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I am wondering if anyone here has had as much trouble moving to a new environment as I’ve been having. If anyone cares to give me feedback I’ll be happy to listen. I am stumped.
I am supposed to move from the place where I’ve been living with an elderly gentleman and “caregiving” for him. There has been trouble right from the start with a family member of his, and also a friend of his who wanted me to move out, right after I moved in. I won’t go into details, and it’s nothing I did, but these people I have come to see are the types who like to dominate others and have their way at all costs. They are bullies. The friend threatened me with bodily harm twice, threatened to call the police and have me thrown out about three times. The last time was on Christmas Eve last year. She made a scene at the house in front of neighbors and I had to defend myself.
The relative told me several times to move and did other bullying things. Gave me a fake eviction notice at the height of the Covid thing, called the police to come to the house stating that I was abusing Jim…(totally untrue, and it got Jim very angry that she called the police.) I stopped communicating with her a long time ago when she called me once and started yelling that I had to get out! I hung up on her and have never spoken with her since. And now the person who they want to replace me has started in on the bullying as well.
The deal was that I get a free room in exchange for helping Jim, the elderly man. But turns out that the help he needed from me was more of a spiritual and inner healing nature. Yes I did some housework and yard work and running errands, but that wasn’t my main focus. He was in a deep depression and was in serious grief over the death of his wife two years ago. He had suicidal thoughts and wanted to die, and he was on all sorts of medication. I did not know all this when I moved in. I was pretty much in shock when I found out, and that’s when all the stress started for me. I gained 10-15 lbs living here.
Jim and I have become friends and we like each other. But we realized early on that we are not compatible living together long-term. (It’s personality issues, not anything that I did wrong or that he did wrong. Plus, he had his heart set on a friend of his moving in, but she was not available at the time so I was second choice.) When Jim told his relative that I was not the person he was looking for, they immediately took it to a psychotic level and it was like “call the police and get her out!”
Problem was, though, that I was constantly turning to God to help me with Jim because I didn’t know what to do. I followed all the guidance I was given, and slowly Jim got strong again. He stopped crying all the time and got out of his depression. But I had to constantly fight off the vultures who couldn’t see the inner work I was doing with him. I couldn’t leave Jim because he needed help, and no one in his family or his friends knew how to help him. Yet they wanted me out, even though they didn’t have a plan B yet. I couldn’t have left if I tried, though. The whole universe has been conspiring against me moving, it seems.
About moving out, it is time for me to go now. The lady Jim has been wanting is ready to move in, but nothing I try is working. During the height of the Covid problem not one person was answering any of my ads, and I wasn’t finding anything to rent either. Then things picked up and I’ve been having a lot of responses to my ads, and I’ve also been answering countless ads to rent a room. But now, even though I am seeing a lot of places for rent, they are snatched up under my nose, or people don’t respond back to me, or they respond and tell me the room is on the second floor (I need ground floor), or the rent is much too high…there is always something blocking me from moving. Always.
I can’t figure out what is going on, why I can’t move. I paid Jim rent money for June to buy some time and to keep his vultures off my back so I can think straight. So as it stands right now, nobody can tell me to move, nobody can bully me and tell me I’m not doing anything around the house, or that I am taking advantage of Jim, or any of their other ignorant things they’ve been saying. I am doing all in my power to move, but I still seem to be blocked at every turn.
So what is going on? Why can’t I move? What am I missing? I feel good about all the work I’ve done for Jim, and he helped me in return. Yes I wasn’t the person he was looking for and he did want me to move, but he was consistent in telling me that he did not want me moving out until I had a good home to go to. That’s what his friend and family could never understand. Their hearts are closed off, but Jim has deep compassion for homelessness and he never wanted to see me out on the street. But the others didn’t care. I was not a person to them, just something in the way of their plans, I guess.
But it’s time to go and the right door is not opening. Doors are constantly being shut in my face. Why? My family is involved now. They are giving me money so I can rent a room, but I can’t find a room to rent. This is a serious request for insight if anyone has any to offer. I am flabbergasted, befuddled, confused, and bewildered. I’ve never had this much trouble moving in my entire life! I don’t know if all this makes sense, but I feel that I am on borrowed time now and I really need to get to a better environment. Where is it hiding?
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Dear Pat – I’m so sorry, what a situation.
As for practical, 3-D advice, find your local area agency on aging and ask them for help with the housing issue, for starters. And also moral support, they usually have free counseling.
There might also be a senior help housing organization of some sort. In California we have what’s called section 8 housing for low income people, though the waiting list is usually years long.
Also, given the way these people have been so abusive to you, have you thought about finding a lawyer? There are attorneys that will do pro bono work, or legal aid foundation types of places that are either free or very inexpensive. The reason I mention an attorney is because IMO, what they’re doing to you is elder abuse, which I believe might be prosecutable.
Depending on the eviction laws where you are, it may be completely illegal for them to throw you out without proper notice and that might be a fairly long term, 30 days at least but possibly longer. That’s something else an attorney can help with. Even though it’s time to go, you don’t yet have anywhere to go.
Is a short term rental available, or even an inexpensive hotel? I suspect everything is just too expensive.
With your ads not being responded to appropriately and all of the rooms apparently falling through, it does it seem as if you are blocked at every turn.
Take this next thing with the big grain of salt. I asked my Guides if they had any words for you. They said, move far away. And if you can, move with family.
Also, if you have a brother, or someone with “brother energy,” to seek some kind of guidance or assistance from that person.
Like I said, take with grains of salt. I have no idea if you want to leave the area you’re in, or if your family is able or willing to accommodate you.
Your friend Jim sounds like a dear soul who was lost until you started helping him. Bless you for your work and compassion with him.
I don’t have anything to offer by way of a parallel situation. For which I must say I am grateful.
Keep letting us know what’s going on. We will keep sending you our love and support!
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Catherine, I was hoping you’d have some insight to offer. Thank you for your time and effort in responding. And thanks for the practical advice.
I finally did get my family involved and asked them if they would help me pay to rent a room somewhere. Since I haven’t been able to find anyplace yet, I paid rent money to Jim instead so I could stay for another month and keep those in his “camp” off my back and off his back. And it worked. The psychotic family member was just about getting ready to start another eviction notice, this time with a lawyer. I tell you, I’ve never met anyone like her. She has been driving both me and Jim crazy the whole time I’ve been here, which is almost a year now. And she is the one who got me in here in the first place. She answered my ad for Jim and approved of me moving in.
As for the elder abuse angle, I already called a few months ago and reported the family member and the friend. They said I could get a restraining order against the friend who threatened bodily harm to me, but I knew I’d be moving soon and didn’t want to go that route. The Elder Care place did follow up and speak to Jim about his step-daughter, but nothing more came of it from what I saw. Jim did not want me to get police involved so I never took that route.
As for what your guides said, that was right on, actually. Validation for you! My brother is involved, and he did offer an idea…for me to stay with a family friend who is living alone in our old neighborhood in San Diego. That is far away from where I live now, at least a couple of hours drive. My brother offered to start negotiations to see if she would be interested in me possibly moving in. I always had a good connection with her and I like her very much, so we’ll see. Tonight I am having a family conference ZOOM call so we can brainstorm. Maybe the San Diego route is the one to focus on.
Catherine, you are wonderful. I feel that you are my sistah from a past life. And speaking of past lives, the influence of them is involved in this situation I’m in now. There is so much more involved than I can express. Jim and I have had past lives together, and at this point I am thinking family karma is also involved. Very complicated.
Hugs back….Pat
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Hello Pat,
Your story is tearing my heart apart. In a practical solution to the problem, I can’t offer any. But I can more than relate to your situation and all confusion your facing currently.
Maybe my past personal story will give you some strength.
