It wouldn’t be accurate to say that there aren’t times when I feel discouraged, disappointed, doubtful, etc.
I haven’t somehow “sold myself to the highest bidder.” I’m my own man and make my decisions after due reflection on all the facts known to me. They aren’t snap decisions or knee-jerk responses.
Therefore the doubts when events don’t happen, are postponed, or seem late to arrive can build up and really put me off my center.
I’ll be posting a portion of my Feb. 12 reading in which I presented my doubts to Archangel Michael and he gave me a very candid and ample response to them.
As an “independent decision-maker,” (1) I was impressed.
But there were aspects of the process that were interesting to go through. One is that I saw again and again is that there was no way to handle the situation of doubt if I try to tackle it issue by issue.
That is worse than pick-up sticks. It’s more like trying to unwind a tangled ball of thread or unravel a Gordian knot. I get nowhere with it.
Doubt arises in the absence of information.
If doubt is to be finally laid to rest, it has to be tackled by consulting the heart. And for men especially, who aren’t as used to consulting the heart as women, that doesn’t always come easily.
A (female) friend of mine illustrated how simple it was to get to the heart of the matter. She asked of me: “Do you trust Archangel Michael?” (2)
Maybe it’s the energies, maybe it was what I was overlooking in the first place, but trust and love welled up in me.
Yes, I do trust Archangel Michael. Why was I even flirting with doubt? When I consult my heart, rather than my mind, there’s no question that I trust him. Love him too.
He joked with me in my last reading that, whenever we sit together in meditation to allow me to channel him, I always try to merge with him instead. Well, yah! And he said that was alright too but….
Some people say we’re listening to spooks. Others question the veracity of this channel or that. I learned a long time ago that, no matter what happens in the circumstances at hand, the real archangel or the real God knows whom I serve.
I’ve seen so many gurus fall (and, some of them, “purnavatars” too or full and complete Incarnations of God) that I’ve worked this issue through for myself. God knows whom I serve, whether the guru falls or not.
So do I trust Archangel Michael? The answer is yes. Answering that question cuts right through my doubt and other difficulties. They all fall away.
I’m restored to Self, restored to the heart, restored to love.
There’s so much I don’t know. So many things are happening behind the scenes, affected by matters such as our free will and the need for the Company of Heaven to have our partnership in moving forward in the work of social reconstruction (which slows the CoH down). I cannot know all the ins and outs of what’s happening. I may never know.
The answer doesn’t lie in seeking more information in a world awash with information. The answer lies in consulting the heart, the soul, the Self.
The love that I then feel washes away my doubt and hesitation.
(1) As we called ourselves at the Immigration and Refugee Board.
(2) Like doubt, trust arises to fill the gap presented by the absence of information. In the hearing room, we call trust “credibility,” the trustworthiness of a witness.
If credibility is established, we trusted the witness on the remaining elements of his or her account that could not be established by documentary or other proof. In Canadian law, a credible witness must receive “the benefit of the doubt” or a reasonable explanation of why not must be given.