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July 27, 2021 at 12:21 PM #324423
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantIn a recent conversation between Ashian and Jennifer Crokaert, Ashian mentioned that some people hold onto certain lower energies or imperfections in order to stay grounded in 3D/4D. I definitely have a lot to say on this subject, as well as needing help with it.
The biggest issue in my life that I’d like to discuss is my perpetual struggle with caring for my physical body.
I grew up with parents that didn’t model a healthy lifestyle for me. They never really exercised or took care to eat healthy food. They never enforced brushing my teeth every day either.
I started to hate any and all types of physical activity when I entered 7th grade. In elementary school, “gym class” was just a period in our day when we got to play games with the whole class. Once I started junior high, gym class turned into monotonous exercise, with a few games sprinkled in here and there.
I haven’t exercised since 10th grade, which was the year when I acquired the bare minimum credits for Physical Education that I needed in order to graduate high school. That was in 2012.
I have never eaten healthy for an extended duration in all the years I’ve been on this earth.
Ever since waking up, my continuous struggles and failures to maintain any semblance of a self care routine have generated a tremendous amount of shame and self hatred. I try over and over to start something, like a diet, and it is always immediately followed by crushing depression, and I fall out of it.
What the hell is going on? What is wrong with my brain?
“I am an awake and aware lightworker, I am a role model for the rest of humanity. It is unacceptable that I have failed in such an important area in my life.
“I should have the body of an athlete, and I should be eating vegan.
“Divine Mother isn’t going to just give me a free pass and restore me to perfect health using a med bed, that would be cheating, when so many other lightworkers have put in the effort and got their bodies into a healthy state through discipline.
“I don’t deserve a free pass, I’ve been a lazy good-for-nothing who sits on her butt every day eating junk food.”
This is the inner monologue that plays on repeat every time this subject gets brought up in my life.
It would seem that Belphegor himself, the demon lord of sloth, has made it his personal mission to kill me through laziness. If I keep living this way, I’m going to keep getting fatter and fatter, and I’ll probably get diabetes too since my grandma had it and now my dad has it.
Yet even that fear, or the fear of becoming a debt slave to the US’s predatory healthcare system, is not enough to overcome this monster of laziness inside me.
I don’t understand why all of my determination and willpower disappears when I’m faced with creating a self care routine. I have so much inner strength and determination in nearly every other aspect of my life; I’m completely at a loss. I feel so completely defeated, I really just don’t know what to do anymore.
I desperately need help, either to get my butt into gear and start taking better care of myself, or to be given a satisfactory explanation for why I’m supposed to continue on as I have.
I wonder if this is some kind of karmic debt that I’m paying off for being mean to overweight and unhealthy people in a past life…
Is this one of those lower energies that I’m supposed to hold onto in order to keep me grounded in 4D, so I don’t drift off into 5D too soon? Or am I making excuses? I truly have no idea.
If this is the way I’m supposed to be, it’s really frightening to leave my health and happiness up to god, to pray that these med beds are real and that I’ll get to use one.
Also, if they are real, how long will I have to wait until I get to use one? How much fatter and weaker will I get? Will I be experiencing deep suffering by the time the public can use them?
Will I be 400 pounds, unable to walk up the three flights of stairs to my apartment without needing to sit and catch my breath? I’m already halfway there, over 200 pounds, and I feel slightly winded when I make it up to the apartment door; I haven’t even reached 30 years old yet.
If something doesn’t happen soon, on the level of divine intervention, I doubt that I’ll live past 60.
I don’t think these kinds of questions get brought up very often, so I’m offering them for contemplation. I know that I just posted a message about us all being perfect exactly the way we are and that we just need to be our authentic selves — I am being authentic in expressing my human fears.
If you have any advice, or even some love and empathy, I would very much appreciate it.
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July 27, 2021 at 3:45 PM #324430
Catherine Viel
ModeratorMy dear Alex, lots of love and empathy, to start with! I’ll write a longer post when I have more time. Meantime…I TOTALLY relate to the hateful self-talk, inability to commit to self-care, overweight but can’t stop eating…not at the moment for me, but I’ve been there…
The book Feeding the Hungry Heart just popped into mind. By Geneen Roth. If you can find it, I don’t even know if it’s in print still, I get a strong intuitive hit it would be beneficial for you at this moment.
