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Our world and Humanity as a whole are in the fires of transformation, and one of the hugest themes of this year and the next is taking back our personal power; thus I see communicating about it to be a high priority. Post your experiences in taking back your power and standing in your sovereignty. Sharing ideas, tools, and advice on how to take back personal power with Love in one’s heart is much appreciated here.
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Anael, I feel what I am sharing is a dream….
yet it is not.I am harassed daily…cars circle my road and many hold a fist, cut at their throats and wish me dead.
It all started four years ago when I had another major awakening leap and could no longer continue my previous life. (I had signed on to a situation and was dying in it and self abuse became the norm)
My life is one of solitude by choice as I wish others a peaceful life free of this madness.Its about me quitting a life where I was making “money” – I have my devices and bank cards computer etc violated. Home invaded several times and a GPS tracker on my vehicle (which the police helped me understand and helped me realize what indeed was happening – and by whom.) – all due to unfounded rumours. rumours have grown and morphed and as each one is disproved….causing more madness and violent energies…..
Lets pretend its a dream.
I went to a site called “Gang stalking” and yes, comfort was there. Then I went to Lisa Renee’s site right after she posted an interview with three women on this sort of attack.
Confirmation sure helped. The mental body and emotional body was able to breathe knowing I wasn’t alone.I am in the middle of it but this is the real – or grand part…..I have been guided and protected every step of the way. That is why I am writing. I really want people to realize, intuition has turned on to levels not previously needed and God, or whatever you may call that perfection has been showing up in ways I could never have believed if I was not witness to it.
I have to go into meditation, without choice as my body can only endure so long without it. I have had to turn the mind off. I have had to face fear head-on with BREATH-WORK and use love to transmute it all. And most of all, I had to get used to waking up again for another day of it.The channelled messages became food for my soul in a way that never existed before. The promise of purpose and living truth and not giving in. The knowing that this life determines “who you are” throughout eternity ….all have meaning Now. Yes, they did before but as I said previously, KNOWING comes from experience.
It all is within, they said, and I can say today that being pushed this hard has allowed me to discover the truth of that. I hope I am conveying the gravity of the support because the truth of this sharing is that LOVE and SUPPORT is here for us in ways we could never understand with our own mind. I have witnessed so much that I almost can’t share because it sounds crazy yet was physically witnessed. Let go, act with intuition ….wait for inspiration are “orders” of necessity now.
Most importantly, I have no fear of passing. I lived many experiences – learned and cherish the lessons. My guidance would always say – I came to learn LOVE in all its aspects – that felt too vague until NOW.
I loved my best and made amends to those I have needed to.Living day by day is relief – letting go is relief.
I love you all and I thank you for allowing a space for the sharing of what is sometimes rejected and misunderstood….
As a little girl, I never fit either and the lifetime of misunderstanding in this realm has a home in worlds where destruction of planets and each other is unfathomable.Lets create this! HERE NOW !
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Thank you for sharing. I have had moments in my life where I was clearly being protected by my Angels, although I would say you have experienced far more dangerous things.
I once was driving my car to the gas station, and I was having difficulties getting into the lot because of traffic. I had to pass the station, turn around, and get into the left turn lane at the light.
For some unfathomable reason, I drove into a lane that was oncoming traffic thinking it was the entryway of the gas station, and I slammed on my breaks once I realized where I was. I began to back my car out of the lane, and I made it into the proper left turn lane without getting hit by another car.
It truly was a miracle that I didn’t die or get seriously injured. I could have ended up in a head on collision because that turn was a blind spot, or I could have been side swiped because I had to drive in reverse over two lanes of oncoming traffic as well as the lane that I needed to be in.
Another time that I think my Angels protected me was when my dad felt a strong need to walk me to work one morning. I live right across the street from where I work, and the area of my city that I live in is fairly nice; there are some homeless people but I don’t really feel unsafe here, its nice enough. I also live in an apartment complex that is a 55-years-old-and-up community despite being 25 years old, so all my neighbors are sweet and quiet old people.
