I’m unruffled. No wind of desire blows through me. My mind is still. My heart flows. I’m at a centerpoint and I’m just here, in the moment, bereft of past, unaware of future. I’m in a dynamic meditation. I see that I don’t need to be still for my mind to be still.
My mission is both to pursue these waves of experience and to write about them in this Ascension diary. I alternate between participant and observer.
In this instance, I drew back from simply going with the flow of ever-deepening spiritual experience and got back to reporting. Out of the participant mode and into the observer. I now return to the participant.
I’m in bliss. All issues are gone. Message in a bottle: Bliss is everything we ever wanted. I let bliss calm my heart and I become more rocklike, more grounded, more solidly here. I’m arriving in life in a way I haven’t before and I can’t quite explain what’s changed.
I feel present in a new way. And I’m allowing myself to be wafted aloft on the wings of bliss, forgetting my daily chores. I’m surrendering to the experience no matter what the cost.
I’m describing consciousness shifts. In the moment. On the fly.
I feel so deeply relaxed. Much deeper than any normal experience. It’d be like I’m 200 meters down in the ocean. The calmness, the quiet would be the same.
Two hundred meters down is nothing to scoff at. The bliss at this depth is very satisfying. One could dally here.
But I want to go as deeply as my team will allow. Even if just to visit.
I go back into meditation.
I emerge feeling what I can only describe as an exalted space. I feel the great privilege it is to be here this lifetime, with you, with our common mission to build Nova Earth.
This too is our natural state: Exaltation. Too bad that Franklin Merrell-Wolff already used the term “high indifference” (1) because it’d be perfect to describe this state. A state of deep detachment.
Exaltation is 1,000 meters down.
I must get off the keyboard and swim around the ocean. Or be still and lose myself altogether.
(1) See Franklin Merrell-Wolff, “Enlightenment: The High Indifference” at Selections from the Teachings of Franklin Merrell-Wolff, at http://goldengaiadb.com/Selections_from_the_Teachings_of_Franklin_Merrell-Wolff#Enlightenment_-_The_High_Indifference.