Love, and more later,
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July 27, 2021 at 3:48 PM #324431
Catherine Viel
ModeratorStill in print.
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July 27, 2021 at 5:57 PM #324434
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI will consider buying the book, but I wanted to make sure first that we’re on the same page. The way my eating habits go are as follows: I rarely end up eating three meals a day, it’s normally two meals and maybe a snack before or after the second meal. My first meal on weekdays is always on my lunch break at work, and the second meal of my day happens either right after work, or closer to when I go to bed. I would say that I don’t often eat junk food snacks, certainly not in the way you see on tv, with the person mindlessly reaching for chips until the bag is empty. I used to do that when I was a teen but not anymore. I feel like my two biggest problems are portion control and the actual foods that I eat for each meal. I eat fast food more than I should, and even when it’s a home cooked meal, its low quality or deliberately poisoned grocery store food. I wanted to lay this all out because I don’t know what over eating really means. If what I described is considered over eating, then I will have learned something important.
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July 27, 2021 at 5:52 PM #324432
MurrietaLight
ParticipantAlex, I’m really glad you brought all this up, but I’m really sorry to hear about all your struggles. I’m wondering if you have some deep deep past life influences going on here. Have you gone to a reputable psychic to delve into this issue?
I was stuck like you and didn’t know what to do about it, so one of the things I did was have a “Quantum Healing Session” with Vidya Frazier. Her website is called “Awakening to the Fifth Dimension.”
Look under the “Quantum Healing” link and she describes what it’s about, how much it costs, and how to schedule an appointment. I was so glad I did this, I found out so much about myself and how my past lives were influencing me today. I was able to get unstuck thanks to Vidya’s help and all the guidance I received from my guides through her. She gives a lot of value for the $200 she charges, and any follow up appointments are $175. Vidya Frazier is the real deal. Check her out. And good luck.
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July 27, 2021 at 5:52 PM #324433
Suzanne Maresca
KeymasterWhat occurs to me as I read your post is a wondering…
Have you been able to track the original cause of the belief structure that brought you to disregard your physical vessel? It’s a starting place to have that awareness.
Suzanne
pm if you wish to continue the discussion
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July 27, 2021 at 7:10 PM #324436
Catherine Viel
ModeratorThe book isn’t really about eating or a particular diet, it’s about feelings…
I think anyone who has any discomfort or weirdness around food can benefit from reading it. Including wanting to take care of yourself through dietary nourishment, and despite that desire, not doing so.
I can second Pat about Vidya, I’ve had a couple sessions with her, too. She’s very good especially with the past life stuff. I like that she’s available for emails after the session, too—you’re not left hanging with questions and no one to ask, as can happen with a channeled reading.
The library might even have that book, and certainly a used book store might, if there’s any nearby.
Keep unpacking this, now that you’ve started. We’re here to listen and suggest! And add our own stories, I’m sure.
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July 28, 2021 at 3:41 AM #324447
OneRayLove
ParticipantHello Alex,
Again I want to thank you! You have the courage of a lioness always allowing your weaknesses described this open and vulnerable. I highly admire you for it my dear. Truly hope you feel the credits, gratitude and appreciation I send your way.
Before I did go to bed last night I caught this post and hoped for others to reply first. The reason for that is that I feel my answers … or better our conversations are very direct and sometimes shut of a broader conversation. I like however to maximize all conversations, but anyway.
So with the awareness of last night, I already had several conversations in my head with you. I also feel this could be a long answer, maybe I have to cut it in pieces. This for the introduction, now lets move into the “matter at hand”.
Your intro to open up the discussion is a very correct one. I too was absolutely triggered by this same channeling and the “self inflicted” grounding of lower energy. In my core I do know this holds very much truth.
Next, you do your remarkable service to attach one of your “weaknesses” you know as “self infliction” and openly share them with us here and even further down the post, you allow yourself to answers as help and assistance from the outside. How utterly remarkable brave of you!!In a sense this is the head and the tail. All the described “info” in between isn’t necessarily the highest truth. As a matter of fact it holds much distortion, but not in a “bad” way. Why?