Now that you have a better idea of how safe my area is, my dad one morning felt very strongly that he should walk me to work, and of course I didn’t think it was needed but I let him come with me. I work every day from monday through friday, 4am to 12pm, so its always night when I walk to work no matter what time of year it is, so that’s why my dad has always worried about me walking to work even though I just have to cross the street.
We started walking around the apartment buildings to get to the street side, and some strange person was rummaging around with a large sack in his hand. I had no idea what he was holding, but as soon as he saw us, he started walking briskly away, but not super fast. I think he was trying to play it cool and hope we wouldn’t go after him.
My dad and I kept walking at our leisurely pace even after seeing him, and I made it to work safely. My dad asked me if there are ever people wandering around like that and I said no, that was really strange. Sometimes I will see homeless people loitering outside where I work at night, especially if its summer, but they have never caused me any problems, so I found it to be very strange that someone wandered into our apartment complex; normally no one comes over to where we live.
I have no idea what would have happened if my dad hadn’t walked me to work that morning, I don’t know if that man would have tried to hurt me if I were alone. I am getting better at remembering that my angels protect me from extreme and unnecessary physical harm at all times.
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So true, so true, Anael. I think sometimes we don’t quite know what to call the forces or beings that are protecting us but we do know they’re there.
I’m glad the peculiar car situation ended happily and also the walk that morning when your dad just had to go with you. Obviously he has very good intuition!
And good on you that you accepted what you did not perceive you even needed. That is one lesson I am endeavoring still to learn — to accept support and help even when I think it’s not necessary.
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Wonderful thread to start, Anael. Thank you.
What a harrowing story, Lori. I can’t even fathom. I understand that we all experience the level of difficulty that we are able to endure, likely because we have chosen it on an invisible and unknown level, as many sources reiterate. But yours sounds epic in a way most of us do not have to face. (at least in this lifetime)
You make me think of fine Damascus steel, tempered in imponderably intense flames.
Thank you for the reminder that love and support are here in ways we can’t fathom. I’m glad we here can and do support each other. The power of our words is immeasurable.
Love & Light,
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I just remembered something I wrote last week and it seems appropriate here…
I Get It—We ARE Sovereign
I started watching the newest Lorie Ladd video about the vaccine.
And the realization I had while watching just the first few minutes is that I don’t have to share it with anybody.
I don’t need to pass along this information. I don’t need to make notes. I don’t need to write an article. I don’t need to do anything other than watch it for myself and absorb whatever it is I wish from this video.
I don’t need to try to educate others. I don’t need to send it to my friend who’s a nurse. I don’t need to write a letter to the editor.
All I need to do is absorb and observe with dispassionate interest.
It doesn’t mean I don’t care and I’m not interested. It means that I get to be the observer and I get to be the recorder of my observations. But I do not feel compelled to insist that others also take this information and absorb it. I do not feel compelled to try to save anybody.
That is not my role or my duty.
I think I’m finally, really, truly, deeply getting that we are sovereign. What comes into our pathway comes into our pathway and we either pay attention to it or we’re not ready to pay attention to it or it is not for us to pay attention to at that moment.
It is not my personal task and responsibility to wake anybody up.
Now, if I feel moved to write a letter to the editor…If I feel moved to share a snippet of information…That’s different. If I am so moved, I may also share.
But this overweening and overwhelming sense that I have had of desperation and urgency and oh my God I’ve got to tell my friends what’s going on…That is not necessary. That broadcasting is not mine to do.
No more battering the barrier of people’s willful blindness. They’ll open their eyes when it’s time, and not because I’m supposed to do it for them.