I have been living in the Dominican Republic for almost 5 years. The last year I was living on the streets … homeless. Why? Because of many situations and people involved. Nothing made sense anymore. People started to lie and create false pretences or allocations. One of them was my own brother, backed up by my mother.
They wanted something and I didn’t bend in their direction. What happened was “revenge” based on falsehood and fabrications. In the end I was financially cut of of my own invested money … as a result, I was forced out of my rented appartement into the street. Also any attempt to 3D fix this … contacting, asking or even begging … had no effect what so ever!
There I was. A well educated person, forced to life in the streets in a country where I bearily knew the language. I knocked at any door I could think of … used all my social and management skills to “argue create” a solution. Was very overwhelmed by all the injustice at my person and my situation.
There is much more I could say about this “strange difficult” situation in my life, but I like to skipp the initiating events and fast forward.
With all I know now … this whole experience was one of the most beautiful I had in all my life!!! Would I sign up for it again? Most definitely. Could I sign up for it again? Not without knowing what I know now. I would have to go back in forgetfulness!
It was a cleansing process above all and a trusting process second. In the aftermath many times over .. I was offered shelter by total strangers … regained strength … then lost the shelter again! This process repeated at least 3 or 4 times … untill eventually I was captured by the immigration police and placed in a prison for 2 months. The story goes on, because this wasn’t the end. However, I will stop this part life story here.
You see Pat … I am a very strong soul and an “intelligent” on top. I had to go through a “Job – like” (bible) experience to completely surrender to God and Self.
I don’t know “what” you are in for … personally and collectively. This is your journey. The only advice I can give you is … stay in the Now … ask in any and all moments “What is my lesson?”. Don’t focus to much on changing “others” with reason. Why? Because this is about you and trusting. If your process is anything like mine … you have to surrender first … then a solution will prevent itself. It can’t be done the other way around.
You are merging with your Higher Self. I see the very first step you already made. Asking help, expressing You out. Believe in the Light and ripple effect that goes out from there. It will always return back to it’s Source … You … as Love. Bless as much as you can in gratitude … and keep breathing.
For me everything always turned out ok … and with hindsight incredible even miraculously.
I will support you from a “distance” sending you courage, Light and Love.
Good luck my dear brave soul … you can and will do this 💓💕💞🙏
Ralph
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Ralph Ralph Ralph, your story is incredible! You had it much much harder than I am having it. My goodness, I don’t know what to say. You were actually homeless, for a year…. I can’t imagine that. I do appreciate you telling your story. You continually amaze me. 👍
You said:
“It was a cleansing process above all and a trusting process second. In the aftermath many times over .. I was offered shelter by total strangers … regained strength … then lost the shelter again! This process repeated at least 3 or 4 times … untill eventually I was captured by the immigration police and placed in a prison for 2 months. The story goes on, because this wasn’t the end. However, I will stop this part life story here.
You see Pat … I am a very strong soul and an “intelligent” on top. I had to go through a “Job – like” (bible) experience to completely surrender to God and Self.
I don’t know “what” you are in for … personally and collectively. This is your journey. The only advice I can give you is … stay in the Now … ask in any and all moments “What is my lesson?”. Don’t focus to much on changing “others” with reason. Why? Because this is about you and trusting. If your process is anything like mine … you have to surrender first … then a solution will prevent itself. It can’t be done the other way around.”
I’m going to study your post. I feel aligned with what you said, especially the trusting part. I have been trying to force things to happen, and they just aren’t. I’m laughing at myself today because yesterday I spent two hours looking for rooms to rent and answering ads and making calls and sending emails. And the result? Crickets. From yesterday to today, nothing…no responses. It’s uncanny. But I think you are right. I have to surrender first, then my solution will appear. More ego-busting. My ego has been taking a beating, and I guess that’s the point.
Thank you for sharing your story. It is very interesting and I would love to hear more sometime. Maybe this would be a good thread for some personal “horror stories”, and the lessons we learned from them.
Thank you Ralph. You gave me food to ponder. Tonight is my ZOOM call with family. I’ll post anything interesting we come up with.
Lots of love and light to you Ralph. Thank you.
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Hi Pat,
Ralph Ralph Ralph, your story is incredible! You had it much much harder than I am having it. My goodness, I don’t know what to say. You were actually homeless, for a year…. I can’t imagine that. I do appreciate you telling your story. You continually amaze me. 👍
Thank you so much for actually “tuning in” to the Light my message carries. As this is part my story, it has become part of my being too. With this awareness I am offering it freely to the collective awareness.
You see … for me it already belongs to the past … for others it can belong to their now. It’s a template … a template out of controlling 3D.The problem we humans have in our 3D state is that we can’t un-know something. So it is in our system of “knowing” ourselves and the world around us, while in fact we don’t know sh.t … we think we know and interpret ourselves constantly within the “borders” of these convictions.
The “funny” thing is we accept a possibility to be struck by lightning and or don’t hide under a tree when chances are high … but in equal similar occasions we do not believe in being offered a “jackpot” when we actually need one! This is a human lack of faith.
As in your case … who is to know the most optimal lesson for all involved … is you moving out? What I try to say is, maybe you offer the most beautiful light and mirror reflection to all around you … daring to look and see their inner shadows!?
We humans need to start “feeling” rather than “thinking” … because many times the most “horrendous” observations from outside … are the highest miraculous spiritual lessons for all involved.
We desire a world that “works” for everyone? … it always has! We are One Being and never ever could have been anything else.
Every day is a miracle, one breath at a time … stay within this “small” concept and start to learn to feel again … and you will open up yourself and remember to never have been anything “small” … just One within One as All.
Love you my dear friend and thank you for an opportunity to express myself 💕💞💓😘
Ralph
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Pat and Ralph, thank you for your posts…
Pat, you feel like a Sistah to me, too! Will send you good thoughts for your family Zoom. That’s interesting about your brother and the potential far away move. I rarely offer up intuitive observations, so thank you for your validation. (I have observations, I just attempt to avoid the gaffe of offering them, unsolicited.)
Ralph, you are one resilient dude. Hats off, my friend.
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Hey Sistah Catherine, your observations are very much appreciated. Thank you. Learning how to listen within and hone our inner skills is one of the most valuable things we can do, I think. Your observations are always welcome here. And thanks for the good thoughts.
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I love the idea of this being a place to share our “horror stories“! Heaven knows we’ve all got them.
I find that when I am “in“ the active story, it’s extremely difficult to accept that that’s where I am and that I have to go through whatever it is. In other words, it’s very hard to be in the now. Because, duh, it’s uncomfortable, scary, and uncertain. All things that I quite naturally, I think, recoil from.
I believe humans are set up so that we feel intensely, and any threat to our bodies is immediately met with freezing up, retreating, and/or tossing up whatever defensive wall we can lay our hands on, literally or metaphorically.
Being able to talk about these subjects here is amazingly helpful, and I appreciate all of us who contribute. Thank you all, and let’s pat ourselves on the back for being brave enough to share these vulnerabilities.
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Hello Pat,
I do not know how to express how saddening your situation is to me… it’s often so hard dealing with voluntarily hurtful and abusing people.
I’d simply like to offer you my Gratitude for your service to Jim and lots of encouragement and Compassion for what you’re going through! I hope it will sort “itself” out so that you may move out of this difficult moment and place…
Please keep us posted if you get some news.Ralph, that’s some pretty intense story! Congratulations on holding to such a Higher perspective with respect to it and allowing it to catalyze your evolution in such a beautiful way. That must have taken some serious awareness and detachment skills!
I’ll probably add my own horror story at some point but right now it still feels too fresh and raw… Two months ain’t a lot of time.
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I’m still mulling over my family zoom call so I need more time to ponder that. Also, I am still looking for a room, but I’ll be jiggered if I’m not continuing to hear “crickets.” It’s uncanny. I’ve never experienced this before to this extent.