Because the energy is open, honest and authentic. This doesn’t solve the problem though. However, it holds both the perceived “problem and solution” for those willing to see and feel it.So lets open the box then. In the box we need to go to the mental part first. There we find you, assisted by your ego of past and present “judging and projecting onto self and others”. This is the problem, because underneath it is the root cause of “being hurt”. We all have been there, done that and to some degrees are still trapped in these “self inflicting” constructs.
The other part is the emotional part, stored in your body. You don’t like your body, just as most of the light-worker community don’t like their body or parts of it. Why?
Because we don’t “like” this world! This world has “issues” we felt all of our lives. Because we are highly sensitive, we did the best we could to fit in. We had to fit in, in order to clean house from the inside out. This came with a price, a disturbance, an out of alignment, a dis-ease. The problem helped to initiate our spiritual path, wake up and start the inner and subsequently outer journey to ascension.All of us light-workers should at one point in time discover the Self beyond the sole physical. The human vessel is our closest identification body to learn align … Light and Love as One.
So much for part one …
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July 28, 2021 at 4:25 AM #324448
OneRayLove
ParticipantPart two … food
Many people think food and burning energy and calories are in a duality pair. The truth is however much more complex then that. First of all, many of the perceived healthy guidelines aren’t healthy at all. They are part of an agenda and this isn’t a pretty one … surprise surprise.
The first thing you have to understand is that food is about love and eating in the constructs we have been taught is completely disturbed. Now I have to admit that I use food too as a “self conflicting” way to stay grounded, but I did overcome a lot of former issues.
So what I like to offer here is one point of view to step back from the “narrative” around food and health. What you should always realize is that you and only you hold your core center in your universe, where you discern between good and bad and all shades of light.
As I know all is one, we possibly can’t eat or drink “clean energy” food at this time but maybe we can choose the less harmful ones. Now you mention the “should eat vegan” guideline. Possibly this is the best and highest guideline you could follow as a human here on Earth now. However, if you are sick as in having a dis-ease, you would be wise as to first treat yourself to become “physically healthy” and then step up the game further!?
In line with this remark, I will tell you what crossed my path and works … for me. A couple years back I discovered that my physical body was addicted. The addiction is sugar!! It appears sugar is highly addictive and far worse than heroin.
However as I always wanted to be healthy and exercised, I had changed my diet many times and the sugars weren’t part of my digestion for a long time … so I thought!This didn’t appear to be correct. It appears carbs are digested into sugars almost instantly when they passed the mouth and the stomach. From there they go into your body and all mechanisms are set in place. So what I thought to avoid, I wasn’t really. It appears there is a condition called “insulin resistant”, which is when your body cells don’t “open up” for insulin anymore. The insulin is the hormone to carry the sugar to the cells. Anyway, I learned a lot and studied a lot.
The biggest problem is many people in the collective aren’t aware they are addicted and they don’t know they are being lied too. Ones you are willing to accept you have a problem and you do want to work on the solution, with your body and mind jointly … you are halfway towards a solution.
Again Alex and all reading this, this worked for me. All is awareness anyway. So those who like to stay on their side of truth … I am fine with that. This isn’t about pushing a narrative, for one better or worse than another … this is for me about offering a solution of something that I remember and recognize as in my past … to whomever is willing to receive.
Thanks again Alex
Much love and hugs
Ralph
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July 28, 2021 at 4:44 PM #324466
OneRayLove
ParticipantPart three … fasting
I will not make this post long, only as a follow up on the second one. So when people would know they have a problem, a hidden addiction for carbs and sugars … still very much promoted by the DS, Big Sugar, Big Pharma and all their friends in various organizations … they could go and do their own research.
When you just type in Google “insulin resistant” you get all kind of medical info explaining the “common narrative”, which isn’t really the highest truth. The only truth out there can be found by you doing your research and listen to what appeals to you.
I found very “trustworthy” information … for me!! … by studying via YouTube. Sure all these people with their channels have agendas too, but for me it makes a difference that I can tune their energy and vibration. There are some good ones out there and also some lesser ones.
