Here’s something I need to share.
I don’t think I can go 24/7/365 any longer.
I end up feeling burned out, ready to drop.
I need a couple of days off a week to recharge my battery.
The Divine Mother told me on Oct. 26 that Xenia was intended partly “to re-fill [i,e., replenish yourself]. … It had to do with life force, physical energy, and physical presence upon the planet. Let me be very clear about that.” (1)
At the time that she said it, I didn’t know what she might be referring to. But now I do.
I burned out around Christmas time. I remember saying to myself, if I can only make it to Christmas…. It was a matter of life force, physical energy within me, as the Mother says. I’ve been resting since then.
A depletion of life force can take place when a person is a house divided against itself. I’ll be writing about that later.
But it can also be brought about by resistance to needing to keep secrets vs. wanting to be transparent.
Or it can take the form of wanting something and not giving it to myself.
Here I was needing a break and not giving it to myself. I was in inner conflict over feeling dragged out and yet not helping myself out.
The correction for me, with your leave, is to offer myself a weekly two-day window of relaxation. (2)
With your consent, I’ll be taking Mondays and Tuesdays off, those being the days of lowest readership. I won’t conduct business two days a week; no articles will be posted to Monday or Tuesday. (3) I’ll just relax. Whether or not I’m current with things, I’ll lay down tools and not pick them up till
I feel lighter already. I’ve ended the inner conflict and I’ve offered myself some relief.
(1) The Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.
(2) My Dad would call me a lazy, no-good good-for-nothing when he was displeased with me. My whole life has been to show him that I’m not. Fifty books later…. This too is catching up with me.
(3) Some days I might schedule articles ahead of time and take days off before or after. I know. I know. But I feel a strong need to be clear, these days. It seems to be part of what I bring to the party.