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I really relate to how you feel Catherine. I have always felt extremely uncomfortable with the thought of being the person shouting from the rooftops, trying to get everyone’s attention. I have mostly kept to myself since waking up, except for trying to wake up my parents. I have an extreme aversion and phobia of conflict and anger, so I always try to be gentle when offering my parents information, but I shouldn’t have been doing that in the first place. It hurts a lot to see them asleep, but I can’t help them anymore. The problem that I have had over the years is not feeling the overwhelming urge to wake up as many people as I can and sharing info with anyone who will give me the time of day; rather it has been one of shame and guilt for not having that desire. I have always thought that I was lazy and cowardly for not sharing what I know, but I don’t feel that way anymore. I too am an observer, and I feel content to just share my knowledge with the collective consciousness of humanity instead of meeting resistance by talking to people and sharing information physically.
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“The slavery codes must be upended.”
Why did I get a tweak in my left hip/back when my right hip and leg are what have been a “problem” for years? (Left lower side/ leg = past, right leg= future, if I remember my body communication dicta)
The tweak meant that I asked my mother to take off her own socks and change her own underwear. She can do these things, but I often do them for her especially in the morning.
“Why aren’t you doing this for me?”
“Because my back hurts.”
“Why?”
She didn’t remember that I’d already told her and I decided at that point not to talk about it anymore. That’s often my solution with her after I’ve repeated some things several times and I just don’t want to have to repeat it again.
The phrase that popped into my mind at some point was, The slavery codes must be upended.
While this makes sense to me in a non-linguistic way, later I asked my guide, Alacon, what it meant.
He replied, None are slave. All are masters.
This is much food for thought. If we are all masters, that must mean we are sovereign. No one can be a master without being sovereign, right?
But that also means that no one is slave to another. We offer service if we are so moved or in some cases, are required by jobs or even by soul contracts, which I’m sure is the case with me taking care of my mother at this point in our later years.
And we receive service as well, whether we think of it in those terms or not.
There is a slavery archetype that we have all explored and experienced during a lifetime or possibly several lifetimes. It seems likely that during the disintegration of these times that we experience now, this is an archetype that can’t go into the time of balance and unity we’re entering. We will be of service to ourselves and to one another, but not as “slave” or “ruler.”
Time to abandon our own individual slave codes. Whatever that may mean for each of us.
For me, that means kindly requesting that my mother do for herself when she can. (I don’t suppose I’ll have much luck getting the cats to put their dishes on the floor, although they probably would if they could.)
But in one small way, with my mother, I will upend this slave code that I have laid over myself. Only then can my light truly shine.
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I find myself resenting some of the managers at my work because I don’t trust them; I have this sense that they would love to take advantage of me if I gave them an opportunity. I don’t feel safe being the deeply loving and caring person that I actually am when I am at work, so I’m pretty sure most of my coworkers think I’m cold and selfish. I have so much love to give and, not even taking into account my trust issues, I have VERY little social energy to spare, so even if I could show my angelic self, I would end up pushing people away so I could be a hermit again. The only person in my life that doesn’t drain my energy at all is my husband.
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Boy, can I relate, Anael. I used to have to have a lot of solo time to recover after full work days. I’m a weird mix of introvert and extrovert, in cycles, sometimes on the same day. But predominantly introvert.
So if I was in introvert mode at work I still had to do my job (legal secretary, executive secretary, corporate communications, or tech writing at different points in my career) and interact with coworkers and public. When I felt extroverted I often enjoyed my jobs.
I also suffered for years from clinical depression after dragging myself (ok, God dragged me) out of alcoholism in 1989, so that also made interactions difficult and draining. (I’m so glad I’m not a 20-something anymore)(yes, I’m still sober, thank you for asking)
Also, I did often feel safe to be myself with coworkers and even bosses. I frequently acted as a sort of unofficial peer counselor… You maybe haven’t seen the 1980s show Star Trek The Next Generation. There was an officer whose “job” was empath, Lt. Deanna Troi, and I so often thought I wanted to be her. I too want to be loving and caring and helpful, my angelic self, without fear, with all.
I shifted to independent contractor work years ago, and it’s the best because I interact mostly at times of my choosing and mostly online. Introvert bliss!