Some terms I really came to understand is “intermittent fasting” and “autophagy”. These terms explain you about a highly intelligent and self regulating body. Also they are closely related to a holistic concept of body, mind and environment and the worst enemy is stress and stress related influence both mentally as also in exercise and food. You might find along this path that fat isn’t as bad as promoted by the “common health narrative”.
Make up your own mind. I close of with a video of a person who I studied a lot and taught me various new insights.
Again take it what you like and ignore the rest.
Much love and hugs 💞💕💓🌈
Ralph
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July 28, 2021 at 6:29 PM #324476
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you very much Ralph, I appreciate your story. I am aware of my sugar addiction. Something that I wanted to clarify about my self care issue is that there is a central theme of “fun.” If something is fun, I do it. If something is not fun, I don’t do it. I am highly motivated by fun, and for my whole life, exercising has been in the “NOT FUN!!!” category. The stronger I dislike doing something, the more it feels like the whole universe is pushing against me when I try to do it.
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July 28, 2021 at 8:30 PM #324484
Catherine Viel
ModeratorI totally get the if it’s not fun, I don’t wanna do it. This does lead to a perennially slightly grimy house, because so rarely is cleaning FUN. (I assure you all, I do keep up with the basics just for the sake of hygiene)
Is there anything involving moving your body (you needn’t label it exercise) that is fun? Is it something you could do for five minutes?
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July 28, 2021 at 9:01 PM #324485
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI love to dance and to swim. I’ve contemplated learning to dance, but traditional classes cost an arm and a leg. I do like the idea of just spontaneous dancing purely for fun.
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July 29, 2021 at 1:05 PM #324518
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThis is a song that makes me want to dance. It brings tears to my eyes because it is so pure and so wholesome. It talks about the pure love and joy of dancing, and it perfectly describes how I feel about my husband too.
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July 28, 2021 at 6:47 PM #324477
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantNow I’m writing things down as they come to me. When I was in 7th grade, and I started my first gym class with normal exercises, I was already physically weaker than my classmates. I was ruthlessly forced to measure up to some arbitrary standard of fitness, and was made to feel inadequate from then on because I almost never measured up to those standards. I already had a Body Mass Index that was considered “overweight” because my breasts grew very large very quickly right after puberty started.
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July 28, 2021 at 8:23 PM #324483
Catherine Viel
ModeratorAlex, my best friend in junior high had a chest to rival Dolly Parton’s and did she ever struggle with it. It seems out of balance. And maybe part of having more weight all over your body is a way to “even things up?”
Just pondering, FWIW.
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July 28, 2021 at 9:06 PM #324486
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI agree with you on looking less top heavy with more fat on my stomach, butt and thighs. I hope this isn’t too much information, but my breast size right now is 40-I, in US measurements. I do like the way I’m shaped because I still have some semblance of an hourglass figure. And my husband loves the way I look. He has helped me actually believe in my beauty. I just want to be in better shape, I don’t really care how much I weigh in the end as long as I feel pretty and healthy.
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July 29, 2021 at 10:32 PM #324543
Catherine Viel
ModeratorNot TMI, no worries. 😘 you’re just stating facts.
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July 28, 2021 at 9:09 PM #324487
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI suddenly got the idea to measure my resting heart rate, and it was in the 65-70bpm range. That shocked me because it was 90bpm when I was a teen. I don’t know why it got so low despite me not exercising. Maybe the little physical activity that I get from walking and standing at work all day is making a difference.
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July 29, 2021 at 11:25 AM #324511
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI want to share a big download that I received yesterday when I was at work. It took a few hours to translate all of it because of how big the energy packet was. It’s possible that the group speaking here is the 9D Arcturian Council because I had asked them to help me with my self care issues just prior to receiving this download. If I’m being completely honest, I feel terrified of sharing this, because I often doubt my channeling ability, and what the message said feels too good to be true; but these words felt so loving and expansive as I was hearing them, so I’m taking a shot in the dark and posting this message here anyway. Let me know your thoughts on what they said.
“Please stop hating yourself. You don’t have to fix this problem the old fashioned way, that is not in your life plan. You wanted to embody the flow and effortlessness of the higher realms, to model that way of manifesting.
