(Continued from Part 1.)
The feeling of shame I now see as a warning signal. If I feel shame, I’m doing or about to do something whose integrity is at least questionable. It’s me warning myself.
And I need to exercise commitment, a factor of will, to avoid going where I’m going. This is getting easier and easier to do these days, by the way.
Will and commitment are to consciousness as muscle and effort are to the body. Commitment is an action of will and will itself is a feature of consciousness. And consciousness is what we are, not this body or anything associated with it and not even this mind, which is a higher-dimensional “body” but still not who we are.
So my distinction, my testable hypothesis becomes: If I want to continue shining brightly, then I have to remain squeaky clean. The price of continuing to shine is squeaky-clean integrity.
If I want to remain squeaky clean, I need to exercise my commitment to do so and I need to love doing so. I need to appreciate the feeling that being squeaky clean brings to me, independent of any rewards.
A commitment to being squeaky clean in my behavior is what holds me to the new Fifth-Dimensional framework and perspective. Shame, for now, alerts me to a situation where I may be straying from squeaky-clean integrity and, if I do stray, I may have to give up shining or remaining as love in a higher-dimensional world.
Shame itself is a vasana (a triggered, upset-producing behavior pattern traceable to traumatic events in the past) and would be handled as any other vasana. We’ve gone over that ground so often, that I leave that subject aside for now. (1)
I may make conscious choices to take a course of action that others may not agree with and so I can and will be assailed for what they see as departing from integrity.
Whether I have or not is something that’s really only “verifiable by me” as the actor in the last analysis and, as one friend says, the “man in the mirror.” That can lead to self-serving behavior and rationalization in many people but it’s becoming more and more difficult for a lightworker to be self-serving.
And there’s no escaping the situation being verifiable by me anyways. I am the only one who can decide if a course of action is a mistake for me. No one else can. Yes, I can be sentenced to jail by a judge who decides that the action lacked integrity. But, in the final analysis, whether the act is a mistake or not is a matter to be decided by me and my Maker.
So I establish a beachhead in a strange, new land, by establishing an initial distinction, testing it out, and then moving out from there. And the distinction I have established as my first beachhead into the strange, new land of Fifth Dimensionality is that if I want to remain shining bright, I must remain squeaky clean in my integrity.
(1) See the many articles under “On Processing Vasanas” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/on-processing-vasanas/http://goldenageofgaia.com/on-processing-vasanas/