I’m sorry you are suspicious of your managers, and if that’s what you sense, it’s no doubt accurate. And very glad your husband isn’t draining!!
No advice here, just sharing, empathy, and a hug.
And…Merry Christmas!
Love & Light,
Catherine
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Hi Ladies,
Catherine and Anael, you two are so great. Thank you.Catherine, your garden sounds lovely.
You both just hold the most loving space here…Ra Lov commented on another thread – thank you as well. I appreciate you here.
I realized that my “situation” is something I shared in order to keep it from being a secret (hiding in the dark). Looking at history, abuse seems to thrive until light is shone on it. This is a theme in these years. Thank you for the space and the understanding.
My situation arose for many reasons. All patterns that I take responsibility for. An interesting aspect has been from people pretending to want to know alternatives and perspectives that were not mainstream, but only to be used as a divisive tool at a Later date – and I have been a rainbow and butterflies – doors open to everyone fool.
Many lessons learned and perfect timing – as change is here…..
so, thank you again for the love you bring with wisdom for us all.
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Your loving presence fills this space too, Lori! I feel being loving after (or during) a history of existing within abusiveness is…hard? The word that’s coming up is transcendent. We don’t ignore what happened or is happening, or our own contribution, however unwitting or minuscule a part of the yuckiness. (It’s difficult for me to see any complicity in “what happened to me” because it was during childhood. When I first heard about karma (maybe in high school) the light bulb went on. Oh, so that’s why he hates me! I must’ve done something bad last time around.)
Where was I…oh yes, not ignoring but transcending.
It’s been so many years since I had to actively deal with recovery from that relationship, I almost can’t relate to a present abuse situation like it sounds like yours is (gang stalking? Unimaginably awful, if I understood your post).
Did I recover, eventually? Did I forgive? Did I move on?
It’s almost like it was a previous life or I was a different person. In many ways, being older sucks big time, but the loss of the visceral awfulness of previous events or toxic relationships is AWESOME.
I’m rambling here, but it occurs to me what I just described about the mixed bag of being older is a little like what we’re experiencing as we (supposedly, I’m still looking for evidence it’s happening) move into New Earth. Loss of the visceral awfulness of previous toxic events. Maybe all the awfulness, and that may sound judgy but I think a lot is awful, will fade away and seem unreal. Like John Smallman is always channeling! Anything but love is all unreal…
Love & Light,
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People walking a dog, not unusual. Another small group, a woman and her two grade-school aged sons (or possibly grandsons), walking a cat. Which is to say, the youngest boy was holding the frightened and/or angry, squirming cat and another one was holding a leash. There was a collar, not a harness, around the cat’s neck.
I almost burst into tears. You can’t do that to a cat, you just can’t. They hate it and they’re frightened, unless they’re introduced to it as kittens and willingly adapt. And for gods sake‘s use a harness not a collar, you’ll choke your beloved pet before you know it. This grey tabby cat was at least half grown and looked absolutely frantic.
It occurs to me that the way a large portion of humanity has been behaving has been like a dog. Willingly submitting to the noose of a collar and leash. And then there is the other element that wants to be free, the cat that struggles and does not submit.
Much of humanity seems not just willing to submit to the noose, not just resigned, but actively seeking it out. These are the people wearing masks outdoors by themselves or in cars by themselves. These are the people who frown at mask-less me.
These are the unfortunate souls who are scrambling to be among the first to get the “life-saving“ vaccines.
I love dogs, don’t get me wrong, but as has been scientifically proven, dogs have completely lost their wild origins. They worship humans. They are in fact slavishly devoted, by (altered) nature. All elements of the original wolf have been completely bred out.
I really, really love cats. Always have. When a cat loves you and lavishes you with its devotion, it’s because it wants to do so, not because it’s missing some DNA that was bred out of it millennia ago and it can’t do otherwise.
If we are to be sovereign and enforce our boundaries and be self-empowered, we must look to “domestic” felines, not domesticated dogs. If we continue en masse to emulate our faithful hounds, we will find ourselves mastered and conquered. Not my cup of tea, thank you.
