(Continued from Part 1.)
I’d like to continue looking at the feeling-level experience of love that I was immersed in the other day.
The space of love and bliss that I was then in seemed unshakeable. I noticed that, while in it, I made choices, but had no preferences. I was in what Sosan and Krishnamurti called choiceless awareness. Just being here with nothing added. Acting without acting. Remaining centered. Doing what worked and whatever I did worked.
I saw then, a little more strongly than I do now – since I’m not in that space any longer – that I’m entirely a form made by love from itself, immersed in a sea of love.
I was not in a transcendental sea of love, more a feeling sea. It was therefore not realized, but experiential, knowledge. But it was still very pleasant.
I saw all traces of “me and mine” and “I want” (ego and desire) disappear. All self-importance and strong desire left.
The fact that I had no preferences was very important. It isn’t that preferences as preferences are bad. It’s that preference is a form of strong and persistent desire that takes us away from the the center point, the stillpoint, the heart.
Away from the heart is another way of saying away from love. Going away from the heart is what Jesus called distraction: “Come back to what is important. And that is, you are love. It is all you have ever been. Everything else — everything else, every other lifetime — is just a distraction.” (1)
We distract ourselves endlessly from the love that we are and that’s present in our hearts. And then we wonder why we feel so low or down or awful.
Preferences end up being a distraction from love, from our natural state. The only reason there isn’t a hue and cry raised and a global campaign started to restore love to all our lives is that so few of us have experienced transformational love. Hardly any of us know it exists. We know romantic love does but that’s the merest shadow of the other.
I’ve experienced transformational love around two dozen times in spiritual experiences prior to this latest, extended round. But these earlier years covered mere minutes a year. And then the memory faded away and I was back to normal again.
And this would be after weeks, months and years of intense work in workshops and retreats. The real kicker is that each of these experiences repaid years of spiritual work.
I noticed the other day, as I flirted with my preferences, that I withdrew more and more from the space of love. I could have kept going with it but I probably would have found myself entirely out of the experience of love and back in lower vibrations again.
Preferences are part of the spectrum of desire. After them come strong desires and then attachments and then addictions. Our desire goes under different names the stronger it gets. But it’s still the same longing, yearning, desire.
When we reach the stage of addiction, we’re firmly attached to the lower virations and incapable of clear discrimination. Krishna described the process and its outcome here:
“Thinking about sense-objects
Will attach you to sense-objects;
Grow attached, and you become addicted;
Thwart your addiction, it turns to anger;
Be angry, and you confuse the mind;
Confuse your mind, you forget the lesson of experience;
Forget experience, you lose discrimination;
Lose discrimination, and you miss life’s only purpose.” (2)
The only purpose of physical (vs. spiritual) life is to assist us to build the power of discriminating between the Real and the unreal. Realization of the Real is the purpose of all life, all lives, lives in all dimensions, etc. Our discrimination is most acute when we’re in our heart, our center. Preferences take us away from that center.
Why is that center important? Because it’s still. Why is stillness important? Because the Transcendental is still and, to experience it, our minds must be still.
Cutting the cords of preferences doesn’t mean I don’t choose. I do. But there are no strong forces playing on me as I choose – well, except love. I’m going to modify what Krishna said and argue that love is all that a person can desire without transgressing the law of their nature. (3)
Put another way, love is the only thing we can desire that’s free. Everything else carries a karmic price tag.
I’ve already been using Archangel Michael’s blue sword of truth to cut away all attachments from the external part of my body each morning in meditation.
But preferences feel as if they’re on the inside. I now use Michael’s blue sword on the inside of my body too, to remove all preferences. And, yes, I really find it works.
Basically we have to eliminate every form of tie that keeps us in the lower vibrations – preferences, strong desires, attachments and addictions. We have to remain in our centers. Not like I’m so great at this. I’m not. But I’m getting better.
When we cut all preferences, we remain in the heart and exist in our natural, native state – which is love.
Sahaja samadhi, which this was not, is also our “natural state.” I take it this time spent in bliss was just a nibble, a hint, a gift of the angels.
I remained in the loving state as I went about my errands in Vancouver. Everything was different. Every interaction worked. If the whole world felt this way and lived it, the world would instantly work.
(1) “Jesus: You are Love. It is All You Have Ever Been,” channeled by Linda Dillon, December 18, 2013, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/12/jesus-you-are-love-it-is-all-you-have-ever-been/.
(2) Sri Krishna in Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher Isherwood, trans., Bhagavad-Gita. The Song of God. New York and Scarborough: New American Library, 1972; c1944, 71.
(3) “I am all that a man may desire
The law of his nature.” (Sri Krishna, ibid., 71.