There’s one aspect of growth which is giving me difficulty and I discuss it in the event that it relates to you as well.
For decades perhaps, I’ve regarded loosening up as a very agreeable aspect of things. We’ve heard such slogans as “let it all hang out,” “let go,” “don’t be up-tight,” etc. And as a society we went through a long period of letting go of norms that seemed to crimp our style, make us conform, and what have you. I think everyone is familiar with that trend.
But what I’m observing in myself is the approach of a time when I, and many others, will be interacting with galactic beings, higher-dimensional beings, and unfamiliar beings and the perceived demands of that upon me (and perhaps upon you) are different than anything I’ve been used to before.
I firmly believe that things are happening in our sleeptime which are material to the feelings arising in me. I think we’re approaching some major events (but then for how long have I been saying that?) and at some level, below conscious awareness, I believe I’m aware of that.
And the more we school ourselves in the channeled messages of the masters, galactics and celestials, the more we see that a time is arriving when the stakes will go up, the demands will increase, and the protocol will need to firm up as well.
Being the carefree flower child may not be quite as appropriate these days as it’s been for so many years in the past.
Much of what seems to be called for feels counter-intuitive and sends shivers up and down my spine because it seems to make me look … dare I say it? … anal.
At the same time, when I make a change in this direction, I also get on my own back and ask myself what took me so long to let go of that minor bad habit or that pet pleasure which is no longer appropriate. So I give it to myself both ways.
I was chatting with the Arcturians through Suzanne Lie the other day and the issue was brought forcefully to me. I had engaged in behavior previous to the call which was probably not something I can keep doing because it had me face them feeling a tad guilty.
The Arcturians communicate telepathically. They can read my mind. So there’s no hiding from them. I found the moment acutely embarrassing and that was another circumstance that set me thinking.
I’ve been having thoughts lately that the time is coming to make myself (and this is a word that probably is not popular these days) purer. I already know that greater maturity is expected of me. I know I have to finish the issues that raise anger or even irritation in me. But “purer” was never something I paid attention to. The price of admission seems to keep going higher and higher.
Certainly some of the cleansing of my character is going on without the need for attention, because of the rising energies. But there are areas of behavior which are mine to deal with independently of the elevating vibrations.
A movement from up-tight to looser is fine but a movement from looser to more observant, circumspect, and prudent is not as easy and I find myself at times grumbling and wanting to take my ball and bat and go home. This is no fun. I just wanna have fun.
I’m not engaging with this phase of growth with the same eagerness I’ve engaged with other things in the past, even though I know it’s important. This isn’t a phase I consider myself accomplishing gracefully. In some respects, I’m kicking and screaming – though quietly.
So I just wanted to share that in case anyone else is feeling the same way. This is a time that draws on more mature and spiritual responses than I’m used to drawing on every day. I know I’ll be happy with the outcome but I’m not as happy with the process.