The option of moving to San Diego and living with the family friend sounds the best so far, but negotiations still need to take place for that, so it needs some time to percolate. I’m even looking for rooms to rent in San Diego, but I get easily overwhelmed at all the ads. San Diego is a big place, plus the county…. And it being two hour’s drive, it’s not like I can drive over there and look at places. (I probably wouldn’t get a response from anyone anyway. I am SO blocked from renting a room, it seems.)
Maybe I should bring up the influence of past lives in this situation I’m in. That’s why I got family involved in the first place. I’ve been some type of renunciant for many lifetimes. I lived sheltered in the church or the convent or the monastery etc., with my food, shelter and clothing needs met without me having to go out and “get a job.” I’ve also taken several vows of poverty in those lifetimes. So it’s no wonder in this life that I am continually finding myself in a place of having no money and no place to live. Those influences are VERY strong in this life and have been all my life. I wanted to be a nun at two different times while growing up. I must have loved the monastic life!
So now I find myself in the same situation. I have to move, but I have no place to go, and not enough money to provide for myself. My tendency is to go and hide out in solitude, just doing my writing and communing with Spirit. I asked my family for intervention because I have come as far as I can by myself, and it’s not been good enough. I explained all this to my family and told them I saw a vision of me straddling the fence, and I could go either way at a moment’s notice. On one side of the fence is living in poverty and being homeless, and on the other side of the fence is what I call “financial freedom.”
I asked my family if they would push me toward the side of financial freedom. I told them I didn’t know what that looked like, but I needed their help. So they came to my rescue with flying colors. They are a very smart and creative bunch (brother and his wife, sister and her husband), and I am being offered financial assistance plus encouragement and direction and advice.
For the past three years I have been dealing with past life issues. Karma and all that. I’m getting pretty good at picking up on people I have known in a past life, or if an issue I am having in this life is because of a past life influence. If those past lives are stopping us in this life from accomplishing our goals, they must be dealt with. I feel that I am now on the “financial freedom” side of the fence, and with my family’s continuing assistance, I’ll make it. Financial freedom to me means being out of debt and being able to pay my way in life. Pay my own rent, my own bills, and bring in an income, which I intend to do through writing.
Anyway, past life influences on our current life is an interesting subject to explore. If anyone is stuck, continuing to experience the same types of situations over and over and you seem powerless to change the outcome, look to a past life influence.
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And I want to mention that I have been studying what Ralph said to me, and I think he is very wise in his advice. I do believe I have a trusting issue…
And I have been asking myself, “What is the lesson here?” And Ralph talked about surrendering, and a cleansing process. I’m pondering all of it. I came up with something this morning having to do with “forgiveness.” I think the people involved in my scenario who have been so discordant and hostile toward me are doing the best they can, but I think they are acting out of fear. I don’t think they really want to harm me, but they are afraid of me for some reason. I’ve never harmed a hair on Jim’s head, and I have always treated him with respect, but they don’t know that. They don’t know what has been going on in Jim’s house. But I will tell you what was going on: powerful healing. Strong spiritual influence to help Jim heal.
So I can get involved in other people’s fears and hostile behavior and let it drag me down, or I can soar above the 3D illusion and just have forgiveness in my heart. Just forgive and move on.
Thank you Ralph for your wise insights. I’m doing a lot of pondering because of your inspiration.
What a bunch of wonderful people who participate on this website. We are so lucky!
Pat
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Please always realize “fear” doesn’t exist, but is rather the illusion of the absence of love!! You know that … they don’t.
Furthermore … You could or should know by now … all and every feeling you ever felt, was your own creation! That’s why you are in between multiple dimensions, working your way into an understanding of it and in the process master yourself.
They are most probably not. They are judging out … pointing … and in this process become aware of feelings and sensations! They don’t know they are memory of self/Self past behavior stored in their body. They think they need to point out “incorrect” behavior towards you!! They want to change your behavior … not their own!That’s why you, we, every Light Worker and the ones unaware of being one … are fueling the Tsunami of Love … Transmutation of past first … the shadows.
Love you 😘💕💞💓
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… they are “acting out” of fear
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and this …
I do believe I have a trusting issue…
Now that you have reached this understanding … Acceptance … for that is what believe holds, you are willing to integrate it into your (body) system! … you can Now immediately start the follow up process of letting it go! Time isn’t linear remember. Within this Clarity you actually gained and Feel as Truth you can Create your (K)Now!!! … and move on.
Forgive yourself first for having held “lower judgement” believes of both self and “others” and move in to the Light … step through the door … into your Love portal Self.
You are raising the frequency to a level beyond your “former lower” one. You are charging your Light into your (Light)body.
Besides all the pondering, which is great … also take some time to observe yourself and the service you are providing! You are much appreciated and admired for it. So dare to receive the Love Gratitude too 😊🥰🙏
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Hi Pat, thank you for your explanations and insights.
I’m sure you recognize that you are blessed, fortunate, however you would describe it to have four smart and compassionate family members helping you to row the boat at this time! Plus, soul contract, karma, etc.
The whole past lives vows of poverty and lives of renunciation could certainly play a huge part in current circumstances.
I don’t know if you would be interested, but I can highly recommend Debtors Anonymous. I’ve spent years in that program, off and on, as both a debtor and an underearner. There’s actually an Underearners Anonymous program, too.
You probably know that the 12-step programs are spiritual in nature, first, as well as practical.
Just a thought.
Love,
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Hi Pat,
Just read your update. First … glad I could be of service🙏 In my understanding “that” is what is actually meant by “wayshower” … offering my lessons freely to others … allowing me to be reminded of them and in this process … let them go … while another part of my uses this Light to their own advantage. It’s much like the stick in an estafette race.
What I can tell you further is equal as in the other thread with Catherine … when I tune into you and your situation Now … I receive not only a calm, healing energy but also a very uplifting one …. Not only for you personally!!!
In this life you sort of challenged yourself to be a receiver of “help” and love 💕 …. Very difficult for a natural giver.
Keep on this path and stay in the (K)Now. All is fine.Bless you. Much uplifting prayers and hugs 💓💞💕🌈😘
Ralph
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Thank you Catherine for the practical advice. You are good at that. I will take your information into consideration. At this point, I am feeling good about allowing family to help me, because I also need to feel the connection I have with them. I’ve been feeling like an orphan ever since my brother and his wife moved from San Diego to Oregon in December last year. I used to drive to San Diego to be with them every Christmas and Thanksgiving for years and years, and I miss that wonderful anchor and warm family cocoon atmosphere. I am having to figure out where I belong now, thus all the trouble I’m having, I guess.
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Ralph, Thank you for all this info. I will study it once again. Thank you for sending all the uplifting, calm and healing energy too. Lightworkers sure need that from other Lightworkers for all the heavy lifting on the planet we are doing. It’s so easy to get bogged down into details. Learning from someone who has “been there done that” is the best advice to seek in my view. So thank you again.
On a practical note, I still have to move from where I am living. I think Jim is just about ready to completely let me go. But I still haven’t been able to connect with my new atmosphere yet, and time is a factor. I feel that I need to take practical steps to find my new home, and I have been, but none of them seem to be yielding results. Is it all inner work now? More inner work to understand what to do next? Keep scraping my insides and letting go of any negativity there?
I want to take practical steps. Humans need to do that. Or am I just supposed to sit here and “wait” for my opportunity to present itself? Humans are also impatient. Maybe I’m being impatient. Just thinking out loud….
Pat
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Hi Pat,
Let’s try something else, besides the “other stuff” that actually seems to work … as you state yourself … and I get when do my tune in trick 😅
If you actually were your Higher Self … looking at your current human expression, with one difference to the you (thinking human self) … and that is the Self remembers and therefore Knows!!! That’s why the Higher Self is in the (K)Now!!!