I’ll be a cat, even if it’s a struggle.
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People treating cats like dogs is so terrible. I had no idea that dogs are missing DNA, that makes me really sad. I want them to heal, and hopefully the med beds will work. I’m torn because I love dogs, but I don’t want them to exist as they are if they are missing something so important. I suppose if cats can love us, then dogs could too even with their genome repaired. I also love cats but I can’t have any because I’m allergic. The hypoallergenic breeds are expensive.
Also I don’t think I am ready to own any pets because if I were to care for any animals, I would be treating them like humans; that is, I would give them all the best food, ample attention, and most importantly, respect as living things with feelings. I think many pet owners do not have a real dialogue with their animals, but because I know I can communicate with them telepathically, I cannot ever go back to just thinking of them as lesser intelligent creatures like I did before waking up.
So to me, bringing home and raising a puppy would be just as demanding as having a baby because I understand that that level of care is the most respectful towards a being that will only ever love me unconditionally, and support me through my ascension process without ever asking for anything in return. I am way too busy trying to build a life with my husband to have animals in our home, we both work and don’t have enough space or money.
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Thank you for your post, Alex, I realized I was guilty of exaggeration! Not all dogs, either individually or by breed, have been deliberately bred to “lose” dna. More like gradual self-selection of traits by the dogs (who became willing to depend on and be companions to humans) that made the dogs more appealing to humans.
And humans did prefer friendlier, more malleable canine companions, those who could be working and guard breeds, and likely began selecting and breeding those that most exemplified preferred traits.
There is a gene shared by super friendly people who have Williams-Beuren syndrome and some dogs, which highlights a possible genetic rationale for dogs’ friendliness compared to wolves’.
Here’s a good article about
Why dogs are friendly.On another note…you are the perfect pet parent, someday, when you and husband are ready. As someone remarked to me recently, “Some people ‘have cats.’ Some have cats who are part of the family. That’s what we are.”
Me, too. They are my family.
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I’d like to share something that I did today. I think it fits the theme of self empowerment. I sent this message to the managers listed at the top.
To: Katie, Lisa, Cassie, Yuli, Derique
From: AlexThis is extremely unprofessional of me to say what I am about to say, so I apologize in advance. I need to get something off my chest that has been festering under the surface for a long time.
I first need to explain what happened that even compelled me to write this in the first place. On Christmas when I was at work, I saw Isaiah give a beautiful painting to Cassie as a gift, and I could feel the joy and love palpably in the air. I watched the exchange from a distance and I felt my heart shatter. I wanted so badly to go home and cry, but I pulled myself together and finished all my work.
The reason why my heart broke when I saw Isaiah give the painting to Cassie is because I so deeply wish to share my light with others and spread joy as effortlessly as Isaiah does. I admire and envy his ability, but nonetheless I consider him a very valuable friend and I don’t feel any ill will towards him for being better than me at expressing himself.
I have an extremely difficult time expressing my true feelings towards others because of multiple factors. I learned as a child that I should be afraid to be myself around people because of two traumatizing events when I was growing up. Additionally, my trust was deeply betrayed by two people that I unyieldingly gave my love and support to, trying to help them overcome their mental health issues for years and was stabbed in the back for it.
I can honestly say that if I had no fear, you would see that I am extremely similar to Isaiah; I have so much love to give and I deeply care about others, but I feel so shy about sharing that light, and I easily get embarrassed when a lot of attention is placed on me. I have a hard time starting conversations or jumping into conversations because I feel that I don’t have anything valuable or interesting to share with others, and I am terrified that I will be taken advantage of if I show how caring I am, like those two people did to me for years.
Another problem that I have is that I am extremely introverted on top of being shy. I very very easily become drained by social interaction, which is why I am so glad that I do prep. I want others to know that I care, and yet at the same time I don’t have the energy to have many people as friends. Its hard just having one. I want to be a warm and welcoming person, but instead I end up keeping everyone at arm’s length because I can’t handle a ton of people wanting to talk to me every day.
