For the last twelve hours, I’ve been so fatigued that I couldn’t get out of bed. And when I did, I felt like a drunk, almost ready to keel over. So what did I do with that? I said: I felt tired.
And of course I did feel tired. As Benjamin Lee Whorf said, (1) life showed up the way I described it. Believing was seeing.
And then something happened that changed it all – and I can only report on it. It’s not as if I can explain to you what actually did happen. I can’t.
I had an inspired thought that said: You are not tired. You are going through a dimensional shift.
You know that I’ve said in regards to vasanas that we should take the first image of the original incident that the mind brings to our attention. No rejection of a thought, no editing. Unconditional acceptance of the very first thought.
Well, here too, I almost ignored this thought, but then I reminded myself of how I would proceed with a vasana (2) and embraced the thought. OK, I’m going through a dimensional shift.
The minute I did so, the whole situation shifted. Immediately I was no longer tired. If anything I was energized. But the “me” that was energized was a lighter version of me, not at all related to the older version.
As long as I centered my awareness in the older version of me – let’s call it the older Third (3) version – I was tired, bedraggled, energyless. But as soon as I shifted my awareness, and allegiance, to the newer version – let’s call it the nova me – I was absolutely fine again.
I think I just went through the process of moulting that I talked about yesterday. I believe I was inspired to use the word “moulting” yesterday and then taken through the process one day later. I believe that this is the way things work round about now.
(And even talking about this right now is exactly me doing my job as a starseed and going through the process of Ascension consciously, sharing as I go along, and acting as leaven in the loaf.)
I believe that I have indeed just gone through a dimensional shift, whose exact dimensions are not known to me. I feel lighter, way, way lighter. I feel wonderful. I feel absent of any negative condition or emotion.
As I was making the shift from the one dimensional experience to the other, there was a moment during which I first contemplated letting go of the old Third experience. And as I did so I became aware of feeling some ennui, despondency. Part of my old Third experience was feeling tired and feeling bad about feeling tired.
This ennui entirely evaporated the minute I stopped holding onto my old Third experience. I feel no ennui at all now. And we’re talking about a transition of just seconds in duration. One minute I was tired and despondent; the next minute I am fine, lighter, resilient, energetic. Life can change in a heartbeat.
If that is not a birth experience or a moulting or whatever, I’d be hard-pressed to know what might be. I’ve passed through some kind of portal, some kind of birth, and I feel totally marvellous. I think this is what is meant by gradual Ascension or Ascension as a process.
I take a deep breath and it’s as if my body is cloudlike compared to what it was. I feel a total absence of any situation, any condition, to which I could attach a word of complaint. I feel wonderful.
I’m going to continue with my day off because I have so much to catch up on that was postponed while I was writing this latest book. But I’m no longer dragging myself around! Ah, now here comes the bliss. I am steeped in bliss at this moment. Just up it arose and completely took me over. Welcome, friend. Welcome, comforter.
Strange voyage we are on. Unpredictable. Unknowable. Wonderful.
(1) “The Difficulty with Words,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/spiritual-essays/the-path-of-awareness/the-difficulty-with-words/
(2) A vasana is an archaic reaction pattern born of an earlier traumatic incident.