azcar” meant. I looked in the dictionary, I went to the public library, the word was nowhere to be found. Three years later I literally won my first computer as a door prize at a Christmas party in 1999. When I was finally connected to the internet in the spring of 2000, my first search was for the word “Azcar”, I had to find out what this word meant. Yes, it is a word, and it is used in the Seal of the Prophets of the Bahai Religion. But the meaning was not given. I e-mailed the contributor of that article (a complete stranger) on the other side of the world and asked his help. In his kindness he sent me a complete transliteration of the word “Azcar”. It is from Ancient Persia, it means “Of God.”

    When I read this, I wept. When I re-asked my question the meaning is very clear. “Who are you, what do I call you?” – “We are (Azcar) Of God” “Who am I in relationship to you?” “you too are Of God, together we are One”.

    What a wonderful search this has been. In 2002 It was further revealed to me, “From the Cosmos you have come, to the Cosmos you shall return.” I was also promised that I will live on this earth to see the New Paradigm come into being. I am almost 74 years old so I know that this will not be too long from now.

    Thank you, with God’s Love to all,

    Carl Azcar

  2. Asking the question, ‘Who am I?’ is known as atma vichara (Sanskrit). See ‘Ramana Maharshi’, the great modern sage who advocated the direct path of self-enquiry.

    • Absolutely, Duart. Namaste to Sri Ramana.