I really hate that I have had to deal with this my whole life. The fact that I am even sharing these things with you is because I want to heal. I just hope that you will allow me the space to heal at a pace that I can handle. I’m so sorry for always acting cold and bothered. I instinctively close my heart when I’m at work because I am so sensitive. I hope that you can forgive me. I understand if that is hard to do though.
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It totally fits with self-empowerment! Also courage. I think you are SO BRAVE for sending such an honest, self-revealing message to five managers.
You ask if they can forgive you. Have you forgiven yourself, Alex? (May I call you Alex?)
I don’t think there’s any forgiveness needed because I see no deliberate behavior that was objectionable, but it doesn’t matter what I think. I’m just opining.
If you feel like it, let us know what if anything transpires…this could be very revealing for all.
Love & Light,
Catherine-
You can call me Alex, I’m okay with that. My mother named me Alexandria after the city in Egypt because she loves Ancient Egyptian culture. And about the message, I won’t know until Monday how they’ll react, that’s when I return to work. I did have Katie read the message in front of me, and she put her arm around my shoulders to comfort me. She said they all know that I care about them, which put me at ease, but I hope that she will still share the message with the others. The one I’m most worried about is Lisa because she always sees me right when I start my shift, when I’m the most tense.
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None of the other managers have been acting any differently than before. I don’t know if that means they don’t want to acknowledge what I wrote, or if it means that Katie never showed them my message. As of now, I don’t feel its worth it to press the matter, I still received some healing from the experience. If any of them have a problem with me, it will get brought up at the right moment.
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…I’m a cat through thick and thin – metaphorically and LOVE wolves fearlessly.
You make me laugh Catherine. Merry Christmas.
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Aneal,
Thank you for being so open here. Your love is palatable. I read your words but that is not what I am saying here; its more that the feeling you emit through words is such pure love that I wonder if the words matter.
Having said that about the feeling you emit that I appreciate, the expression through your words paints such an exact picture, you articulate with such clarity that I wonder if you are a writer as a way of healing. You exude such pure love.
I know many are on the planet emitting such love that they are changing the vibration all around them without even opening their mouths.Just my sense of impression and why I connect so easily here in this space. Thank you again for sharing….. on so many levels.
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Catherine, thank you for sharing.
I too have a wolf in my totem. I knew nothing of animal spirits as travelers with us but their appearance (sometimes very large?) sometimes in my home and sometimes within the forms within nature always make me pause and realize that we truly only capture a glimpse of what is layered within our reality….and thankfully those veils are dissolving now so that these glimpses are increasing….
I’m sharing this in total seriousness – I have had plants grow very large into animal forms that others would clearly see. I marvel. Horses appear mostly.Birds and their amazing communication are for another discussion – I’d love to hear if anyone has these stories to share.
My daughter walked in the woods once calmly with three wolves. She said it was beautiful. She too was fearless and believes that is why she was completely safe.
I love big dogs and really didn’t understand “cats” – but they always sat on me no matter where I went…in a room full of people – they’d pick me ? truthfully with a little shame I say that because Id always say I preferred dogs. Maybe they know something I don’t about my relationship with them ?
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Yesterday, I was feeling guilt and low self esteem, which was triggered by seeing a channeled message from Sharon Stewart posted on GAoG. I feel a kind of love-hate relationship with Sharon and Ivo, but I don’t fully understand it even after gaining some clarity through my tarot cards.
Sometimes I really resonate with what they are talking about, and I feel empowered by the message; but other times I feel like a complete failure and a waste of space after reading one of Sharon’s messages. She gives off a very combative and grumpy energy that makes me very uncomfortable when reading her conversations with Ivo. Also — and I don’t know if she’s doing this consciously — the way she sometimes words things makes me feel like I have to do things the exact same way she does it or recommends, and if I don’t then I’m failure and an idiot.
This is all so very baffling to me because I don’t really feel this way about any other channeler that I regularly keep up with.
