I think it certain that, for most of us, self-importance will skyrocket after the Reval. I know I’m fairly sure that I’ll have to watch myself to see that the dragon of vanity does not mushroom.
I’m noticing in my own dealings with (Pre-Reval) money that even the feeling of having lots (because in the “real” world I don’t) results in an increase in self-importance.
It’s been fabulous to have had the experience for however long it’s been of having a respectable amount of (chickens-before-they-hatch) money. It could also prove to be a dream I’m having and I wake up … well, right here, where I am.
But if it doesn’t prove to be a dream, life will become an interminable process of dealing with mushrooming self-importance. Swelled-headedness. Vanity. Conceit.
How many of us maximize our own part in things? How many of us, when we listen to a staff report, are really only listening for a mention of our own role in the company’s success? How many of us would be delighted if it turned out we were the saviors of humanity? Oh c’mon…. Coooooooooome on…… I would.
Do I care if someone misquotes me or takes a quote out of context and says that I said I was somehow important? No, they’ll do what they’ll do. It’s really only important (there’s that word again) where I’m at with it all. And I have no illusions about my own part in things.
I watch myself on occasion getting ready to play the self-importance card. Of course it won’t work and it never has. But I keep considering it.
I also know that readers have a well-developed feel for projected self-importance. I really am only invisible to myself.
Presuming that others see this tendency in themselves, how are we going to manage after the Reval?