Dawning Awareness

Followers of the path of awareness will probably recognize the process I call “dawning awareness.” In my view, it’s one of the chief means by which knowledge and understanding are gained on this path.

The knowledge that I value as a follower of this path is both body- and spirit-centered. That is, it shows up as changes in the manner in which the spirit and body function with each other. (1)

So for instance, when I speak the truth, I feel release from the patterns of stress and tension in the body. (2) Therefore I use the experience of release as my homing beacon to tell me whether I’ve told the truth or not. If I’ve told the truth, I experience release. If I haven’t, I experience more stress and tension. In this case, the body feeds back to the personality (the spiritual expression of the being at that level of dimensionality) what the truth is.

In the process of “dawning awareness,” I’m concerned with thoughts that arise in my mind which are both true and impactful. By “impactful” I mean thoughts that create release from stress and tension, thoughts that “set me free.”

Where these thoughts come from, I’d imagine, varies. Some come from memory. If what I’m dealing with is a vasana, (3) then memory is where the original traumatic incident that’s the seed of the vasana is located. So it isn’t true that we should stay out of the past in all cases. In sourcing or completing a vasana, the past is valuable.

More thoughts arise in my mind, I think, from my guides, including my Higher Self. At this point in my evolution, when I’m speaking, I’m usually unable to know when a thought has come from these sources. However, when I’m writing, I can often see the difference in energy and know that I’m being guided.

The thoughts that arise in my mind often follow a patterned process, so to speak. A keynote thought will arise and then each thought that arises thereafter addresses an area of ignorance or resistance that itself arises in resistance or opposition to the keynote thought.

The sequence is much like “and then … and then” or “what if … what if.” It has a narrative, often sequential quality.

It’s as if I face a sage of whom I ask one question after another and the sage supplies one answer after another, until I have no more questions.

However, I’m usually not aware of the process at this level of detail. What I’m more aware of, if I’m writing, say, is the next sentence coming and the next and the next. I have to observe closely if I want to see the question that arises to which the next sentence is an answer.

What I am aware of is that, before I wrote that sentence, often I may not have had that knowledge. I’m aware that I’m learning as I go along in the process of dawning awareness.

That puts a special meaning on the saying that we write what we want to learn.

I’m getting more and more confident with this process. I sit down and address a subject and now have the confidence that the answer will come as I go along.

I know there’s a group on the other side who channels through me. I know this because I’ve been told but also because there have been one or two days on which I haven’t felt “inspired” and on those days I can’t write a word. I think the guides did that just to show me their presence. And it worked. After that I was aware of them. Or rather of the building of inspiration and the felt need or pressure to write.

Everyone has a different signal for when it’s time to work. Suzanne Lie feels a sensation like a knock on the head when the Arcturians want to speak. And I feel the upwelling of bliss when I know an article is coming through. (I think I prefer the upwelling of bliss!)

I believe I supply the words, the vocabulary or building blocks, but they supply the energy, the thought content, perhaps not in word form but in some other form that I’m not certain about yet. I haven’t had experience of telepathy in this lifetime so it very well could be that and I just don’t recognize it as such.

The process is a bit discombobulating at times. It’s almost as if I get the chief answer first and then more and more detail as if I’m working backwards. It sometimes feels as if we’re going farther and farther away from the main point, as if we’re straying, but this is often how dawning awareness works.

We never sneak up on a subject. I get the last or final word first and then answers to the reservations in my mind or to my objections, until I have no more of either.

And all the while I speak or write the thoughts as if I’ve said them when I know I haven’t.

There was a time when I felt like a fraud because I was not acknowledging that these thoughts were arising in my mind from what I knew to be another source. But even the avatar Sri Ramakrishna operated in this manner. The Divine Mother fed him a never-ending flow of images and thoughts and he simply relayed what she was telling him.

The more I get out of the way, the easier the process works and the better the flow. You remember I said that, when I was channeling “The Declaration of Human Freedom” from Archangel Michael, (4) I would periodically say to myself that I needed to take control of the process. At that point, I’d insert a word that I specifically wanted in the text.

However later, when I read the document, the places where my attention stopped because the word was not right were typically the places where I’d put a word in the document. I had to remove my contribution to that piece.

You see the implications of all this, do you not? We know how it’s said that God plays all parts and speaks all lines. When one is aware of being used by higher dimensions, one begins to track back where the words may be coming from. And ultimately one arrives back at the Source who, I think, inspires all true and ennobling thoughts.

Our best contribution really seems to be, as my brother is fond of saying, to get out of the way. And I consider it a sign of growing spiritual maturity when the individual not only doesn’t mind doing that but also actually wants to serve as a channel for a higher expression. I end up curious as to what “they” want to say today. I have very little desire to hear myself and a great deal of curiosity as to what desires to come through.

We wonder what the folks on the other side are doing these days. Well, don’t forget to remember all the ones who are inspiring our writers, artists, politicians, sages, healers, etc.