I’ve known for a fairly long time that a space can exist within a person and remain unrecognized. As long as it does, the person remains unaware of it.
It’s not known and it’s not known that it’s not known.
But when recognition dawns, the space comes alive and fills up the individual’s field of awareness.
Bliss was for me outside my range of perception – for whatever reason. I didn’t notice that it was always, already there. I didn’t notice it at all. Before recognizing it, I gave no thought to its existence.
It wasn’t until I recognized it from across the room, so to speak, that bliss became my everything. One instant it was over there and the next minute it was over here and I didn’t see it cover the distance.
Bliss filled my field of awareness with its presence. It blossomed instantaneously upon being recognized.
The moment of recognition, the “Aha!”, the realization unpacked a state of being – and the person with it. It left its mark on me, as realized knowledge always does. (1)
Bliss remained realized knowledge for perhaps three, four months. And then it began to fade away. Naturally I fell into the trap of missing it and trying to hold onto it.
My ascension journey now takes another turn in what seems like endless twists and turns. I now find myself drawn to spaces within myself that have so far gone unnoticed, just as bliss went unnoticed.
I’m spreading my net and taking in the largest range of sensations, noticing mere flashes in my peripheral vision, checking my intuition of moods, vibrations, energies. I’m tasting the air I breathe, not taking anything for granted, not overlooking any unnoticed space.
Let me explore those rejected moods, uncomfortable feelings, and shadow thoughts. Any one of them could be a door in.
(1) I use the words “realization” and “realized knowledge” more broadly than most enlightened authors. I am not enlightened and use it to mean the many moments of realization that don’t eventuate in enlightenment, but do leave their traces on a person. They have the power to cause us to change our behavior. Intellectual knowledge, for instance, usually doesn’t and experiential knowledge may or may not.