The process of purification hasn’t let up for a moment for me. I’m very much engaged with it these days.
Whereas before I may have viewed it as an interruption or something to be endured, now I’m having fun with it and bringing it into the realm of experimentation, as I’d like to discuss.
I speculate that a certain proportion of lightworkers may have completed their ordinary, everyday vasanas, core issues and false grids.
Another proportion may be aware of these obstacles but may not have completed them for various reasons (parenting while holding down jobs, working two jobs, a partner who doesn’t share our vision, other pressing and sometimes de-pressing matters and obligations).
Many more may not be aware of these barriers, but will have been impacted by the Tsunami of Love and other sources of light coming to us, to their benefit.
Our vasanas will lift after Ascension anyways but us clearing now certainly helps to position us for success in building Nova Earth. And, I think, it contributes to the awakening of the collective consciousness to Ascension.
I said “everyday, ordinary vasanas” because a new set of vasanas will likely arise with the advent of the Reval; another with Disclosure; another with government change; etc.
For those who’ve completed their everyday vasanas, etc., what might be next? Where can a lightworker go now who’s conscious of not only clearing for him or herself but for the collective?
I’ve always considered my life to be a workshop and I’m constantly running experiments. Perhaps let a consideration of experimentation be next.
Here are four that I’ve run or am running at the moment: alchemical transmutation, imagining enlightenment, overarching vision, and asking for what I want.
You may wish to try these experiments: that’s an OK response. Or you may wish to begin leading your life as a workshop, as an experimental laboratory: now that is exciting. Fish for a day vs. learning how to fish – that kind of thing? I’d so like to expand my circle of partners in this way of living.
So hear these experiments not as something to be judged “good” or “bad,” but as the suggested direction of experimentation itself, whatever your experiments may look like – or mine.
I’ve been troubled all my life by feelings that feel good to me but are problematic to others. To imagine what that may be like, imagine a construction site full of male workers, whistling at a woman as she walks by. The workers are enjoying themselves; the woman may or may not be enjoying herself but their behavior could become problematic.
It’s enjoyable for the doer; not necessarily enjoyable for the object of their doing.
I used to ask myself the question night and day: why is it so hard to do the right thing?
And the answer for me is that the wrong thing often feels so darn good. Arrogance feels good to me. One-upmanship, being in with the in-crowd, wearing fine new duds, all that felt good to me. Why lie about it?
Vanity, lust, greed. The “seven deadly sins” all feel good at the time.
I agree with Andrea that, if it feels wrong, it probably is wrong, but initially, prior to acting on these feelings, the problem is that they feel good.
They bring awful results. People shy away from us. The voice of conscience won’t leave us alone. Then they don’t feel so good. They begin to feel wrong, but not at the outset.
These are not socially- or spiritually-sanctioned states of being and so, at last, we agree to let them go. We generally conceive of this as “growing up.”
And society rewards us by calling us “mature.” Movie stars go into rehab and get a fresh burst of publicity but we just change our ways without much fanfare.
When I’m gripped by these feelings, so pleasurable are they that it’s hard not to act on them. Gurdieff once said that “his quest for enlightenment definitely would have been derailed if there had been a second obstacle as big as sex” (i.e., lust). (2)
Sri Ramakrishna used to say that the two obstacles to spiritual success were lust and gold. Most spiritual leaders fall because of something related to sex. So it isn’t as if spiritual people escape these pitfalls.
Giving in to them sets us up to lead a double life – the part we talk about and the part we don’t. I’d much rather not lead a double life and in some respects I know I have to, because of my role in things. (1) But no more than is necessary please.
I set out to answer all questions that arise, so my next question was: Why do I need to let go of something that feels so good?
I’ve answered that question for myself. There are many answers really. We’ve been asked to model a higher-dimensional way of life. Lightworkers are asked to bring out the divine male and the divine female in themselves. Any lightworkers who take a public role have to be squeaky clean so that they don’t bring the Ascension effort into disrepute.
I could think of several more reasons. So that part by now was not still in question.
Now the question became: What do I do with these feelings when they arise? Lust feels great. Arrogance is quite enjoyable. How, without stuffing them down, am I going to escape from them once and for all?
I experimented and experimented. And I finally discovered something.
I engaged in an imaginative exercise in which I breathed the unworkable feelings into my heart. And I imagined that they were directed to pass through the violet flame that was located there. When they emerged, they were alchemically transmuted into impartial, impersonal and universal love. This I breathed out into the collective consciousness.
It worked. The unwanted feelings disappeared.
I tried it again and again and it worked again and again. I haven’t been big, as you know, on either imagination or the dualistic side of spirituality. I’m a mixed non-dualist/growth movement guy. Operationally, that means I want to go straight to the heart of the matter and I want to do it by going inwards into the heart of this being over here.
But this very dualistic exercise of sending the unworkable feelings through the violet flame in the heart actually worked.
And what followed was that I felt a terrific amount of love in my personal field of awareness and no observable obstacles for my feelings to get around, to flow.
That was the first new way of being I tried.
The very next day I read these words from Mary Magdalene and knew that this was in effect what had occurred: “Love can be used to dissolve every negative aspect of yourself .” (3)
My follow-on experiment here will be to channel all my feelings through the violet flame in the heart. Whatever survives the violet flame must be true and permanent; whatever is transmuted must be false and illusory.
(Continued tomorrow in Part 2.)
(1) I can be privy to explanations of things that the Company of Heaven does not want made public. Certain strategies they’ll adopt at the right moment is an example. Even though I refused to join a white-hat/Earth ally group in 2009 because I didn’t want to be a secret-sharer, there’s no escaping it in my present role as a communicator.
(2) Paraphrased in Deborah Anapol, “When is Sex Spiritual?” Psychology Today, Nov. 24, 2014, at https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/love-without-limits/201411/when-is-sex-spiritual. Probably from Meetings with remarkable Men.
(3) “Mary Magdalene: You Are Pure Divine Love,” channeled by Fran Zepeda, February 1, 2015, at https://franheal.wordpress.com/2015/02/01/mary-magdalene-you-are-pure-divine-love-channeled-by-fran-zepeda/.