And I remembered how much love – not transformative love, but very pleasant all the same – I felt in the years after the vision (1) because of a decision I made.
I resolved from that moment on to read nothing but the works of enlightened authors.
Oh, my heavens, what a wonderful next ten years I had. For ten years after that, I wrote on nothing but enlightenment, drawing on those sources.
And now, as I search for ways to refashion all my behavior so that it is “of love,” I feel a great attraction to making that decision again.
I felt a little embarrassed to find that a crisis had erupted in Indiana over gay rights and I hadn’t been aware of it. But I still don’t want to go back to reading mainstream media.
We all will have to specialize at some point and I feel the need to bear down and specialize to find a new way.
So I’m letting go of the guilt I feel at not keeping up with world news and burrowing down into the literature that I’ve always loved – the literature of enlightenment. The draw on me is almost impossible to resist at this moment.
If I can’t go off to a Himalayan mountain because it isn’t in my soul contract, I can bring the mountain to me. In no other time could we do that, but in this one we can.
(1) The vision of the total life journey of an individual soul, from God to God, that I had on February 13, 1987. See “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/.