In my recent article, (1) I shared about my experience existing within the transformative quality of Universal Love for All. Afterwards it occurred to me that my ability to embrace and assimilate the Universal Love for All That Is which I spoke about was due to my previous experiences of Universal Love for Self.
This transcendental Love for Self is indefinable, but I’ll do my best to convey its essence, as it appears to me. In my personal experience I know this Universal Love for Self as a quality of love which allows me to see and experience myself as an inexpressible, indefinable, and infinite Child of the Divine Mother.
I experience myself as the Mother experiences me. This translates into loving myself universally, unconditionally, euphorically, delightedly, deeply, wholly, and truly.
This can also relate to experiencing myself as my Highest Self experiences me. My Highest Self is in essence my own Mother, always guiding and loving me uniquely and unconditionally.
When I assimilate my Highest Self and her many counterparts into the consciousness of my physical vessel here on Gaia, I’m experiencing myself through the lens of my Higher Selves. These ‘Selves’ vibrate at much higher dimensions and realms of awareness.
By joining these Selves together here in my physical body, I allow for the embodiment of this true and Universal Love for Self in physicality.
It is no coincidence that my realization and assimilation of this Universal Love for Self came in fullness with a job I attracted as a nanny to two beautiful children. After eight months of self-induced isolation, I knew it was the Now Moment for taking all I’d learned in my awakening and ascension process out into the physical world.
After so many months with zero responsibilities other than my inner growth and expansion I was nervous to take on a fulltime job right off the bat. When I arrived home after only the second day I broke down from the stress.
I knew there was a part of me that absolutely loved my new job, but I was not used to living an ordinary ‘mundane’ life whilst assimilating ascension energies.
It was an example of the difficult task we face as Lightworkers and Pillars of Ascension. For those of us travelling interdimensionally in and out of the ascension portals, facing the lower energies of the Third and Fourth Dimensions can prove unsettling, scary, and even painful.
The higher blissful and loving energies we experience as we travel up through the ascension portals are difficult to part with. ‘Coming back down’ into the lower Third and Fourth Dimensional paradigms can be likened to dancing, prancing, and twirling in a gentle, fluffy snow only to suddenly encounter a whipping, cutting winter wind so cruel it forces us to crumple in defeat.
However, right as I felt that familiar crumpling, a dear friend messaged me and said he had received a channeled message for me. He said there was something very important I’d learn not only about children and the world, but about myself through my new job. He said I had to keep with it, and I didn’t need telling twice – kept with it I did.
As I spent time with the children, many memories from my previous lives as a Mother began flooding my consciousness. My deep and devotional love for children opened in my High Heart and I imagine rendered an incredible explosion of Unconditional Love throughout the Universe. This love includes every being in existence as we are all Children of the Mother and Children of the Universe, regardless of species or level of development.
Wisdom and knowledge regarding the proper nurturing of children reawakened in my consciousness. I recognized in the children I nanny an inability to see themselves clearly as the incredible, wonderful, bundles of light they are. I also finally understood that as I am a child myself, the way I perceive children is the way I am perceived by the Mother!
At this epiphany, I was immediately lifted into the Heart of the Mother. I saw myself as she does. I felt like the most important, beloved, and blessed child in the entire universe. I had always known this was true, however I had never felt it in this lifetime.
I hadn’t understood it until I remembered what it was like to be a Mother to my own children. It took me feeling that motherly love for others to recognize its own existence within myself, for myself.
With this transformational realization, suddenly my thought patterns of self-doubt, self-reproach, and any negative thoughts towards ‘self’ in general dissolved. They were no longer applicable, for how could they be when I am so clearly an infinite being of light and love.
All I do and have ever done is in service to the Mother and the Planetary Consciousness of Gaia, and to my own Higher Self. This is something we all know and do even if unconsciously.
The choices we make have always been made in service to gaining a broader understanding of the Universe. They’ve also been made so that we may assist in every way possible the ascension of our planet and the Universe as One.
Many times these decisions in 3D/4D terms are viewed as ‘mistakes’, when from a higher realm of understanding they are exactly in line with our individual and collective destiny.
Through Love for Self, I’ve recognized how those experiences have made it possible for me to assume my highest potential in physicality. When that is understood, there is no room anymore for energy spent towards critical and negative thoughts towards self.
Mistakes aren’t mistakes but learning experiences – that is how children grow, and so that is how we grow.
When I assimilated this Love for Self, my reality exploded in bliss! I was so happy to just be me, I couldn’t stop smiling, skipping, and singing through my days. It was a celebration in every moment. The infinitely layered depth of Love for Self makes it difficult to grasp in words the Joy I felt, and still feel.
This is a Joy which is available for all of us to experience and embody. It empowers us, it lifts us, and it unites us.
As we know, our inner reality reflects our outer reality. When we welcome this infinite Love for Self and embody it inwardly with our thoughts, it directly reflects into our physical reality. From that point on the Love of the Creator is always evident and abundant. It is a grand step in becoming the great Master Creators we ourselves are.
This Love for Self is like water to a seed. When we pour this love as water into our souls, it feeds growth and expansion that vines out into the world. As we ground this love in our Hearts, every outbreath nourishes the collective with this love so they too may grow and expand endlessly.
I offer my experiences to All in Love. I’d like to emphasize that these are my interpretations of Love for Self through my uniquely-designed experiences. We may all come to our own understandings and unique perspectives about these universal expressions, and that is the great fun of it all! Be conscious not to limit your own understanding and expression of Love for Self by what I or others may say of it.
It is your own to play with!
In Love and Gratitude,
Caitlyn Olivia Eckhardt
(1) Caitlyn Olivia Eckhart, “From Flat Tires to Universal Love,” Oct. 30, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/10/30/from-flat-tires-to-universal-love/.