Where is the (K)Now? Is it somewhere within time? Is it equal to the actual present time?
Let’s give you a bold answer first … No!
Why? Because time isn’t linear along a timeline of sorts with behind the past, then the actual here and now as present, and all beyond that … all possibilities of the future and timelines flipping, crossing and merging.
This version of reality and time is just a possible concept and therefore holds part truth.
So why the bold No then? Because a Higher Truth beyond this is the Higher Self Awareness of One and All! In this Truth time is in a duality pair with space as Time/Space and equally Space/Time … they “hold consciousness as a body” within All Awareness.Sorry for the sidetrack. So back to you as your Higher Self looking at you … what does your Higher Self want you to remember, know and learn?
That you are it … and it is you! As long as you don’t Trust yourself to be the Creator … you are still attracting “doubt, fear and chaos” into your existence. The moment you start to hold all and every (or at least most) Creations consistent and aligned in Trust … the Universe must follow!!! Why? Because it is Your Outside expression of you.
Back to the time dilemma. You actually Create with All of your bodies. Within the individual human this is done through your electo magnetic field resonance … your inner and outer aura frequency … your intent Light. This can only be fine tuned when Being aware of them and Knowing Who You Are!
This requires you to be in tune with your Feelings … and this can only be felt in the actual present time, when you Are in the Source Centre of Time/Space (the human bodies) within Space/Time (the outside World/Universe bodies).
And this Knowing would transform the Now back to the present time … in each and every moment you choose so. Now has become … yes … as your present time!So back to your question … Should I just sit and wait? No, you should sit … believe, trust, know, tune in and feel … all your own feelings. They are your Creations and when aligned in focus, trust, purpose and maximum High Intent for All involved … they will transpire and realized in gratitude!!
Hope this helps you and “others” seeking.
Thanks again for allowing me to express myself 💕💞💓
You are very close Pat. The leap of faith is IN reach!!!
Love and hugs 🤗🌈
Ralph
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Thank you my good Friend Ralph. I like the idea of being my Higher Self and looking at my present situation.
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….what does your Higher Self want you to remember, know and learn?
That you are it … and it is you! As long as you don’t Trust yourself to be the Creator … you are still attracting “doubt, fear and chaos” into your existence. The moment you start to hold all and every (or at least most) Creations consistent and aligned in Trust … the Universe must follow!!! Why? Because it is Your Outside expression of you.
I trust that I am the creator, in a sense, but I also know that we are co-creators with the spiritual forces of the Universe. We don’t get what we think we want, we get what is in co-creation with other forces. That is my understanding. So we don’t really know what’s coming. And that’s what stumps me on this manifesting a new home thing. I don’t know what’s coming. I don’t know what I’ve “earned”. Everything is up in the air.
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I trust that I am the creator, in a sense, but I also know that we are co-creators with the spiritual forces of the Universe
Exactly that’s why … union holds expansion … and division contraction.
Love simply IS … but as you are equally All … You are always guided and attracted to Higher Self awareness. So accept you are always at your highest Light interacting within All best interests.
Spirituality will always be an experience of exploding self. You are with your current quest for a new location, stirring up many attached to your being. So in this aspect you have maximized your expansion when you started to express out … asking to be noticed and requesting help.
Well done Pat 🙏🥰😉
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Ralph, I guess if people aren’t listening to their feelings, then we are missing vital information. With a serious renunciant past as I’ve had, sometimes it’s hard to accept that I deserve to have what my feelings want. Or I don’t really know what my feelings are expressing to me. I guess you have to take the time to look deeper and deeper into the layers of who you are in order to understand yourself better, and your feelings.
I know the Arcturians keep telling us to go with your feelings and not your head. That if you are experiencing a dilemma in your life, or confusion, that it means you are inside your head. Maybe I’m inside my head too much, trying to make things work that you can’t force. Hmmmm…..
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I wanted to try offering an idea. It may be totally out of the realm of possibility, but I’ll just say it anyway. I live in a very lovely apartment complex in Tacoma, Washington. It is a 55-years-and-older community, and the two people who manage the place are very kind. I don’t know how much you can afford for rent, but my husband and I pay $950 per month here. If that is not too expensive, it’s worth a shot. The name of the apartment complex is Belle Terrace, on S Union Ave in Tacoma.
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I just realized that you might be wondering how I can live in a 55-and-up community. The loophole is that only 80% of the residents have to be 55 or older. The other 20% can be any age.
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Thank you AnaelRose for your input. That is reasonable rent to pay. Here is Southern Calif, $950 gets you a room to rent in someone else’s house, with a shared bathroom. I used to live in Spokane and I know how beautiful it is up that way. I have my heart set on staying in Southern California because I love the weather. No matter where I move to, no matter what state, I always keep coming back to Southern Calif because of the weather. Although, if I lived in Tacoma or somewhere up North I would be closer to my family. Thank you. Food for pondering.
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I think it’s important to note that where people live, there needs to be some sort of connection. Some purpose for being there. People need to feel that they belong somewhere. With all the ascension stuff going on, and all the energies pouring into our planet from the outside, and with the covid ending and people feeling antsy to get going again and start living again, life on planet Earth is in flux. Not for everyone, I know, but since there is supposed to be a majority of light on the planet now, things are hopping here…changing for the good!
How picky can one be about where they live? Is it right to try and hold out for something you really desire as opposed to just moving someplace to get away from the present place you are living? Especially if you have no clue how to manifest it? If you are in a negative place, is it wrong to want to leave there? If you don’t have the money to make something happen, how does it happen? Inner work alone does not manifest the things you desire. You have to take outer action in 3D, that is my experience.
My sister just emailed me last night and told me that her and her husband are going to take a cross country trip, and during that time they are going to re-assess their goals and dreams, and what kind of life they want to live now. They live in Portland OR, but all that awful protesting and fighting and police activity and rioting has taken its toll on them. They live near downtown where all that is happening. So now they are starting to feel the need to create a new life.
Does anyone else feel this way? I am feeling it. I am searching for where I “belong.” I guess your heart tells you that, and then you have to believe that where you feel you belong can happen for you, that you can live where your heart wants you to live.
Moving to new locations is an interesting subject. Especially in the now moment when the covid pall is lifting and people are racing to build new lives.
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As Lightworkers, do we get to decide where we live? Or do we go where we are sent? Our Higher Selves have a lot of clout in our lives. Lightworkers have given themselves over to helping the planet. So do we go where we are “sent”? Or do we get to live where our hearts want to live? I don’t know the answer.
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From what I have gathered in my studies, when our Higher Selves take us in a new direction, no matter how big or small, there will be a noticeable feeling in the heart that it’s the right thing to do. Even if that “correct” decision is overshadowed by fear of the unknown, there will be an alluring magnetism. Weirdly enough, the only two places in the world that deeply call to me are Washington State, where I already live, and Japan, where I have always wanted to visit. As things stand now, I do not want to live in Japan because the culture is basically the antithesis of the typical lightworker mentality. The people in Japan are horribly stifled. They don’t have one of the highest, if not the highest suicide rates in the world for no reason. If I never live in Japan, I at least want to help Japanese people open up to the joy of individuality and personal sovereignty.
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I love your answer! Especially this:
“….when our Higher Selves take us in a new direction, no matter how big or small, there will be a noticeable feeling in the heart that it’s the right thing to do. Even if that “correct” decision is overshadowed by fear of the unknown, there will be an alluring magnetism.”
It’s really beautiful to read this. It gives me hope that we are being guided in the direction that is for our highest good. I mean, for real, not just in our dreams.