“Your hedonistic personality is the direct result of trauma.
“You remember that documentary you watched, right? The Wisdom of Trauma? Do not hate yourself because you responded appropriately to the trauma that was inflicted.
“Your desire to do and eat whatever you want, whenever you want is because you never got to do that in your most recent past life. You were controlled from the moment of your birth; you never had your own identity. You were told how to eat, how to dress, how to act, speak, dance, go to the bathroom, etc. Everything you did was not of your own choosing.
“Stop being so hard on yourself; this ‘issue’ of self care will be resolved in the near future.
“Every time that you have attempted and failed to perfect this area of your life, you have pulled back a layer of this immensely deep wound.
“You have to understand that in your most recent past life, your very survival depended on being perfect. Your peers and your higher ups were willing to kill you if you did not meet their expectations, and they tortured you with this information.
“Your willpower and determination are so powerful, otherwise you wouldn’t be here on earth during these times. If you had had access to all of your will and determination in the pursuit of self care, you would have had little trouble in sculpting your body to your liking, and as a result, you would have had an extremely difficult time learning the lesson of loving your imperfections.
“That is why you agreed along with your Higher Self and your spirit guides to place a limiter on your will inside your subconscious. It would only activate if you attempted to develop a complex self care routine.
“You and your brain are not broken.
“Please let yourself off the hook, everything in your life is there by design.
“This is an extremely deep wound, so it will not heal overnight. It has taken many many years to reach this level of healing, and there is yet more healing to take place. Please don’t try to rush this delicate process.
“And please stop trying to hijack your lesson plan. You may consult your Higher Self and your guides in your sleep or in meditation as often as you like, but your ego does not know what is best for you. Stop trying to fix things when you feel scared.
“You cannot change your world for the better from the vibration of fear. You can only do so from love and joy. So please, Alex, start practicing what you preach and follow your joy. If you do so, you will meet the right people, in the right places, at the right times, in perfect alignment with your highest good.
“You started a project at home, yes? You are cleaning and rearranging your apartment, getting rid of old items, buying new furniture, getting ready to decorate with your posters, etc. You’ve been feeling happier since you started that, right? Then keep doing it. You may not know why you need to do this, but you do. Just enjoy the satisfaction it gives you; you need not “think” into it any deeper.
“Another lesson that you’ll be learning more in depth in the near future is learning how to receive help when it is given, because you have a bad habit of refusing help until you have exhausted all other options and you become very desperate.
“You are used to using people to do things that you don’t want to do, but you have not learned how to cooperate with others, or take advice from wiser people, in a self empowered way.
“In your past life, it was frowned upon to help others just for the sake of helping. You were relentlessly bullied if you ever needed help from a peer or superior. You were expected to do everything on your own, or bark orders to your underlings to get anything done. In that world, people did not help you unless they got something good out of it, or if cooperation meant keeping the cabal’s actions a secret from the world. Those are the only two reasons why there was any sense of cooperation amongst the evilest of evil.
“Can you think of a way that you might heal this wound? You guessed it, by receiving help in caring for your body.
“You know deep in your heart that this is true.
“Once the cabal’s anti-life machine finally breaks down for good and is carted away to the junkyard, there will be the most unimaginable outpouring of loving service to all of humanity. You will be brought to tears by the amount of love that can be generated by just one person when the fight for survival ends and peace reigns supreme on Gaia.
“Naturopathic doctors will no longer be silenced. Allopathic medical facilities will be upgraded with advanced alien tech. Wholistic dietitians and athletic trainers will be offering their services for free or a low rate. Therapists will be available to help you heal your addiction to sugar and caffeine. And so much more, my love.
“You will not be abandoned. You will not be expected to just ‘figure it out.’ You will be properly educated with a tailored course in how your body works and how to care for it. You will be learning alongside loved ones and friends so you will not be alone.
“The reason we are able to give you this information now is because you have reached a level of maturity where you will not take it for granted or take advantage of this info such that you derail your soul mission.
“It is not a coincidence that you began receiving so many high vibrational downloads beginning on the Galactic New Year. You graduated, my love. You graduated the previous year with the highest of marks, so we are confident that you will keep on your path and not abuse this information, even knowing what is hard-set into your future lessons.
