We’re all of us core clearing, it seems. I hear from your email that you’re at the end of your branch, just as I feel from day to day.
I can report that the finding of a grounds of identification with my Dad has resulted in a tremendous release of love and peace within me. I should have read Making Peace with Your Parents years ago.
It’d be self-serving of me to represent the situation as “I did it!” I had lots and lots of help for which I’m very grateful and make full acknowledgment. They know who they are.
If I’m to be an honest reporter, I have to add that there is no end to vasanas short of sahaja samadhi.
AND if you have a mid-range enlightenment experience (Cosmic Consciousness or even Brahmajnana), your vasanas may even become magnified. So enlightenment does not take one out of the woods.
I saw that during one spiritual experience I had, before which I was thinking randy thoughts about a young bank teller while at the same time thinking about aspects of the Reval.
Suddenly my inner field of experience opened up majestically. BUT so did my secret thoughts. In one terrifying instant, I became a monster full of lust and greed. And then the experience vanished. But it certainly got its message across to me. OK, OK, I get it. Time to purify the mind.
We have to be reasonably complete with our vasanas before the Reval hits, before Disclosure becomes a reality, and before Ascension arrives.
All these events will bring up layers and layers of vasanas we never knew we had unless we’ve been diligent.
We might want to try to become facile in working with vasanas. Several new technologies are appearing that promise good results in eradicating them. I actually can’t keep track of all the techniques I’m hearing about.
But if you can’t remember any technique, just do this: Name the feeling you feel (vasanas are “filed” under feeling). Be with and experience that feeling through to completion. It will lift.
If you want to speed its departure, ask it what earlier, similar incident it relates to. Take the first picture, word or image that comes to mind and experience that as well through to completion.
I assert that this is the most basic way of handling vasanas known to the human race. Even Jesus recommends it. (1)
Just to give a quick example of the next layer of vasanas that arose for me, here’s one that went off today.
I was about to do something and all of a sudden I pulled back. My confidence drained away and I felt depressed.
I asked my mind to send up a picture of an earlier, similar incident that lay at the root of this fear and I saw my Dad blaming me for something. And I realized how much blame, shame and guilt I imbibed as a youngster.
The result was that I felt held back, suppressed, feelings that were followed by shame, depression, etc. Having gotten through so much else around my Dad, I’m now going through layers of suppression.
And so it continues. While there isn’t a stop to vasanas (unless there’s a stop to memory), I’m sure they become less bothersome and easier to process as the energies lift us higher and higher up.
In my case of dealing with suppression arising from blame and shame, I just “be’d with” the sensations that arose. I then began to canvas other techniques I could use.
I took myself back to an earlier time when blame and shame was not going on in my family. I was very, very young.
Nonetheless I sank a stake in the moment I came upon and asked Archangel Michael to take away all the memory of blame and shame from the years ahead. Everything. I released it to his tender care, as he has told me to do.
I then wrapped up any scraps and residual feelings in a duffel bag and sent them off to the Divine Mother for incineration. I asked her to send me peace and love instead.
A quick pass around my body with AAM’s blue sword of truth and peace to catch even the stubble. A quick jump in the violet flame of transmutation for a final cleansing.
Then I began to breathe up love from inside and send it out to the world. Remembering what Mary Magdalene said, I sent it out with utter power and abandon. (2)
And the vasana was gone. I’m beginning to enjoy all the ritual. I find it comforting.
I sense at a very deep level that all of us need to be squeaky clean if we’re to navigate the waters ahead successfully. It used to be that that was a high standard to aim for and now I see it as a necessity. Love will make it easier.
As we gear up to build Nova Earth, we need to learn whatever skills we can at restoring our peace of mind by mastering our response to our vasanas.