Many years ago, I remember watching helplessly as a favorite relationship imploded because the two of us had hit what I then called a “nuclear issue.” A nuclear issue was an issue that moved ever closer to “mutual assured destruction,” with no solution apparent.
I remember how horrified I was because the two of us seemed imprisoned in automaticity. Our moves were tightly scripted. No surrender seemed possible. And each fresh move only brought us closer to the brink of destruction.
I was recently in this situation again but older now. I think I was in it not because of anything related to what was happening but because the energies, portals, planetary conjunctions or whatever else are forcing up our most basic vasanas and just brought this monster up from the deep. Megaladon meets the Giant Squid.
At last I saw what made an issue nuclear.
As clever children, by watching the outcomes of situations, we develop over time a finer and finer set of manipulative tools designed to bring us what we want. And my chief manipulation, my favorite ploy was to be difficult.
As the runt of the litter, I was famous for choosing the very best moment for jamming a stick in the spokes of the turning wheel. The whole enterprise went arse over tea kettle when I refused to cooperate and sulked just when things needed to move quickly.
This was vintage Steve, the one no one ever listened to. This was the guy who brought the whole shooting match to a halt with a deft twist of his wrist at exactly the right time. And of course I was always justified.
The chief feature of a nuclear issue, I now see, is that we’re encountering from the other person our chief manipulative ploy that we never in our lives devised a counter to, a defense against – or even thought one possible.
It was the strategy that brought our opponent to his knees and now someone was using it against us. That’s what leads to our inability to defend ourselves and our eventual meltdown.
So if I encounter a hard gameplayer who’s using my device of last retort, for which I have no defense and for which I think there is no defense, then chances are high that the issue, from my side, is going to go nuclear.
This being Mob Week on TV, having just finished Armageddon Week and Alien Invasion Week, the next fright agenda the entertainment industry is foisting on us out of slavish obedience to the cabal is a focus on nuclear issues. “Taking care of someone” to the mob means wiping them out. How much more nuclear can you get?
I watched Al Pacino last night repent for his lifetime as a mobster. And one of the things he or Diane Keaton said, was that old age and sickness soften a man.
Well, being able to look back on a lifetime does make it easier to spot my own ploys. Had I been able to spot this one, I would have been able to save my treasured relationship.
But now, in this time of utter purification, the nuclear options are coming off the table. They’re arising to be experienced and released hopefully for the last time.
Archangel Michael’s Strategic Peace Initiative is about to see us lay down arms as individuals and render our worst weapons inoperable.
I’m about to lay down the weapon I call my Ultimate Peacemaker, the weapon that devastates the landscape and plays on the ultimate trap for parents, the guilt over being labelled a brute because you mistreat a young person (even one who is raining on your vacation by bringing a trip to a standstill).
I begin to prepare myself. I turn my awareness on how I feel after having been difficult.
I begin to experience through the exceptionally-difficult emotions that arise. I see the images flit before me of our trip to Disneyland, our trip to Montreal, family fights and all the other situations in which I became Dennis the Menace to get my way.
The band plays Taps. I feel myself forgiving everyone in my family drama, including – especially including – myself. And that most difficult chapter in my personal history gradually closes. Having now the tools I never had then, I now can work my way through a nuclear issue.
And just in time before the entire landscape goes into nuclear winter if I continue on this devastating path much longer.