“We know that you will keep taking care of yourself to the best of your ability, all the way until you have your own personal team of educators and trainers.
“There will be people who do not understand you, who don’t get why you are the way you are, or why you make the choices you make. There will be people who feel the need to judge you because you do not take care of yourself the way they think you should. Pay them no mind; just bless them and be on your merry way.
“You absolutely must cultivate greater trust in yourself and your truth. You know who you are. You know what your mission is. You know where you’re headed. Own it.
“You will not be able to comfortably ride the wave of chaos that is about to hit the beach if you do not stand strong in your beliefs.
“So many people will be riled up and will be compelled to tear you down in an attempt to validate their crumbling belief systems. Do not waver in your truth. But we have the utmost confidence in you, Honey.
“And if you need some help from us, for goodness sake, ask right away. Don’t wait until you are ragged and contemplating exiting your incarnation.
We love you with all of our hearts. Blessings to you.”
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July 29, 2021 at 12:22 PM #324514
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Alex,
That is a beautiful message and an amazing milestone. For me it isn’t as important who was at the sending end of it, but I truly admire the one who received it … and has the courage to speak up from this higher knowing and feeling. I am actually proud of you 😍🥰😘
Now that you have stepped over this threshold of inner doubt and fear … I encourage you to continue and practice more of it. Who cares if it still comes with some “inner human stuff” that could possibly get in between the message. I know I don’t!! This is mainly your message and your graduation. Showing it to yourself and expressing it out in the world makes you a wayshower by definition.
Thank you for showing it can be done! Also thank you for all the general Light blessings for the collective. It shows we are getting closer.
Please stand behind your own message and show yourself and others a way out of the “lower and depressive” energies here on Earth. Keep going!
Much gratitude, Love and extra hugs 💕💓💞🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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July 29, 2021 at 12:34 PM #324517
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you, Ralph, this means a lot to me. I was so scared of sharing this because I didn’t want to appear like I’m trying to make excuses for my problems with exercise and diet. I feel like this message really resonates with me, but I also don’t want to reject any possibilities of finding a work out routine that works for me before the cabal is gone for good. I’m keeping an open mind about getting in shape sooner.
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July 29, 2021 at 3:02 PM #324519
OneRayLove
ParticipantI know Alex … the fear is still there … I can still “see it and sense it”. But you know … that’s beyond the point. The mastering isn’t so much in defeating the fear, but to “overcome the control”!!
That’s your victory. Humanity fought “bad, evil and lower” for centuries, thinking the “Good” was their right and truth as their light and their power to defeat “it”. The Light however, isn’t on the flip side of bad!! … but rather stepping into the awareness to move beyond it!
This is when you move your self awareness above the “Good versus Bad” duality … This is when you Become your Light and “neutralize” all awareness within your own field of Love 💖
Having the courage to see the fear you had and hold is the very first step in facing it and step over its former perceived “power over and control over”. You are in the middle of this mighty process and victory is upon you 🥰😘🙏
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July 29, 2021 at 4:44 PM #324525
MurrietaLight
ParticipantLooks like Alex is in very good hands here.
You got this girl!
All this unfolding is priceless. Keep at it!
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July 29, 2021 at 8:12 PM #324534
Catherine Viel
ModeratorThanks, Alex, I appreciate your words.
[Ralph]: For me it isn’t as important who was at the sending end of it, but I truly admire the one who received it … and has the courage to speak up from this higher knowing.
Like Ralph, I don’t put a lot of stock in identifying the sender…in part because, how can we really know? But if the message is good, true, and right for you, that’s excellent, and something to celebrate.
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August 12, 2021 at 2:56 PM #325203
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI would like to share an update about my self care situation.
When I received that channeled message from my guides, I felt very happy about it, but I still ended up choosing to work harder on my self care right now.
Part of me has been thinking that I’m needlessly going against my guides’ wishes, but there’s another part of me that thought that I should still keep working towards doing this on my own. I feel now that my second idea is more in line with my guides’ agenda in telling me something that is hard-set into my lesson plan.
I think that the scenario of me being matched with a team of health educators and physical trainers is like “Plan Z.” If all my other efforts fail, I won’t be left to die as an obese diabetic.