And it’s interesting about Washington and Japan. You are living where you want to be. And at the same time, you as a Lightworker, have a passion for helping the Japanese people to open up to the concepts of individuality and personal sovereignty. That is an old culture and I guess they have ossified in their thinking. I love their precision and their sense of beauty. Yes, opening up to new aspects of their individualness sounds freeing for them. Very interesting that you shared this. Thank you.
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I have read over and over, the phrase “follow your joy.” The profound truth in that statement is that God seeks to have fun. God has created us all in such a way that our ultimate soul purpose is also the very thing that brings us the ultimate joy. This can be extrapolated to all the more human activities and choices in our lives. If you really want to do something, that means God wants you to do it too. That’s why your heart will say something is the right thing to do or the wrong thing to do. If you feel joyful and expanded when making a decision, you are moving closer to God. If you feel stressed and constricted, you are moving further from God.
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I read this (upper part) Pat and observe you as self are focused on the “problem” of your physical shelter … therefore you move in circles, because you don’t witness the “solution” to your “problem” realized. This holds you in “doubt” of your Self Creating abilities, which in return hold “lack of trust”, self-worth, self love.
The question remains … To Be or Not to Be!?
It isn’t … to have, to do, to think, to stay or to hold! … these are All the result of your very essence … your Source as Knowing itself in Love ❤️💖
The difference between Believing and Knowing is only the “doubt” to hold you there … when you reach out for Knowing … you are in a flow of Trust.
Also don’t punish yourself to much, you are stretching as far as you can reach Now. The out and inside need to stretch with you and come into alignment again. One breath, step, day at a time.
Also take a look at my expression about connecting with your Higher Set in the (K)Now … (above as a response)
Bye for now 😚🤗
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Thank you Ralph. I think I probably need a rest from focusing on this situation for the moment. I’m entering confusion instead of being with my feelings. When you are kind of in a panic like I am, though, you can’t necessarily hear what your feelings are telling you. You just know you’ve got to move. And all your efforts at doing so aren’t working. So, you create more panic for yourself. I am going to go rest and let all this information settle. When I’m calm I’ll be in a better position to feel what’s going on. Thank you. You are a Lightworker’s Lightworker. Powerfully connected, assisting others in a comprehensive way. Your help is appreciated immensely. 🌹👍😊
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Hi Pat,
After the related post on the other thread I went back here to check out the content.
I read this (upper part) Pat and observe you as self are focused on the “problem” of your physical shelter … therefore you move in circles, because you don’t witness the “solution” to your “problem” realized.
I can fully understand how this observation got you confused. It doesn’t really say to actually focus on the solution, when you read carefully. You see when you would focus on the “solution”, you would still hold the “problem” inside of it. They are like two sides of the same coin. Just as when you focus on a question, you hold (feel) the answer!
Stepping away from the problem into Trust, while equally asking yourself always “What is my lesson?” … will provide an answer … always! Maybe you aren’t ready to accept that answer or your awareness (or part of it) isn’t ready yet … but the answer is part of the question, part of the awareness and therefore part of your Being.
In your case it’s rather a collective issue than an individual one. When you show yourself and trust yourself to have mastered this lesson … when your inner feelings grow calm, strong, peaceful and confident … the “outer” part of your “issue collective” will have to adjust!! Why? Because Light vanishes Dark.
No easy situation to be in, I know. I equally know God never present you with a challenge you aren’t up to!! Why? Because you are your Higher Self, Creator and God spark.
Focus on your feelings, your breath and taking one step at a time. I witness you from a distance and you are in an uplifting process. You are progressing every day, every action, every question here or elsewhere and every mindful intended interaction and expression of self.
Take care Pat … I sense you are very close. 💓💞💕🌈😘
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Hey Ralph, I was kind of being impish when I asked that question about solutions and how to see them. You have been working so hard with trying to help me that I kind of wanted to lighten the mood. 😜 Thank you for all your input. I will say it again: you are a Lightworker’s Lightworker. You send out powerful energy. I am grateful for having you on my team and also on Team Humanity. 👍
I just got a phone call that seems to be a very good lead for a room to rent. I am going there Monday to meet the lady and check it out. It’s not far from where I live now, and the area is really nice. And it’s in my price range. Very low-key situation. I will post how things turn out.
Have a great weekend Ralph, and anyone reading this!
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That’s amazing Pat 😍
I’ll pray for you to be rewarded for your hard work this time around. Will send some love to this lady too hahaha so she and you are in a good mood … aligned in your efforts to Light up this situation and the Planet 🌎
Love and hugs 💓💞💕🤗
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I’m very glad to read this update about your situation Pat 😄
May this visit swiftly bring you to a pleasant and safe new place!Julien
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Thank you Julien. I think I deserve it! I’ve been working on trying to move for months. There was a lot more involved in this entire situation involving families and friends and the two main players me and the elderly gentleman I’ve been caregiving for. Geez, karma and lessons to learn and lessons to teach, and the pandemic to deal with…. Little did I know when I moved in here what I was in for. And now it’s just about over, it appears. I’m ready for a new adventure that has no drama and plenty of tranquility and peace of mind. At least for now. 😎
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Whew! I don’t read the forum for a couple of days and look what happens!
I read with avid interest every word of your posts, all of you. I hope that this tumultuous saga will be resolved for you tomorrow, Pat! It sounds very hopeful. When I tune in, I see a kind of brightness and tranquility there.
You asked if we get to choose where we live or if as lightworkers we are sent where we are needed or where we are supposed to be. Alex, you remarked that you’ve only ever wanted to live in Washington state or Japan, and not Japan right now.
This whole discussion is making me aware of and extraordinarily grateful for my home. I’ve lived in Santa Barbara/Goleta since 1977, more than 2/3 of my life. And I actually never want to live anywhere else! At least not at this time. They don’t call it the American Riviera for nothing.
I was born and raised in the bay area and I’ve only lived in Lafayette and Chico and Santa Barbara, California. I can’t imagine living where the weather is bad and I totally get it, Pat, why you want to stay down here.
At the same time, you’re really missing your family connection.
When we all have abundant funds, or funds aren’t even needed for travel, none of that will matter. But we don’t know when that will be and we need to be connected where we are.
I hope you can find the connections you need where you are, Pat. I will say that exploring and possibly joining a 12-step group like debtors anonymous could open up a beautiful community to you. Now that meetings are being held in person again, it would be the perfect time.
Not trying to push it – just offering it as a truly wonderful opportunity to connect with a community of like-minded souls. It is a spiritual program first and foremost. And, of course, if you don’t like the first group you check out, you can try another and another.
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Welcome back “Cathy” 😷🌪️ hahahaha 😂
Was almost about to start an inquiry hahahaha … sensed your absence 😉
Much love 😘💦🌊🌧️🌨️💧🌈
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I thought I’d post this because it’s all part of the scheme to keep me where I am living and never let me move. (Just being facetious.)
The guy who helped me move my things the last two times I moved, died last year in December. So along with all the other problems I’ve had with trying to move from where I’m living, I also lost my “mover”. The forces that be sure wanted me to stay where I was, it seems. So now when I do move, I am going to have to find a couple of new people to help me. Someone who has a truck.
I got the phone numbers of the two churches that are down the street from me, and I was going to call them to see if they knew of someone in their congregation who could help me. (Of course I’d pay.) Instead, I ended up actually going to one of the churches yesterday for their service. It’ a Center for Spiritual Living church, part of the Science of Mind organization. I met some nice people there, but it’s funny…. They are all older folks. So yeah, I am going to ask if one or two of them can help me move?
See, it’s all been a plot to keep me from moving. Even the pandemic started to keep me from moving. I mean, if I didn’t know better, I would swear this was true. So the problem isn’t over yet. Even if I find a new place to live, I still have to find help to get me there. I think this entire situation I’ve been in since last year July has been so obviously stacked against me from moving that it is just flat out funny!
