Gosh, have I ever gotten a lot of email from folks with mixed feelings about what I said earlier about going back to work.
So I need to acknowledge a few things. First of all, I do get that most of you are working and why shouldn’t I?
I also get that for many it’s a dismaying experience. Poor wages, long hours, more than one job, no security after 65. Again why should I not experience and share that dismay?
If you look at the archives of the blog, you’ll see that I was writing six years ago on how this situation arose, how the cabal labored to turn wage earners into wage slaves. (1) So I do understand your predicament.
I’m not trying to make light of your need to work or the contribution you make to your workplace, to your family, etc. Far from it. I honor it.
I too made that contribution till age 65 and I’m still contributing, as a volunteer (with your donations making up the difference between my half-pension and the cost of living). And I don’t begrudge any of it. I love the life I lead, as hardscrabble as it’s been since retirement.
It isn’t that I mourn going back to work. I actually look forward to it. Doing dishes, throwing water all over the place, has been a delightful interlude between real (well-paying) jobs for me.
When I was sitting on the adjudication bench, I used to chuckle to myself that the law, in all its majesty, was being interpreted by a former dishwasher. (Please don’t write me and tell me I’m being discriminatory. Laughing is sometimes a good thing. I need to make a joke now and then and not take life so seriously.)
I’d be delighted to be doing it, if I didn’t have lightworkers and the blog to consider.
Let me put it this way. Writing in this manner takes work, practice, study, etc.
It’s taken me six years of constant writing to reach a place where I feel comfortable telling you (the whole wide world) the intimate details about my own journey. I tell you about my journey because that’s what Archangel Michael requested of me. (2)
Go through Ascension consciously and write about it, he says. Share your experiences – successes and failures, warts and all. Make it all public. Show people that they don’t need to be afraid to share their experiences. Help reverse this trend towards reticence, self-consciousness and fear.
It’s this degree of expansion that’s at risk. And that’s what I mourn, not going back to work. Heavens, work would be a break from the amount of stress entailed in doing what I do (or what the other editors or radio hosts do).
Awareness varies inversely with muscular tension in the body. As tension goes up, awareness goes down. As tension goes down, awareness goes up, which is one reason why our mentors tell us to relax, remain calm, stay in the center, etc.
Worst of all, as awareness goes down, well … awareness goes down. We’re seldom aware of how much awareness we’ve lost, until we regain it and marvel at where we were. So I won’t even be aware of how much awareness I’ve lost.
The only signal will be that my writing has degraded. And if it reaches a certain point, I won’t regard it as representing me and I won’t post further. What artist would?
So please don’t hear me as being disrespectful to you. I’m simply going to miss playing this role if it has to stop. Once there was a Camelot…. It’s like that for me.
(1) See the articles under “New World Order,” “Automation” and “The Financial Crash” in “Accountability” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/accountability/.
(2) “When we have told you [your mission] eons ago, you said, ‘Yes, I think I would like that. I think I will go forward and do that. I think I will help human beings reach a new level of awareness.
“‘I think I will expand their awareness of Ascension and what it means to be in the fullness of their being. I think I will act as a go-between with the star brothers and sisters.’ This is your mission – to develop the platform for the discussion and for the sharing of accurate information in these matters.” (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, July 16, 2013.) [Hereafter AAM.]
“What you are doing, dear heart, is modelling and demonstrating in a very clear and practical way the spiritual awareness, the emotional maturity of the human collective to shift and to move, not only into the higher realms but into the phase of creating Nova Earth.” (AAM, Dec. 11, 2013.)
“You are focusing on helping others understand their spiritual journey.” (AAM, April 25, 2013.)
“You are doing the biggest thing that not only I but the Universal Mother, the sacred being that we both serve, wishes you to do, and that is to write, to communicate. And in the writing is infused the anchoring and the bringing of peace to the planet, the creation of Nova Gaia. …
“Yes, in many ways you are a gatherer and a harvester of information. You put pieces together that people have not perhaps made the linkages between.
“You give them in plain speaking, albeit elaborate at times, ways to understand not only what you are saying but their own journey, their own process and their own moving forward.
“This is first and foremost.” (AAM, Feb. 7, 2013.)
“The more public you are, the more vulnerable you are. … Accept that you are vulnerable.” (AAM, Nov. 19 2013.)