My guides value my consciousness and its effect on this ascension process, so they want me to stay alive (not to mention that I would really like to stay alive!). Their telling me of this future for me has actually boosted my confidence quite a bit in working towards greater self care.
When I thought that I was all alone and had to battle the cabal’s system in order to become healthy, I had no hope. But now, I feel much more okay with experimenting, with failing, and making mistakes while I try to get my body into shape.
Speaking of which, I went to get a massage yesterday at a place that I’ve never been to before, and I was slightly traumatized by the experience. I was expecting one thing and got something completely different. The massage was extremely painful and I was very stressed out the whole time.
I learned that what I’m used to is Swedish massage, but the place I went to does Chinese massages. Chinese massages are more like deep tissue, therapeutic massages that are meant to get your life force energy unblocked. They use acupressure to do that, and since I have some blubber, the masseuse had to really dig into me to get at the muscle.
The only reason I stayed was because Archangel Michael, whom I asked to be with me and cleanse the massage space, told me that some toxins would be dislodged, and that it would be to my benefit. I don’t know if I ever want to do that again.
Despite what happened yesterday, I feel positive and hopeful about the future of my health. I am doing more to care for myself than I ever have before in my life.
I’m taking my foot pain seriously; I bought some new work shoes that are higher quality and should be more cushiony than my current ones. I’m also going to be working with a podiatrist to maximize my foot comfort. I believe that healing my feet is going to have a domino effect on healing the rest of my body because I believe that people’s feet are connected via meridians to the rest of the body.
I got an app to help me sleep better, and it’s amazing, I feel like the doctor who spearheaded this app is a lightworker. The app’s name is SleepEasy. It requires a subscription, but for me it’s totally worth it. If you know anyone who has sleep issues, I highly recommend this app.
My husband is going to be exercising with my friend Isaiah soon, so he’ll be able to share his experiences with me about going to the gym. I think if Raven learns more about how exercise and diet works from other people at the gym, I’ll feel more confident in joining him.
All in all, I’m doing well. There are some things that I’m slacking on, like eating home cooked meals and keeping the apartment clean, but I’m not going to be hard on myself for those things anymore. I shouldn’t need to be perfect at being an adult since it hasn’t even been a year yet since I got my own place. I want to work harder at being more patient and compassionate with myself.
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August 14, 2021 at 6:12 PM #325280
Catherine Viel
ModeratorPatience and compassion are excellent attributes, especially when deployed for the self!
Congrats on all your tangible efforts, Alex.
I’ve had Rolfing, which feels like your tissues being shredded, but really works. Swedish is best for relaxing!
How about foot reflexology, to go with upping your foot care, very wisely I think?
Xo💓💞😻💞💓
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August 13, 2021 at 3:41 AM #325215
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Alex … my dear friend,
I enjoy reading another one of your nice stories. Also a very positive one with beautiful examples of renewed strength and encouragement in self … with body, mind, guides … All aligned.
But now, I feel much more okay with experimenting, with failing, and making mistakes while I try to get my body into shape.
Nothing to add to this … only wanted to emphasize the positive energy and Light you offer yourself.
Chinese massages are more like deep tissue, therapeutic massages that are meant to get your life force energy unblocked. …
Don’t think this was a coincidence … not that I even mildly believe they exist at all, but anyway … you were strongly guided towards the best experience for both spiritual growth as well as bodily and emotional balance.
And you know what? … you noticed every and all moments as … Love and for your higher Good 👏👏👏
I believe that healing my feet is going to have a domino effect on healing the rest of my body because I believe that people’s feet are connected via meridians to the rest of the body.
Healing a part IS healing the Whole … there is nothing outside One, although we humans are constantly reminded there is.
I shouldn’t need to be perfect at being an …
I cut it short … for everything after “an” … holds “only a human” understanding, with human labels for classification and reasoning.😉😚
So happy you shared this lovely update with us Alex. Thank you 💞💕💓🌈🙏
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August 15, 2021 at 7:51 PM #325319
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you, Ralph and Catherine, for your thoughts. I may consider the foot massages, it sounds like a good idea.
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