I decided to use my tarot cards to ask why I get triggered by her like this, and the summary of my cards’ message is that I am being shown a kind of brutal truth; they are providing me the kind of blunt honesty that spurs me to self reflect. However, this situation is also teaching me to trust myself, to use my power of discernment to pick only the information that feels right to me and leave all the rest behind.
I get the sense that I don’t have to follow any of her advice if I feel that it doesn’t work for me and my own journey, and I don’t have to put up with her grumpiness just because she’s a psychic and has enlightening conversations with her twin flame.
Some more insight just came to me as I’m writing this; I may be getting nudged to love the emotion of anger. That is an emotion that frightens me deeply, no matter who it’s coming from, but anger is just another consciousness that exists within the All That Is, which means it is inside of each one of us, no matter how much we want to deny it.
I need to love and accept this part of myself back into wholeness, to raise its vibration back into its original design. I believe that anger’s original design was to be an indicator that something inside me is out of balance. If I feel angry about something, then I need to change something within my thoughts or beliefs. Anger can only consume a person and cause them to lash out at others and their surroundings when it is left unheard for a long time. I hope I figured out this issue so I can finally put it to rest.
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From Vidya Frazier‘s book, the Ascension Lightworker Guide, on anger. Chapter 10. The quotes below are from the introduction.
The chapter goes on in much more detail about anger, what it means, how to “deal“ with it. Other sections in the anger chapter include what lies beneath anger, anger is your ally, stepping outside the blame game, and taking responsibility for your life.
“Anger really has a bad rap in most cultures in the world, and perhaps especially within spiritual circles. It’s an emotion often considered ‘inappropriate,’ ‘immature,’ or ‘unspiritual.’ It’s a feeling to be kept hidden, denied, or somehow healed….
“It’s important to understand the nature of anger — why and how it develops. First, anger is not considered by many psychologists to be a ‘primary’ emotion…” meaning that it’s there to cover up “undesirable” emotions such as hurt or fear. “Often both of these emotions lie beneath anger. The feeling of anger serves as a defense against them.“
“… The vibration of anger is actually a higher one than that of either hurt or fear. It has a sense of greater power with it. However, if you only focus on your anger and the issues that come up around your expression of it, you may never get to the bottom of why it has actually arisen within you to begin with…. what you’re going to find is a situation or relationship in which you feel disrespected, uncared about, or disempowered. You feel your needs are not being met, and you feel helpless about getting them met. These are the situations you need to resolve.“
I highly recommend her book both as an informative text and excellent workbook. Lots of exercises and prompts to help us ponder what’s going on with us and to resolve some of the confusion and anxiety we might be feeling.
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Thank you very much for posting that quote. That was intuitively what I was thinking about anger, but didn’t know how to put into words.
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Alex, what an awesome post and terrific realizations!
More than half the time I hesitate to read Sharon Stewart’s posts, any of them. But there’s often some nuggets, or the whole post, that I gain something valuable from.
Overall, though, I feel she is almost antagonistic in her writing, nothing like most of the love & light folks I tend to read. As you said, combative.
I didn’t go into an in-depth analysis or check my oracle cards like you did. Generally, I just take her words with a cup of salt when she’s coming off grumpy (great observation) or preachy. I find that’s how my discernment works most times, it “feels” correct for me, or it doesn’t.
She seems very angry, doesn’t she? No doubt with good reason. Maybe that’s why I shy away from her work at times. I don’t need more anger, I’m dealing with high enough levels of frustration in my life that I needn’t pile on more. I’ll work on/with what I already have.
But I applaud you for using your discomfort as a fantastic self-observation trigger. I’m taking an online class about anger and it’s a huge subject. If I gain any particular nuggets from the class I’ll share them here.
Thanks so much for your honest post about her. I’d been wondering if anyone else feels a tiny bit repelled by her channelings.