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Wow I am actually learning new verbs and expressions here in the forum with my English friends hahahaha
Just being facetious ~ not serious about a serious subject, in an attempt to be funny or to appear clever
Thanks Pat 🙏
Please allow me to be my most authentic self around here … as this serves me and all around me best … according to my inner truth.
You know your thoughts hold energy!? You know when you keep those thoughts inside you, they develop a frequency! This frequency is “fired up” into feelings. These feelings are your Light, you radiate In and Out around your Etherical body … far beyond your Physical body. Consider them as your magnetic aura field you radiate around you.
I pick up an observation of this field when I make an honest truthful effort to see, feel and perceive you. What happens next is that I am offered a lesson and a choice!!
The lesson is to most honestly tune in to “what” the awareness holds, that I am perceiving from my end … of this Light interpretation!? Filter out most or all debris and memory of “self” and hold what is left as “Love” offered in.This “Love” reminds me of past and offers me an opportunity to send back “Light” to my former self (because of memory recognized … in a scale of Knowing) … from my current advanced “higher” state of being.
Equally I can stay in the (K)Now … or tune up the vibe by desiring to Become Higher! By acting out in the most loving way for all involved, which is offering without any attachments or conditions … I have free choice to express myself. Expressing myself beyond the level of “thought” … Becomes Creation … Being Realized.
I like to give you back, your words here (about the moving) … several parts hold “lower” almost “pessimistic, victim” energy (my perceived honest truth).
This isn’t judgement!! Just observation … and knowing having been there myself. Please don’t receive this as “wrong” but merely as “direction for improvement”.Step out of the Matrix. Everything happens for a reason. You are part of the plan(et) and perfect aligned with you, reconnecting with Self. Step away from creating “sympathy” around your hurt victimized self. This is where all the “problems” are attracted to!!
There are no “problems”!!! … just movement of awareness from One state of Being to the next … and the process to Be aware of this experience … your Becoming Self!!Reconnect with Trust Pat … and try to stay there … keep the vibes … feelings High!
Thank you for allowing me to express myself 💓💞💕🌈
Ralph😘
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Thanks Ralph and I hear you. I’m the kind of person who loves to laugh. I laugh all the time. In fact, the elderly man I am caregiving for knows how to make me laugh about as hard as I know how to. To me, I was being funny, not a victim. I know words hold dynamite, in fact I write about that in my writings. I just think my situation is one for the books, and being light-hearted about it sometimes makes me laugh. That’s all. I didn’t mean to offend anyone.
Pat
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I certainly found nothing to be offended by, Pat! I think I understand the ironic take on your situation. I mean, what are the odds that a pandemic would hit and your dependable mover would die when you need to move?
Sometimes our situations seem like logjams on a river and indeed, dynamite is needed to blast the way clear.
I had to chuckle at the old folks’ churches. Funny, but not. Of course there’s always Craigslist and Nextdoor…
Hoping for not actual dynamite, but whatever force you need to get this to happen for you. I understand it’s our vibes and frequencies (thank you, Ralph! 😘) and I believe the 3D falls in line with that. It doesn’t hurt for the 3D to get some nudge from the physical, whatever that might be.
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Just a quick note. I found my new home. I will be moving in this weekend. The house is very calm and peaceful. The color of the walls are soothing. The people are mellow. And the husband and the son are going to help me move my things. They have a truck. It’s all coming together. Thanks to my family this has all come about. They helped push me over the fence to the financial freedom side, and I see a bright horizon ahead of me. No more living in a pressure cooker, at least for now. It’s time now to chill out for a bit, let the dust settle, and see where I go from here.
And thanks to my friends on this forum who have spent so much time with me in this endeavor. We forumites are a good support system. Thank you! 💕
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I feel a very big smile and a tear for joy. This is a marker of change for many around you Pat. Somehow felt for quite a while you were almost there … and now a very big relief and a beautiful sunrise 🌄
Maybe soon you can look back, as this was the time of a new beginning … walking through a closed door. Also think this live event will give you so much strength … soon you are helping others move forward. You have arrived at your new station, a new home, new joy and much new awareness and self reflections.
In a sense I “dislike” hahahaha … this adventure to end … because you created a lot coherence and collective emphathy here and far around you. Hope you will soon follow up with an adventure where you yourself aren’t the centre of the “event” 🤭😉
Enjoy every moment my dear, you earned it 💓💞💕🌈
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Wow, huge good wishes out to you for this new adventure you’re setting off on – although it was a challenging situation this past year, it sounds like you now have the right house / good folks coming along to welcome you in , and the timing for the actual move sounds perfect (we’re coming out of Mercury Retrograde right now , so it all just makes sense that things will now unfold smoothly)
This seems like a very positive pleasant destination ahead for you !
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I think today’s the day for your move, Pat, right?
I just want to send you loving energy for an easy and light–filled move to your wonderful new home. 🙏🚀💓
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Thank you all for the wonderful well wishes above. I haven’t been in a position to write here. My body is sore as it’s ever been and I have been taking a lot of naps. I moved yesterday and I had two strong guys to help me move my stuff. Now everything is a mess, but at least I got my bed set up and my desk. Good people living here. A/C is on as it is in the high 90s and will be in the low 100s the next couple of days. Just taking it slow. I love that I’m no longer living in the pressure cooker of the other place. After the dust settles I’ll be able to see more clearly what I learned there and I know I’ll appreciate all that I went through. Right now, the focus is settling in. And resting. I am 70! My 25 yr old body is only a memory now. Ha!
Thank you again for all your thoughts. You helped push me further into the light.
So, light to everyone as well.
Pat
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Hello Pat,
Wonderful to know you’re in your new place now , and I bet it’s a nice feeling to be able to take your time unpacking and mindfully arranging your belongings.
I hope you get peaceful sleeps there and that lots of positive new energy comes in … You DID it !! relax and savour the good changes ahead while also appreciating all you learned on the way to where you are now : )
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My favorite part of “bad” experiences is looking back on them from the safety of the present and contemplating any lessons at leisure.
So, enjoy your new, peaceful space, Pat! Are the walls the color of butter?…
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Are the walls the color of butter?…
Hahahaha lol … what kind of expression is that 😂😂 … You English are a funny bunch (or just the Californian species hahahaha) 😘🤗
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Hi, Pat! Warm light beige is basically the color of pale butter…it’s a popular, restful neutral these days. I love white ceilings!
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Catherine, I’d rather eat butter than look at it! I love bread and butter. It’s one of my “sin” foods. And diet soda.
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I did not mean to mislead anyone, but this move is only a temporary one to get me out of where I was. So that means not only am I not unpacking…my containers with all my things are stacked against one of my walls and also inside the closet. This room is much too small for all my stuff.
I needed a quiet place so I could think straight, and this place fit the bill and the price. It’s like a hermitage. My real intention is to start earning money so I can get my own place, or at least find a place to share where I can unpack and spread out.
While I am living here, my first priority is to start bringing in an income. Whether it’s through writing or another avenue, that’s what I will be doing with my time. It’s what I need to figure out. Get creative.
Thanks to my family I am out of debt and also able to pay rent. Now I have this “hermitage” to live in while I work on my next step. When my body recovers from all the soreness and pain and once the dust settles and I get more used to my new environment, I’ll go full steam at building my new life. That’s all I feel I have to say at the moment.
Thank you all for your input throughout this move. I really needed help getting a boost to this new level of awareness from a variety of people. I have been humbled the entire way.
Pat, the tired temporary hermitage dweller.
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Thanks for clarifying, Pat. I was thinking that this was a place you would be as long as you wanted to stay there and I wasn’t aware that you were viewing it as a very temporary stopover on the way to your more permanent home. In any case, I am sure you will enjoy the peace and the “hermitage” so very much especially after all the drama of where you left.
Too bad the great houses no longer keep a hermit on site. What a perfect gig that would be!
