It’s becoming clear to me that what I’m doing right now – my inner work, as we’d say on the awareness path – is polishing up my barely-existent social skills.
The hermit monk in me is ideally suited for awareness writing, but sacrifices social grace.
But … I’m not complaining. (1) I love what I do.
I was very much impressed by my assignment as Archangel Michael laid it out for me. Writing would always be my main task. Apart from that, I was to have six people report to me. That was it.
So here we have several large organizations – the Golden Age of Gaia in the expanded form it will be, the Michaelangelo Fund, the Lightworkers Congress and the Gender Equality Project all running smoothly and my role in it is restricted to a reporting relationship with six people.
I’m the owner, the financier, and the visionary for the organization.
If that were to happen as planned, I’d be profoundly, fall-down-on-my-knees grateful. Because if I were any busier than that, I don’t think I could write. I have a need for more time to myself – to write – than most people.
But because of some unworthiness script, I don’t believe I have the right to have it all so I don’t entertain a model of how things should run that goes easy on myself.
Back to that have-to-produce model, in answer to my Dad calling me a lazy, no-good good-for-nothing.
Archangel Michael’s model incorporates the best of all things.
I get to see my vision of a world that works put into practice by a network of organizations. I get to see some of the ideas I’ve been working on – principles of largescale employment projects, laying new track, etc. – put into practice, well, maybe… perhaps… If I’m lucky.
And I get to have the possibility of a somewhat normal life, maybe evenings off? Maybe five days a week instead of seven?
And, throughout it all, my main contribution remains writing. This feels like grace to me. I can really have it all?
Save poolside at the Fountainebleau for someone else. If I were there, I’d be typing away on my computer. There’s no use going there or anywhere else in the world and I know it. What I’m doing is what I love doing. And awareness is what I’m cultivating – that and love and bliss.
The Divine Mother, as I understand her, wants us to follow our bliss and our passion, wants us to do what we love, etc. Your lightworker area of work is exactly what you’re most passionate about.
I think I must be saying this over and over again and you’ll have to excuse me. But the Fifth Dimension is blissful. That’s why a Fifth-Dimensional world will work. When you’re in bliss, everything works.
You wouldn’t want to harm anyone. There’s nothing you have that satisfies you more than bliss and hence nothing you wouldn’t gladly hand to another. And so nothing to argue about if anyone felt the least bit inclined to argue, which no one would. Bliss dissolves all concerns and complaints. It leaves everyone entirely satisfied. Now what? Well, let’s go build a world.
Franklin Merrill Wolff revealingly used other names for bliss: ambrosia, nectar, kundalini. Is it the Father’s essence? Is it the Mother’s? An argument could be made for both.
But bliss isn’t there to be argued over. It’s there to be enjoyed. And when we’re all in bliss, the world will work for everyone. Guaranteed.
Now the question is: Do we arrive there in the natural course of things, by simmering in the energies, or do we get there under our own steam and take the rest with us?
(1) Not since “Erasing a Pose or Posture,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=282538