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Yesterday I read a message from a lightworker who was saying that most people have been totally floundering and missing the point of the Mother’s Pause, not utilizing the timeout properly. Naturally, I started to question if I were one of those oblivious people.
I noticed that I was falling into the old habit of criticizing myself and feeling completely useless, when I suddenly snapped myself out of it. What surprises me still is that I got angry. I said to the judgmental part of me, “Are you serious?! I have been SO devoted to my path as a lightworker for EIGHT YEARS! Not a day has gone by since I learned about lightwork that my mission has not been on my mind. Every day my mission is at least somewhat the focus of my day. And you’re going to tell me that I’m lazy?! Are you kidding me?! I’m done! I’m not going to let you bully me anymore! I know I’m important!”
I have always made clearing my shadow and sending light to humanity and Gaia my top priorities as far as my mission goes, as well as keeping my vibrations high by doing what I love and what is fun to me.
My secondary mission is keeping informed about global changes from a divine perspective as well as a political perspective, and integrating both as a neutral observer.
From a human perspective, my life is very simple and mundane; I work full time at a fast food restaurant, and when I’m not working, I stay inside my apartment because it is my favorite place to be, and I play video games or watch anime with my husband. I also like to do macramé sometimes.
I think this is precisely why I have struggled to understand just how important I am to this ascension process, because externally, I don’t do much, and most people still put too much emphasis on the external and “doing,” including me; well, until yesterday.
I want to clarify that if your heart sings at the thought of actively engaging in something that you feel is beneficial to the liberation of humanity, then absolutely go for it, that is obviously something that you are meant to do; this plan needs all kinds of people to get it done.
What I want to share with you is how I keep myself from judging my path in life. I realized that I really don’t have a damn clue what I’m doing to help this ascension. If the totality of my role is equal to 100%, then I consciously understand maybe 1% of it. I think that goes for everyone else too. I think that even people who claim that they’ve got it all figured out really only know 10% of their role at best; and that’s not a jab at them, I just feel in my heart that we overestimate our ability to comprehend a plan that involves ALL of creation.
I know at a soul level that I am unimaginably important to this process, exactly when I was born, where I was born; exactly as I am, and who I interact with. Just because I don’t know why I needed to be born where and when I was, doesn’t make it any less perfect for my exact skill set. The Divine Mother placed me where I needed to be, and I completely trust her judgment.
Sometimes I envy lightworkers who have been doing all of this for way longer than me, thinking that they are somehow stronger or more important because they have created a following and have become very influential, but that is just a lack of faith in the Divine Mother’s infinite wisdom. She knows better than me where I am needed the most. No one else could fulfill the role that I play; that’s just a fact, and it equally applies to you.
My point in all of this is that I think you are all fantastic, and you are doing exactly what you came here to do. Even if you know 0% of your mission, and you’re totally clueless, that changes nothing; you are still performing 100% of your role, at an unconscious level. I bet most of what we do is in our sleep, anyway. Just give yourself some slack, and some love; you deserve it.
If you want to understand your mission more, following your joy, and opening your heart to your guides’ messages is the quickest way to learn. Just do some research online, there are lots of ways to get messages from the divine, and you’ll find the way that works for you. I love you all, you are doing a fantastic job. Thank you for being here.
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Alex, no one could ever call you oblivious.
Cutting ourselves the slack we’d generously shower upon the most flagrantly unawake individuals we’d ever come across…now, that’s hard. Self-love and -appreciation seem like the final frontier in so many ways. The Holy Grail of “we’ve arrived”! Yay, I appreciate and love myself and allow myself to be WHATEVER in every moment.
I think we have to keep showing that to each other, in order to finally direct it toward ourselves.
Thank you for your appreciation of us, which shows your ability to appreciate yourself, in my reckoning. I (we) appreciate you greatly.
Love and Light,
Catherine
PS I love your “mundane” life. I feel that the more boring we might look, the more we’re actually able to contribute, because, you know, we’re not distracted by chasing fortune and glory. Just relaxing and BEING are what Ascension is currently about, from what I keep reading…
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