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The people said I could stay temporarily or long term, so it’s my call. But I must start earning money to pay for rent soon because I will not be subsidized by my family for long. This is the perfect setup for me…I am being challenged to do what I love, and create a way to earn money at it. Seems that sometimes our backs must be at a wall before a fire is lit under our butts to get going and create new ways of being.
The only reason I am thinking of a more permanent home down the road is because of my age. I can’t be a “wandering Sadhu” forever. You can’t stay out in the field, learning your craft, forever. There comes a point when you have to “come in from the cold” and share what you’ve learned “out there”. I’m at that point now. Things have changed since Covid. I’m having to re-assess my strategy. I think we all are.
I am loving my little hermitage more and more each day. No pressure. Quiet. “Butter”-colored walls. And I do agree with you….let’s enjoy what we eat and drink! Come from a place of joy when we do things. It’s much healthier for your mind and body.
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Hi Pat,
Seems the “saga” continues after all … to some extent. I think you should slowly start to look at yourself a little different then you used to. Step back a little and observe yourself from a different angle.
First I like you to see you as a major wayshower!!! Why? Because we humans and amongst them the majority of light workers, mainly “think” a wayshower is one who knows and shows the direction into advanced vibration and living.
However to my own perspective, a wayshower enables a portal, a vibration and a vortex on which “others” can tune in, lock on, observe, feel and remember!!!So you are providing this service of self reflection for both your own path as well as all outer parts of the collective who freely decide to observe you.
Another part you should really focus on is the fact you just stepped “through” the door! Yes, this is an imaginary door and holds many different forms, very personal to each soul. Nevertheless you should take some credit for this major victory. Nobody can run through a door!! You can only go through it, because it’s a leap of faith.
Ones on the other side, you should notice the difference in feeling. Also you should become aware, there never even was a door to begin with. Why? Because like in your situation … your door was a lack of trust … while looking back it wasn’t the strength, the power, the courage that helped to gain trust … but only the fear of an absence!Lastly, take yet another view of what you passed. You did overcome a state of debt! Also here the human way of interpretation is “dept” is a cause and you are the “sole” responsible individual for causing it, based on your past actions and probably some negative labeled decisions or behavior. This is Not true!!!
If you “again” make the same error as before as in claiming the “issues” as yours, you will go back to an equal related “problem solution” situation.
You have higher awareness now … hold on to it a little longer. Be one with your collective self for as long as you can and feel comfortable with.
Debt isn’t a cause, but a symptom! You neutralized this symptom and stepped up and out of lack!! Lack is related to a shortage of self worth on a personal level and your wider collective level.
Finally one last thing. Who do you think holds a higher vibration of trust? One who has many savings or one who holds close to nothing? You know the answer to this … and as you do know, start appreciating your self and the major wayshower service you are providing.
The future and all changes for humanity will come to wipe away the 3D constructed … problem, solution creation … based on separation, pointing out, blaming and controlling others.
Much love and hugs Pat … we are doing this together 💞💕💓🌈🌄
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Love all you wrote, Ralph. Thank you from my heart. 💕 Again, I am going to study it. You help me see things in a new light, which makes me feel lighter and more clear. And that is what I am going for every step of the way….always seeking clarity and to feel free from limiting encumbrances.
In particular, thank you for offering your definition of the Wayshower. That brings validation to all that I’ve been doing for years. Gives my actions and efforts meaning and value for the effect it has on others. Like, I haven’t been wasting my time all these years upon years of slogging through confusion, doubt, and extreme challenge…the stuff that all Lightworkers go through. There is a purpose for it all. Something for my brothers and sisters to hang their hat of hope on as well.
The books I write are based on my experiences throughout all my lives. I have several books in the making and hopefully the time is now to get them completed and out there for people to ponder. The Covid pandemic has changed everything. People are more spiritually aware now. They know that something is missing and they want better lives. Now is the time for all Lightworkers to offer their best stuff…their specialties. People are ready. That is my strong sense.
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And to clarify about the “debt” I’ve been talking about. I am not a gambler or a drinker and I don’t waste money. It’s more like I gave up everything to pursue my dream and passion of writing. But it still took money to live on. I had three credit card debts that weren’t for too much money, but I couldn’t pay them off because my present salary for years now hasn’t changed and it’s pretty small. So my family stepped up and helped push me toward more financial freedom by paying off the cards. I asked them for help and this is what they came up with. Also to pay my rent for a few months so I could work on creating my “new job.”
Ralph mentioned that I stepped up and out of lack. That took a lot of work and conscious effort on my part, and it doesn’t really matter how I got there or how anyone gets there. In my case I asked for help and it was given. But I had to swallow lots of ego and pride to ask for the help. I guess none of us can ever get away from doing that type of inner work.
Being out of debt makes me feel more in control, more free, and able to pursue my goals and dreams and passions, unfettered. I can focus more attention on what I seek to accomplish in life going forward. There is so much to do….
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Hey Folks, a small update. I am no longer living in stress city, eating everything in sight. I hardly ever think of that last situation I just left. The house I live in is quiet. I get to go for walks and do my writing, and I feel pretty normal. I am desiring to eat a lot of salads and fruit now, and I bought a small blender for making smoothies and healthy vegetable drinks. I must have put on 25 lbs in the past two years due to covid and also the tremendous stress I was under. Time for that to slowly come off by eating better foods. I am establishing a new normal and it feels pretty good. Thank you all for your support. This is the place to come for the best help and feedback in town!
Pat
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Hi Pat and Catherine too,
Was reading this https://goldenageofgaia.com/2021/07/18/california-just-agreed-to-nations-first-guaranteed-income-program/ and was wondering if this is as good as it sounds?
My first impression was as this is the long awaited “mana” for Pat and others in similar economic situations!
Anyway, if not this time around .. probably the next. 💕💞💓🌈😘
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That’s interesting Ralph. Looks as though it is only geared for young people who are transitioning out of foster care, and pregnant females, though. But I could certainly use the money at this point to pay rent. I guess they are prioritizing who needs the money most, and certainly young people coming into their own and pregnant females surely qualify.
On Thursday, California’s Legislature unanimously approved a $35 million guaranteed-income program, funded by taxpayer dollars, in which residents can receive monthly checks of up to $1,000. The text of the bill says the program would prioritize residents who age out of the foster system and pregnant people. It does not contain restrictions for spending the monthly payments.
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Ditto what Pat said.
Plus…it’s “up to” $1,000. As Pat has noted, in many areas, $900 a month gets you a room in a house, with a shared bath. Maybe in some inland areas it would actually be helpful, but it’s so ridiculously expensive, a realistic, livable amount for basic support would be more like $3,000-$4,000 per month. Do you agree, Pat?…
I don’t even want to say what we spend annually just to live in this house, buy food, pay utilities, pay insurance, etc. etc. Without any frills, either. It’s mind boggling when added up.
Love,
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I don’t really know what a good basic support amount is, but I am thinking that we don’t want the govt to take over our lives. I get social security, but I paid into it all my working days. Getting free money is nice, but I don’t think it’s sustainable. People need a certain amount of struggle to give their challenges meaning. And it helps with self-esteem when you overcome your challenges.
Andrew Yang came up with the idea of universal income…at least that’s the first I heard of it. $1,000 per month doesn’t sound like much, but it’s not meant to take care of all your needs. It’s meant to help keep people out of poverty. Give them $3,000-$4,000 a month and that’s way more than many working people get. Would working people get that amount too?
I don’t really have answers. If they want to pay me an extra $1,000 I would use it for rent and food.
