Vesuvius was yesterday. It’s Mount Aetna today.
The core issues continue to erupt. I can see why Morgana Morgaine would call it “the time of the fallaways.” (1)
Let me illustrate.
I was sleeping yesterday when suddenly I was gripped by an icey fear.
I had a glimpse of the kinds of things that could go wrong in a role I’ll be playing later. I asked myself did I really want to be taking on such a thing?
That’s the first time I’ve ever felt fear in regard to my mission. Again I see this as raising a core issue.
The possibilities for screwing up increase the wider the range of responsibilities gets. It’s one thing to say I have the courage to do a task but one also needs the knowledge to match and many of us have little or no training for the roles we’ll play.
The other thing I’m noticing is how lonely it gets the farther into public service one goes. The need for being circumspect and choosing one’s words carefully increases. Jokes that would have been funny in past times are now something to be avoided. Ordinary conversations are more difficult, often seemingly impossible.
I now appreciate the serious expression on some public figures’ faces. Taking on public service comes with a cost.
Earlier in the day I had two core issues erupt – one when I discovered a large error in my Reval finances and another later when I “lost” my laptop computer (I later found it at Costco). The information on my laptop is such that I cannot be losing it and I called on every archangel in the universe to grab it wherever it was. Perhaps they did because it got to Costco’s staff.
Later I cried from pure stress. I looked in the mirror and I now had a stress rash on my face. If you asked Archangel Michael, he’d say, “Steve, you asked for it.” And I did. (2)
Pretty well every day sees the eruption of some fresh volcano. I no longer plan ahead. I’ve quarantined myself! It isn’t only Groundhog Day. It’s more The Day the Earth Stood Still plus Groundhog Day.
Perhaps Mount Pele next. Can’t wait for Krakatoa!
I have no idea what life looks like on the other side of freedom from all core issues.
But it looks like we’re all gonna find out.
What relevance has this clearing to building Nova Earth? Well, there’s nothing unworkable, nothing harmful, nothing dense that will go with us into the higher realms. Moreover, there’s nothing hid that shall not be known.
This is the process of shedding that old skin, moulting the unworkable. One way or the other, our grip will be pried.
My job is to go through it publicly but I doubt very much that anyone else will escape the process if they’re clinging to old unworkable ways of being. Even if they don’t share a thing about their process.
I say “clinging” advisedly because, when I saw I’d become my father, I also saw myself, in a momentary flash, clinging to his ways. Those ways were familiar and they seemed to work. They seemed to promise results.
In fact they didn’t work but I was convinced they did and so a small part of myself was holding on to them – literally, championing them – and so they lingered.
Not this time. When I saw that part of me clinging to those ways, I took out my garden shears and cut all attachments. Round and round I went until not a clinging vine remained. This time it utterly had to go.
I asked Father/Mother God to accept delivery of these unworkable ways. I surrounded myself with a bonfire of violet flame and settled back into it.
But that was just Vesuvius. The whole ring of violet fire is erupting. Nothing unworkable will survive. I hope. But the landscape will certainly be different.
Starting this week, I’ll be taking Monday and Tuesday off on a regular basis.
(1) “Morgana Morgaine: It’s the ‘Time of the Fall-Aways’, Have You Noticed?,” March 5, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/05/morgana-morgaine-its-the-time-of-the-fall-aways-have-you-noticed/.
(2) Steve: You said you’d be bringing up everything; all my core issues, and not to resist it. WOW! This month was core issues par excellence.
Archangel Michael: You asked!
SB: Please do not hear it as a complaint! I’m actually amazed. Is that period finished? Have we more to go? How are we doing?
AAM: There is a little further to go but you are well underway. (Archangel Michael in personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Feb. 20, 2015.)