Here’s a hands-on account of the clearing of a really complex instance of transference.
Christina Mahler is a shamanic practitioner living in Zurich. She’s a member of the Nova Earth Foundation team. I’m quite sure we’ll all hear a great deal more from Christina as time goes on.
Christina recently assisted me to move through my transference, using a technique from the “Clarity Process,” developed by the late Jeru Kabbal. In recording what occurred, my intention is to illustrate how clearing work sometimes proceeds.
Christina began our work together by listening to my entire statement of what was happening, how I felt about it, the amount of latitude I had in working with it. Because the vasana was not present, I could only recreate the condition to a limited extent by sharing.
She then began having me identify the unwanted feelings or conditions. The predominant feeling I had was sadness, even miserableness, at the memory of my folks fighting.
She traced back with me how long that had been going on and it went all the way back to the womb, where I clearly recall hearing my Mom and Dad arguing. I realized then that, all through my life, I’ve carried a deep, subconscious feeling of miserableness that has always colored my experience. After she finished her work with me on clearing the vasana, she hooked me back up, so to speak, with the time in my life that preceded it.
She used a device that folklorists might call the “talisman.” The talisman is the miraculous agent of cure or good fortune. In my case, she invited me to create an image of a higher-dimensional being who could assist me. I chose to see my Mother as a kind of fairy godmother, complete with wand and wings, and had her take the unwanted feelings away from me.
This type of approach is something I haven’t drawn on as much as, say, the archangels have been suggesting we might. But in doing it with Christina, I did notice that it absolutely worked. Some of the increase in workability may be attributable to the rise in vibrational frequency that the new energies are bringing in.
Christina had me locate the feelings in my body and allow the higher being to to do something to take them away. In some instances my helper touched a place on my body with her wand. At other times she used her hands to draw out feelings or to place over top of my Mom and Dad and quiet their disagreements.
She asked me if I could envision my Dad happy and I had to admit that I could not recall ever seeing my Dad in a state that I could say was pure happiness, untinged with something else. And then I realized that the same could be said of me. Insights like these just rolled out.
In later life, my Dad took up yoga, growth work, etc. And he could be said to have been happy but by the same token there was always something held back. (Remember Kahlil Gibran? They shall laugh but not all of their laughter; cry, but not all of their tears?)
It was as if he was burdened with … and here I’m surely projecting onto him … guilt or shame. But that was no different than me always feeling a substratum of misery.
At last I recovered a few memories of my Dad looking unequivocally happy at the end of an est workshop that we did together and found I could build on that memory. Actually visualizing him happy was releasing for me.
While all this release of burdensome feelings was happening, I watched as my attitude towards the world shifted. Prior to this, if I heard a noise outside, I’d be disturbed. A car pulling away would rattle me; a bird would irritate me. The world was not a friendly place for me because at some level I always felt miserable.
But now, as we did this work, that changed and I felt myself drawn into and a part of the sounds outside. A car pulling away felt soothing to me now and the birds cheered me up. I experienced this as a definite shift.
She asked me to replace the departing feelings with the feeling I wanted and we worked our way through several – love, calm, peace, etc. She asked me to choose which I wanted foremost. I chose peace (because all else is available in peace, I reasoned). Christina then let me go to enjoy that feeling and I did so in meditation for perhaps the next two hours.
I must say that following this work, I wanted nothing more than to spend a great deal more time in meditation. I see myself as having been so busy in past years because it was almost as if, given the way I felt, the most I could do was work. If I tried to meditate for long, I became restless. But I don’t feel restless any longer.
Just as I would after an enlightenment intensive, I feel normal. In other words, I’m no longer burdened by what I wasn’t even aware of – which was a predominant, low-level feeling of miserableness.
How I felt earlier was not normal. It isn’t normal to feel miserable. But then, most of the ways we feel in Third Dimensionality, many of our sources have told us, are anything but normal and certainly not necessary.
What Christina demonstrated to me was that we can use our imagination to assist us to release our unwanted feelings and that the release gained in that way actually does stick.
Notice that this is not the way I would have sourced a vasana: I would have used the “Upset Clearing Process.” (1) But this vasana did not yield to my own process and I’m very happy to use another’s. It did yield to Christina’s.
Psychotherapist Virginia Satir used to encourage us to have three approaches. If we had only one, we might become stuck, as I was. If we have only two, we may get bogged down making one right and the other wrong. But if we have three, we defeat the mind’s tendency to play with them.
So if we take stock of this whole thing as a process, we see that the transference started at least a week ago, maybe two, survived my own processing all that time, actually expanded to take in both my parents, and at last yielded to a process that involved regression, imagination, visualization, and interpretation.
Archangel Michael has invited lightworkers to share their processing and so I do that here. At the same time, we know that we as a global society are going through a tremendous process of release to allow us to rise to the frequency of the Fourth and Fifth Dimensions. So processing and releasing are definitely the order of the day.
This for me shows up like perhaps the most significant vasana I’ve sourced short of those connected to instances of family violence and my Mother’s death in a housefire. It’s also a vasana that I didn’t even know I had. Given how long I’ve been working away at clearing, I was surprised to see that I had a major vasana entirely unknown to me.
Footnotes
(1) See examples of this process under “On Processing Vasanas” at https://goldenageofgaia.com/on-processing-vasanas/