The “I” is the source of our problems. And the “I” is the source of our salvation.
How confusing can it be?
The “I” which was birthed from God, as the Mother has described, (1) clothes itself in one body after another. Many etheric bodies, a mind, and an ego – and those are just the few of the “attachments” that we know of. There are probably countless energetic grids that make up some part of our bodies as well that we have no idea of.
We’re tasked with one assignment in life: To find out who we really are.
What is the answer. You got it. “I.” (2) But which “I”?
Do we play pick-up-sticks among the “I’s”? Is the last “I” standing the One? How do we arrive at which “I” is the Real Me?
The answer is discrimination.
The events of each physical lifetime happen only to sharpen our discrimination between the Real and the unreal.
Said Sri Krishna: “Lose discrimination, and you miss life’s only purpose.” (3) Why is discrimination life’s only purpose? Because realizing, recognizing, remembering the Self and then seeing its identity with the One are operations that depend on our discrimination. We discern the Real from the unreal.
We free up our discrimination by cleansing ourselves of our vasanas (core issues) and other burdensome, densifying factors in our consciousness.
Discrimination is not just smarts. It isn’t just a razor-sharp intellect. It’s all the senses working – and many higher-dimensional senses as well. It’s the budding, unfolding, multisensory, multidimensional intuition and natural knowing, beginning to burst through the soil.
The situation is like a Babushka doll. The upper graphic shows the doll assembled. That’s the “I” that you shake hands with. Meet the real … I mean, unreal … me.
Immediately upon death, I throw off that body, but I still have many more.
Down to the very innermost Babushka doll, which exists inside no shell. That’s the penultimate state of existence. Past that, I immerse myself in God again and lose my last vestige of individuality. (4)
All the way through, our “I’s” are fighting with each other. The ego I wants to survive. The mind I wants r-e-s-p-e-c-t. Or as Buddhists put it, the desiring mind wants this. The inquiring mind wants that. We have a thousand “I’s” and only one is the Real One.
So, many bodies and only one “I” behind all the bodies. Many voices inside us claiming to be the real “I,” to whom we should listen. And physical life is designed to sharpen our discrimination to the point where we can pierce the density of our minds, still them, and recognize the real “I” within.
That is our sole assignment.
(1) “My beloved children, children … I have birthed [you] from my being, from my essence — which is far beyond what you can imagine.” (““The Father and the Father … by the Mother,” May 7, 2012, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2012/05/the-father-and-the-father-by-the-mother/.)
“You are angels in form, and you have been birthed even prior to that as the essence of One. So you return to that while keeping your magnificent form.” (“The Divine Mother Explains Ascension,” October 5, 2017, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/10/05/the-divine-mother-explains-ascension/.)
“You did not start out in form. You simply started out as a spark of light, of love, and then the adventure began.” (“Transcript: Universal Mother Mary Discusses the Law of Change, September 3, 2013, Part 1/2,” September 6, 2013, through Linda Dillon, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/09/06/transcript-universal-mother-mary-discusses-the-law-of-change-september-3-2013-part-12/.)
(2) The Self. But hearing the answer intellectually is no help. We’re tasked with knowing it deeply realizationally.
(3) Sri Krishna in Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher Isherwood, trans., Bhagavad-Gita. The Song of God. New York and Scarborough: New American Library, 1972; c1944, 41.
(4) Except I don’t. The Mother wishes to keep the divine play going so I’m now given to understand that, after immersing ourselves in the Ocean of Love that the Father/Mother is, we’re called forth again for another tour of duty.