(Continued from Part 1.)
Stumbling into a Whole New World
I can draw on my own experience of what a breakthrough looks like.
I stumbled onto a paradigm of communication as an unintended consequence of sourcing a vasana. The vasana itself is unimportant. I regularly go through a stack attack at the end of each month over my frustrations.
This one brought up everything that was out in my life. And it brought up a constructed self I think of as the rebel.
But that wasn’t the most interesting part. The most interesting part was that it threw into stark relief my communicational paradigm, which wasn’t working, and introduced me to a new paradigm.
Let’s look at two paradigms of communication that we’ve had in the last, oh, hundred and fifty years. The new paradigm I saw would be a third.
The Victorian era had a communicational paradigm that said that we grow by repressing or denying ourselves.
Victorian novels feature women collapsing because they became excited or hysterical (neurasthenia). Men were pictured as becoming debauched because they gave vent to their anger or cursed someone.
This view of things reflected the fact that the body was seen as having a fixed amount of energy. If we bled off energy in emotional reactions, that energy had to be borrowed from somewhere else, causing depletion in some other faculty.
So if we suddenly grew excited, our body was physically drained of energy and we fainted. If we expended energy cussing another, we bled off the energy needed to maintain our ethical refinement and became debased.
This paradigm is not “true.” In fact we have access to a great deal of energy from sources we know not. We’re just learning about that at the present time and I don’t consider myself an expert in the subject.
The Sixties and Seventies saw a paradigm arise that said that we grew by expressing ourselves. This is the paradigm that I came to see that I was anchored in.
We let it all hang out, dropped the suppression, encountered each other, etc.
All our expression was seen as creative rather than destructive, which is where it differed from the Victorian perspective. Everything became a matter of creativity. I even recall a book called Creative Divorce, which took the paradigm about as far as it could go.
This paradigm helped end a lot of useless suppression in our society but it also took its toll. Our unbridled expression, which we considered “creative,” scared a lot of people who could not understand the benefit of owning and expressing our anger, etc.
When I sourced or completed my vasana, the fact that I lived in a context or paradigm called “creative expression” became plain to me because my vasana had me speak … well, shall we say “creatively”? … to my guides, the universe, anyone who would listen.
I saw the limits of the old paradigm of creative expression and, in a glimpse, an “Aha!” moment, I saw the new paradigm – self-mastery.
The glimpse began to spread through me. It was a matter of dawning awareness rather than an explosion into the paradigm. Let me look at this new domain that was made apparent.
The Arcturians through Sue Lie once said to me that the new leaders of our coming society will have to have mastered every thought and feeling. I sure don’t see myself in that place at this moment.
At the height of my vasana attack, I realized that my “creative expression” of it was not working. I railed at the universe and, while I knew somebody was listening, I didn’t get that the way I was expressing it was serving me.
I was watching myself as I blustered and saying to myself: “This doesn’t work. This is not having the desired effect.”
And either my guides whispered in my ear or I remembered the Arcturians use of the phrase: “Self-mastery.”
I more or less awoke to the notion as a paradigm, that self-mastery was the domain I now needed to explore. I was like the newest newbie on the block in a new domain I knew nothing about. But as the hours passed, I realized that I’d been given the answer I was looking for and now needed to build the context, the paradigm, the domain of meaning for myself.
Right now it seems like unexplored territory and dense jungle at that.
I could count the number of things I know about it on one hand.
Jesus has described in “The Third Way” the three paradigms.
“There [are three ways] to experience your own human emotions. The first way was to totally identify with your anger [creative expression]. . . The second way was to crowd it out, to suppress it and to condemn it [creative repression].
“The third way is to allow it – to let it be and to transcend it [self-mastery]. That is what consciousness does. The consciousness of which I speak does not judge – it is a state of being.” (1)
The third way is self-mastery and will involve observing our thoughts and feelings and not reacting to them. Others have encouraged us to get rid of our judgments. The new way of self-mastery is being imparted to us in bits and pieces.
Until I reach a point of completion with my past and the cleansing of all old baggage, issues, vasanas and false grids, I may not be proficient at it. I may stumble around a lot, but that’s the way with new paradigms.
I’ll share some of my realizations in the next piece and then in the last piece share the lessons I’ve learned about sourcing a vasana and breaking through to a new paradigm.
(Continued in Part 3.)
(1) “Jeshua via Pamela Kribbe: The Third Way” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/01/jeshua-the-third-way/.