Kathleen has cleansed herself of more vasanas than I.
I lumber around under the weight of my incompletions and perpetrations, compared to her leaping gazelle.
There has to be an easier way to transcend vasanas than the lumbering process I go through now.
I’m drawn to Kathleen’s formulation: Forgive, have compassion for, and be in gratitude for everyone and everything. (1)
I know that, as a future CEO of a number of companies, I can’t expect everyone else to go through upsets before I do. I need to go first and see if I can handle the problem before looking to others. So I like the proactive nature of her approach.
But, in tackling this one, I soon become aware of parts of my identity that don’t want to forgive. I’ve used resentment or the withholding of forgiveness as a manipulation – more years than I care to think of. (2)
Will I have to wait for a near-death experience or a life-threatening illness before I … just get it?
Forgiving everyone and everything would in itself be a transformational and paradigmatic breakthrough of the first order.
Well, now that gives me a reason to do it. I need a little encouragement. I’m throwing away an important tool in my manipulation toolbox.
OK. Here I go.
I invoke the Universal Laws of Intention and Sacred Purpose and Sanat Kumara to fulfill my intention immediately to forgive everyone and everything in my past.
Later I’ll move to feeling compassion and gratitude for everyone and everything in my life – the steps Kathleen recommended.
For now, simple forgiveness feels like as much as I can handle.
Who has time to go through the whole list of names of perpetrators and victims to forgive any more? I don’t. I need to be generic. The time I have for processing seems to be dwindling.
I assert that, functionally, forgiveness means – and can be measured by – the release of resentment (past). And then not resenting again (future). As Saul confirms: “To not forgive is to hold onto resentment and judgment.” (3)
Let me go through the processing of resentment tomorrow.
(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)
(1) Kathleen Mary Willis, “I Am Love – I Am Worth – I Am Balance,”
(2) I have a sneaking hunch I’m not alone here! 😀
(3) “To not forgive is to hold onto resentment and judgment, which enormously restricts and limits your ability to see, to be aware, to know Love.” (Saul, November 15, 2014, at http://johnsmallman.wordpress.com.)