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I wonder if anyone has a comment about this. Where I moved to the lady is nice enough, but there seems to be a problem emerging with her autistic-spectrum daughter who is 11. At first she seemed to be OK with me being there. The mom works so the girl pretty much stays in her room all day. It’s not really my business what the mother is doing for the daughter and her autism, but now, the daughter is starting to run away when she sees me. It’s like she runs in panic that another human being is near. And twice now she has started to tamper with my “things”. Nothing serious, but not only is she running away when I’m near, but she is also starting to get into my stuff. I don’t know how far this could go. And I don’t know what it means, why she is doing this.
I am going to say something to the mother. I feel bad that I am causing the girl distress, it appears. Lately she has started coming out of her room and sits on the sofa in the living room with the TV on. Her 16-yr old brother came home from living with his father in Arizona, and he is going to be staying in the house now and going to school here. (I didn’t know all this when I moved in.) Since he came home she has been acting up around me. The boy is nice enough, and he and his sister get along ok, but I am starting to feel that I don’t belong here.
I don’t want to feel uncomfortable, but I don’t think the kids really want me here. And with the mother gone all day, I am on my own with two people who probably aren’t so happy I’m here. Who can know how things will turn out when you move into a new environment?
I told the lady this was a temporary situation for me when I moved in, and she said that was OK. I could stay as long as I wanted. But things have changed since then, the dynamics in the house are different.
Any ideas on how to keep my balance in a house that seems to feel I don’t belong there? I pretty much stay to myself. I’m quiet and I don’t bother anyone. The mother and I talk sometimes, but she is gone most of the time. I don’t want the daughter to get increasingly problematic for me. I wanted my own place when I moved in here and that’s what I’m working toward, but for now the money isn’t there for it. At least this situation isn’t like the last on I was in, not near as bad, but it’s starting to affect my peace of mind.
Maybe my standards are too high?
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Hi Pat, as always I’m ready with opinions and advice…
Sorry for the discomfort. Sounds a little like bait and switch. It’s not how you were told it would be.
Your standards aren’t too high.
Talk to the mom and tell her all. Don’t let it go on. I don’t know what the solution is for the girl. Not to be cruel, but it’s really not your problem other than that she’s invading your space and handling your property and acting inappropriately with you by running away. Does your door have a lock? It should.
Alarm bells went off as soon as I saw your post. It’s not “as bad” as the other place but it’s already problematic after less than a month.
Hope I’m not being brutal, but I really think you would be best off nipping this in the bud by talking with your housemate-landlord ASAP. You are paying to live there and you have a right to quiet enjoyment of your space, I think is the legal term. Certainly the right not to have a disturbed 11-year-old, or anyone else, handling your possessions. Next it might be damaging or stealing them.
The spiritual aspect is, of course, is there an underlying reason for this? Or just a typical problem of unrelated people living together?
Keep us updated. I hope someone else has words of wisdom!
Xo💓💞🌈💞💓-
Thank you Catherine for being ready with your opinions and advice. Ha ha ha. Thanks for the insight. I’ve never dealt first hand with an autistic person. I don’t really know how to act around her. But now that I’ve been told by the mom that the girl is acting out because of her mother and father splitting up, and of all the changes going on in her life at the moment, I don’t feel so bad.
The mom is in a pickle right now. She has been looking for a better job, her husband is in love with another woman and living in another state, and her life is changing radically. Sure it’s going to affect the kids. She said she will talk with the girl.
Karma has been involved with some of the living situations I’ve been in, and some of the karma has been serious. But I had to go through it and clear it out before I could move forward with my life. I thought that before I moved this last time that it would be my last time, but evidently I have some things left to do before I find my forever home.
I will put on my “live and let live” hat and try my best to continue doing my work to earn money so I can move to my forever home. I think I’m real close.
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So I just spoke to the mom. Seems as though her and her husband are splitting up and it is affecting the girl negatively. She is acting out. It’s not really about me. She has bad social anxieties and will be seeing a psychiatrist in Sept. The mom told me she has always been like this, and some people just “can’t be fixed.”
I suppose that means they are so far behind in social skills and so out of step with what society feels is “normal” that she isn’t likely to change very fast.
I don’t know much about autistic children, but I’ve read from Kryon and others that they are here to usher a new world, a more spiritual one. True? There certainly way more autistic children coming in now that ever before, it seems. Here to help with the ascension process? Just thinking out loud….
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Catherine, this is for you. I received a clear picture today of what’s going on with this new move. I’ll put it this way: I’m being offered the opportunities to practice the lessons I learned under harsh the conditions of the last place I lived. I am being asked to muster the gumption to stand up to the weaknesses that have been challenging me in certain areas, and make them strengths. Makes sense to me, and today I was able to practice what I preach. The sooner I master this issue the sooner I’ll be able to move forward towards my professional life and my forever home. That’s how I see it. Thank you for your insight and concern because it did make a difference.
👍😎😊
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So I’m living in a house where I’ve been paying to rent a room since June 25. That’s not even three months yet. When I first moved in, it was just the mother and the 11 yr old autistic daughter, then the husband came back home with the almost 17 yr old son, and the house became very full. Then next thing I know the husband tells me they are getting a divorce. The kids cried etc and there was noise, but now the husband is gone and the son is at home. The dynamics of this household have been constantly changing. I learned a lot while I was here and now I feel it’s time to move on. This was only a temporary stay for me until I could think straight.
Today I couldn’t get the state of Oregon out of my brain. I used to live there years back and really loved the land. And the people were very nice. But I wasn’t able to build a platform for living there long term so I left and went back home to San Diego, Calif. Circumstances brought me to the desert I now live in and have been since 2010. But you know what? I hate the heat, and no matter how hard I have tried over the years, while I love the other seasons, I am feeling parched to the bone. I’m tired of the desert.
I was going over in my mind all the things I love about Oregon. But not only Oregon, I also lived in Spokane, WA. Beautiful area. See, I realized that the Pacific Northwest is where my heart is. I’ve always been passionate about living in Oregon ever since I was young, and I finally got the chance to do it. That area is where my heart lies, so now I’m wondering if that’s where I belong. My heart is up there in more ways than one since my family lives up there as well.
So I was wondering about “how” I would get up there. And where exactly would I live? I don’t know the answers yet. I’m still reeling from the discovery. I think it’s important to focus on where you love to live rather than thinking you have to deal with the heat of the desert summer another year. This summer the heat where I live now has been dragging me through the coals for such a long time, starting this June. So do you go where you love, or do you put up with where you are because you are in a habit? A rut?
My blog talks about heart-centered living…at least that is the subtitle of my blog. Does that mean I should walk my own talk and follow my heart as well?
I am inspired to write about another subject, so I am going to stop here for now and go to my new thread to talk about money.
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Hi Pat! I feel like I’m listening to a friend who, as long as I’d known her, wanted to live in Vermont. She moved there about 12 years ago and has no regrets.
I hate the heat. Couldn’t last a weekend, let alone years. I do think where we live is very important and being comfortable, at the very least, is imperative. Which explains the exorbitant cost of living in most places with good year round weather.
Keep us updated!
Xo💓💞🌈💞💓
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Hi Pat,
Active in three threads at once!! What are you selling?? What are you offering?? What are you teaching??
What I offer you … is my memory … always!
I sense that you “are” scared. You are selling “knowledge” from a position of lack. You identify this “lack” in the outside world and with others. You want the world to change, so you don’t have to. You admire the “prophets” preaching about the “near” world solutions, while self holding barely on … fading strength, energy, health and options!?
That is fear sold as hope and sympathy … or am I wrong?Is it any consolation if I offer you … “Been there, Done that??”
Would you like me to go along with what you are selling, with what you “pretend” as a teacher?
I can do that. That’s what most people do … they respond to your request for sympathy, with sympathy and their own lack on various fronts.
Or … I could offer you truth, honesty and my most authentic self? The choice is yours.
In any way, shape or form … I will always offer and send you unconditional love … always 💕💞💓🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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