This is a longish post because the situations I’ve just encountered have been complex and difficult for me and this is my outworking of them.
If its length is more than the time available to you, please feel free to leave it and pass on to the next article.
Even before the reval occurred, I heard of people gifting each other with dinars and dong. It’s as if a wellspring of generosity arose that could not wait for external events to catch up.
It chipped away at a belief system which I’d best typify by the attitude, from long ago, called “Looking Out for Number One.”
People are expressing a desire to look out for others. At the same time, situations arise that trigger fresh vasanas as we assume new roles, such as the role of financial wayshowing.
A vasana is a complex of traumatic memories that upset us, triggered by an event in the present that resembles one in the past.
We’re wayshowers and participants in the process sparked by the reval, whether the reval itself has occurred or not (and it hasn’t as I write this), whether we gifted others, assisted in the gifting, heard of it and supported it, or reported on it.
Let’s face it. As starseeds, we agreed to be wayshowers. Wayshowing goes along with the territory that most of us starseed lightworkers are playing in.
Starseed = lightworker = wayshower. That’s why we came. It’s what we agreed to. And we can only either deliver on our promise or back out of it.
I remember writing articles years ago saying that we were preparing for a leadership role in the New Age fast approaching. Well, yes, we are and here it is.
When the going has gotten tough, we’ve complained that there was no one to talk to about the matters we’re involved in like Ascension or Disclosure, and now the reval. But wayshowers are by definition out ahead of things.
As Archangel Michael said the other day, we’ve agreed to lead rather than follow. So, yes, we’ve had few people to talk to and that just gets even more so as we enter new fields triggered by impending events.
I watched three vasanas go off in me yesterday. One was connected to unresolved control issues I have, happening now in new or bigger fields.
The second was connected to attitudes I have connected to adversarialism – the kind of blood rising when one believes one is facing an adversary, criticism, or the need to defend oneself.
And the third was connected to a tendency to judge others, which related to a third incident – which had not yet even happened and so had to be occurring entirely in my mind.
And all three vasanas went off in an atmosphere of rushing to complete the gigantic workload that participation brings.
My brother Paul, a family therapist, is fond of quoting Will Rogers, to the effect that I’ve experienced a lot of bad things in my life and some of them actually happened.
Nothing was happening outside me. In all cases a simple vasana was triggered by a situation in the present that looked like a situation in the past.
Other people were not playing the roles I ascribed to them. It was the roles I ascribed to them that were the problem. “You made me mad.” “You did this and you did that.”
Most situations in which vasanas go off are imaginary.
Vasanas are self-contained, self-triggering, and self-hypnotizing. We leave the realm of reality and enter into the realm of the mind, fooling ourselves that we’re standing on principle. Off we go on what can often be a tragic tangent.
I was dumbfounded by the end of the day. I had thought myself cleared of vasanas. But by assuming a new role – a willingness to play a role triggered by the reval – I had brought myself into a new area which caused vasanas to go off that I didn’t even know I had.
No, we haven’t escaped our vasanas as we emerge from Third Dimensionality; we’ve just invited a new and more refined level of them along with the need to clear them.
And another thing, as the saying goes: Vasanas do not cease just because we’ve entered an area of positive benefits. They don’t fall silent because we’re playing a “good-guy” role, replacing the “bad guys.” They’re no respecter of persons or occasion, which makes for the stuff of comedy. World leader has fit of anger. Hollywood star throws chair at spouse.
Wayshowing requires courage. It’d be easy to say “this is too hard” and retire from the field right at the get-go. Wayshowing requires us to say “I made a mistake” or “I feel irritated” without falling back into the old Third-Dimensional ways of protecting ourselves, projecting blame, and battling with each other.
The answer for me is not to avoid the role, to give up at the first sign of obstacles or barriers, but to recognize our vasanas going off and refine or adjust our forward motion to take them into account while continuing.
Just as AAM advised us to have a contingency fund when gifting, so we also need a contingency fund of love for ourselves because we’ll make mistakes in this or any new role.
Gee, I hope that’s not expressed in too complex a fashion. It’s an eye-opener for me because I thought I was capable of participating in this work by the very fact that I had “cleared” my vasanas. But such is not the case. I haven’t cleared my vasanas. And a new situation is guaranteed to bring that home compellingly to me.