I’d like to look at three things here: how our view of Ascension is determined as a personal matter, how the early circumstances of our lives may set up the conditions and direction of our mission, and how each of our missions is personal.
Everyone seems to have their own definition of what Ascension looks like. Many of us think in terms of “higher.” We go to a “higher” dimension. We listen to “higher” dimensional beings. And then we elaborate this way of seeing things and the higher becomes better and the lower becomes worse, etc.
My definition of Ascension would have to be “deeper.” And that reflects my upbringing, which in turn, I say, reflects my mission.
In our family there was violence (source of a vasana) that was hidden and I swore that I would never be silent again in the face of perpetrations (decision born of the vasana).
And so my whole life has been about speaking out and refusing to follow conventions if they hid perpetrations or corruption. I’ve always wanted to go deeper because in my family we remained on the surface as a part of a pretense that hid the violence.
So my personal circumstances have impacted my view of Ascension. And so it may be for all of us: Our view of Ascension may be determined by our personal circumstances and they in turn may be determined by our mission.
I’d like to leave this matter now and go more deeply into the second matter: How our early-life circumstances may reflect the direction and conditions of our mission.
I’m convinced that my early-life circumstances were either laid down to activate the mission I’m on or are just the way I interpret things given the mission glasses I wear.
The part of this blog that I’m most proud of was actually written years ago and was written to face off with the cabal.
Yes, you could say I was facing off against my own father. But I think matters go beyond that. I think I agreed to come here to face off against the cabal and the scenario with my father was just to prepare me, or bind me, or release me – to pull my ripcord, so to speak.
And so I think it is with all of us. Our personal circumstances are there to activate us and/or our mission. Or to give us knowledge that will be needed in our mission. And I think this will become clearer when the blinkers come off.
What I see in my own personal situation is a seven-year-old boy in a 66-year-old body breaking free. I see a young child rescuing himself and redeeming himself, but again it goes deeper: This scenario is there to help at least one being find his voice and thereafter uses it in the service of Ascension.
All I’m aware of is that I experience a felt necessity to free myself from all the bonds and trappings of inauthenticity in the service of corruption. All I’m aware of is that this shows up for me like a time more important in my life than any I can conceive of prior to this.
I see myself staring at the open door and know that I have to get up off my seat and walk through it, no matter what it costs me, no matter who or what I must leave behind (if I must). This is not a call one turns down.
There is no actual movement and there need be no actual leave-taking. It is all internal. But again this view and this sense of needing to move all focus on and are folded into my mission.
If what I’ve said is true, then it may demonstrate that what’s right for me may not be right for you. Each of us has our own unique mission.
Therefore, it becomes important to say please don’t do as I do. Do as you do. We aren’t meant to be following each other. We’re meant to be leading the way for ourselves, each of us.
This time and this movement of the spirit in all of us is not about any form of slavery or loss of personal power. It’s about an explosion in personal sovereignty. It’s about being king or queen of our own domain. Anything less and, I think, we miss the point.
Thus our view of Ascension is personal, I think, reflecting our early lives and our own unique mission. We aren’t meant to be following each other but following the needs of our mission.