Whoever it is that’s planting ideas in me planted the idea today that “I can be pure.”
Of course that started me thinking.
We can be pure…. Hmmmm….
Once our vasanas (core issues) have lifted, once our conditioning has been let go of, what’s left that interferes with the natural unfoldment of our purity, our unadulterated, stainless Self?
It isn’t that we’re broken and need fixing, I think. It’s that we’re overlain and need unconcealing.
What’s been discarded need concern us no more. The only concern we might have is with what’s been held onto.
In the old Third, we used to think that we had to analyze everything. We even called those who helped us “psycho-analysts.”
In my view, we don’t have to analyze our vasanas, one of the chief things we hold onto. We simply have to be with them as observers when they go off (so as not to project them onto others) and release them when they let go.
They’re released to the universe. Not sent back down inside, energized by a fresh outburst from us. Over time their force diminishes.
Even more so with our conditioning, the residue of our vasanas. Just sidestep the commands to resort to stock responses in situations. If you find it hard to do so, then you’re getting rewarded from somewhere for that behavior. You like the “biscuits” you get from some act or number more than you like something you don’t know, like bliss. I can understand that.
However, if you can, let the stock responses go past you as the matador lets the bull pass by. See what happens when you sidestep them. They’re from your conditioning.
They’re no longer connected to anything if our vasanas are indeed gone. After our vasanas have been cleared, our conditioning has only a tenuous life of its own, like a burnt rope actually, to borrow an image from Shankara. (1)
Proceeding by observing, watch if both your vasanas and your conditioning don’t lessen their grip on you over time. See whether you can (literally) breathe again. Notice if you wake up happy to be alive.
I said to someone today that I could not conceive of my life being any better than it is at this moment. I am ready to burst my seams. And so thank you to everyone in my life, seen and unseen. I can’t believe I just said that – twice today. But it’s true.
This is coming from a man who made his life’s work to complain about anything and everything that was out, in his view. A Career Complainer.
To say that my life could not be better is monumental for me.
The Arcturians said that we’d have to be masters of every thought and feeling.
But I know they didn’t mean masters of joy, bliss, and happiness. Masters of every thought and feeling that takes us further away from our purity, but not closer to. (Unless we are mastering thought itself.)
I know that they know that there are some things we’d do better to surrender to, rather than master, bliss being chief among them.
A pure individual, free of vasanas and conditioning, would, I think, reside in bliss. In bliss there’s no thought or feeling that might prove objectionable. They never occur to one. They never arise.
To traffic in those now-distant scenarios that might generate objectionableness, one would have to lose the experience of bliss. I can’t conceive of a person who would knowingly want or risk that.
All games are over once we jump into the sea of bliss. All rackets and numbers and scripts get lost forever once we fall in. And once in, we can only pray fervently to drown in it. Submerged and lost in the sea of bliss.
All is straightforward and truly wonderful. From my viewpoint, master that which doesn’t serve and surrender to that which does. Above anything else I can think of, bliss serves.
(1) He used it in a different context. The ego after Sahaja Samadhi is like a burnt rope, he might say. The conditioning, once the vasanas have been cleared, is also as insubstantial as a burnt rope. I’m not through mine yet so I can’t say what lies on the other side. My hypothesis is that purity would be gained by getting through both vasanas and conditioning.