Before resuming the study of my shadow self, let’s take a moment to look at what our sources have recently said about vasanas, anger, and the release of our core negativity at this time.
Archangel Michael defined vasanas on An Hour with an Angel April 29, 2013 and said some of those that are coming up to be cleared go all the way back to the Intergalactic Wars.
“A vasana is a behavior, a belief, a reaction, never of love — defensive, yes, but not of truth, that is, in general … based in the history of the individual, in the history of their mind, of their psyche, of their conscious, subconscious or unconscious, or that has been carried forward as a bleed-through from another life, sometimes a life so long ago that it simply lives in the shadows of history.
“And for some of you even those vasanas, those obstacles to who you really are, are not even based on your experience on Earth, but elsewhere.
“It would be incorrect for any of you to think or believe that a vasana is only an Earth-based reality. You can carry — in fact, many of you do — vasanas from other worlds, particularly from the time of the intergalactic wars.” (1)
Jesus revealed that memories of having been punished and tortured are arising to be cleared.
“Humanity has a lot of old memories that need releasing. Hanging on to old memories of being offended, punished, tortured, or killed feeds the dying embers of the remaining negative energy fields that have for so long driven you into conflict and war. Holding on to grudges, resentments, insults, and offenses has for eons supported the negative energies that have consistently led you into fear and anger, and fueled an overwhelming desire for vengeance and retribution – a desire that can never be satisfied because it becomes all-consuming.” (2)
The Arcturian Group said entire countries are holding onto historical issues that create anger and forestall the creation of Nova Earth.
“There are still many countries that hold anger and grudges toward those of another country for events of the past, teaching their children to hate and hold obsolete and finished energy from one generation to the next. This is what keeps people and countries from evolving and bringing in the new earth you seek, dear ones, for the Light of that new world you desire cannot manifest in an ever renewing heavy block of dense energy. This is not a message urging all to become door mats, or to simply ignore situations while saying; ‘Oh well, God is all, it isn’t real’ for this is indeed ‘human.’ We are simply alerting you to the subtle energy of anger that at this time you are unaware is underlying many of your choices and ideas.” (3)
Archangel Michael called these “collective vasanas.”
“Now, in terms of collective vasanas, there are some collective human collective vasanas that are also in the process of being addressed and removed, let go of. Such things — and you know that I am the archangel of peace — such as the collective belief in the essential rightness of war. There is a subtle belief that is a good-versus-evil process to engage in war. There is an overriding sense of righteousness. And there is an overriding sense of ‘must.’ And so it is what we would refer to as negative creation.
“And these are the kind of collective vasanas that have been very destructive and in fact have been the downfall of humanity and of the old 3rd dimension. Fortunately, they are being eliminated.” (4)
The Angels through Tazjima predicted that many people, as they awaken, will find themselves becoming angry. They warn us against creating what we don’t want.
“As the people begin to awaken, initially they may be angry, even as some of you the lightworkers are still angry, directing your thoughts towards what you see as negative in your world. We would gently suggest that you move your thoughts away from the rapidly decaying elements of the old paradigm, as it will continue to break down on its own without your assistance.
“Remember that you are creators. Your thoughts are more powerful than most of you understand right now. What you focus on the most becomes what manifests in your world. Learn to keep your thoughts focused on more positive outcomes even if they do not manifest directly; they will soon enough.” (5)
AAM stressed how vasanas can stand between people.
“Now, we are not talking or discussing about a minor injury. We are talking about an event or a situation that has been so pervasive or so painfully traumatic that it has resulted in you basically putting up a shield. And while you have believed it is a shield of protection, it is in fact a shield that separates you. And it separates you, my friends, not only from each other and from us, but from yourselves.
“So vasanas are, by their very nature, tragic; not sad, but tragic.” (6)
He gave some examples of what we do with our vasanas:
“In a current life, it may be that you were raised in a sexually, mentally, emotionally, physically abusive environment; that you came into a family that did not love you, cherish you, nurture you or even want you.
“Now, how this has translated is into an issue of that love is not real, or that somehow you are lacking. So then you become a person who is always trying to either prove themselves, to discover your self-worth.
“But more likely what you do is you begin to defend yourself against situations that might be construed, that are supposed to be, in your idea, that are supposed to be loving, but that you know, instinctively, because of the vasana, that you know will be painful.” (7)
We sometimes take our descriptions of our circumstances and act them out by causing pain or a reaction in our bodies. He gave me an example of this in my last reading with him. I had been having lunch with two friends, listening to conversation which for me was very mundane, when I suddenly choked on my food. I asked him what had happened and he said that I could not stomach the conversation. Another person had a hand injury which AAM said reflected the fact that felt he was losing his grip on his life.
At other times, something bad or tragic happens to us and we reach a conclusion about life on the basis of it, as he illustrates here.
“Perhaps you have had disability, or great injury, physical pain. And so the belief emerges that life is painful, that joy is evasive and perhaps not even possible, that hope is an illusion, that movement and creation of a different form of being in physicality is not possible.
“Perhaps you have been in a love relationship, or relationships, where your heart has been broken, time after time after time. And, my friends, that is even possible within the framework of one relationship, because there are times when this belief, this vasana, comes to the fore and you say, ‘Well, love is not supposed to be sharing and joyful and mutual; love is painful and hurtful and controlling and greedy.’ And so what you do is you develop defensive behaviors.” (8)
In his last monthly message through Ronna Herman, Archangel Michael discussed how negative energy is stored within the body:
“It is vitally important that you understand that there are subatomic dark crystals throughout the bodily form of everyone who resonates to the lower frequency thought forms. These crystals are packed with negative waste material created and recreated over many lifetimes, some of which are inherited negative patterns that you brought with you into the physical form to heal.” (9)
To higher beings, we look as if we’re immersed in muddy water, says Jesus, which the flow of love is cleansing.
“It is as though you are immersed in deep, muddy, toxic water, and the flow of love is cleansing and dissolving the toxins and impurities. Already there are many areas which are clear and sparkling, and the process will continue until total purity is achieved and becomes self-sustaining.” (10)
So our vasanas have a thought component and a physical component. The thought component could include conclusions we reach about life and decisions we make about how to live. The physical component includes “subatomic dark crystals” that must be released from our system. For some reason I used to think that these were crystals of uric acid, but I cannot vouch for that statement.
The Arcturians through Suzanne Lie tells us how the higher light is releasing these toxins:
“As the higher Light from the Galactic Center enters your Crown, your Earth vessel accepts, grounds, and integrates the higher multidimensional energy into your physical Earth vessel. It is at this point that the symptoms of transformation escalate as the higher Light flushes out the lower frequency thoughts, emotions, memories, and physical toxins.
“In this manner, your Earth vessel becomes LIGHT enough to begin its transmutation from the dense, physical body you have been wearing into the higher frequency form of your Lightbody. However, the Symptoms of Transmutation can be quite uncomfortable.” (11)
(Concluded in Part 2.)