I asked Victoria to share her views after we corresponded. I note the similarity between what she says here and what I was saying yesterday in “Not Walking on Water Yet.” (1) (Neither had she read my article nor had I read hers.)
I hope she continues sending articles in.
Things Are Changing
by Victoria Markham
My first reaction to Steve’s Nov. 3 post called “Creating the Hub: The Time Has Come” (2) was to feel pessimistic. I’ve longed for more of a sense of unity among lightworkers in the city I where I live. But I see us all divided, sometimes by not having quite the same ideology or jargon as each other; sometimes by personalities not getting along, by long-time lightworkers not relating very well to starry-eyed newcomers, by needing to make a living and so being in competition with each other for offering our services.
Sometimes it’s by simply feeling jaded after sitting through so many groups over the years. I think I lost my enthusiasm after looking for community for so long. And here was Steve, all enthusiastic after coming off of his journey meeting lightworkers on the West Coast!
I wrote him an email letting him know that we didn’t lack for lightworker groups where I lived; we were lacking in unity. Each person thinking they had the “right” path, and preoccupied with their own particular group. Many groups being close in ideology, but somehow not close enough.
Everyone seemed to be starting new groups to try to deal with their dissatisfaction with other people’s groups! And I had no answers to this dilemma myself, being one of those same people offering my services, starting my own groups, etc.
The day before I wrote the email to Steve, I found myself dealing with a situation where someone had misunderstood me and I was wondering why. I asked my guides for an answer.
I listened and got the impression that it was because of my “bigness.” I’ve always had “big” energy and been afraid of people reacting to it, so I’d try to hide it. But because of my being ashamed of it in this way, they’d react to it.
I was shown that my “bigness” now is different because I’d learned to love myself and was no longer ashamed of myself. Now I could trust that my “bigness” actually lets out the Big Love in my heart. It’s warm and exuberant, and people like it because I’m no longer ashamed of it.
The next morning – Nov 4 – I read Lissa Rankin’s “7 Tips for Finding Your Tribe,” in GAoG. I want to credit her with asking me to look at the blind spots in my life, which helped me to see my own jadedness.
After reading her article, I pulled three Tarot cards, asking to see my blind spots: which were, 1. not following my own happiness, 2. being stuck in the old weary pattern of constant releasing and not seeing that it might actually be over, I was not seeing that Renewal was right under my nose! And 3, therefore not allowing passion and enthusiasm into my life.
That night I put two and two together – my blind spots and my new “bigness.” And I saw a completely different view of the whole picture. I suddenly sensed that things had changed, that I had changed! And if I had changed I knew others had also.
I saw this new sense of “bigness” as me having expanded past my old boundaries. I knew that if I walked out the door in my “bigness” I would meet the people I needed to meet. I no longer felt jaded, isolated, or weary. I felt enthusiastic and hopeful.
Then I saw Aisha North’s post the next day – Nov. 5 – in which she described exactly what I had just realized. I will quote pieces of what she said:
“Many of you have already become quite adept at floating in these very new waters, and with this proficiency also comes a confidence that will help not just you, but so many in your vicinity as well….
“Everything you do will be imbued with this very New energy. And so, no matter where you are or what you do, you will continue to bring this New energy out into your world in every way and in every day, with the very presence of your being and with the very pulse of your beating heart….
“For as you stepped across that threshold that separates the New World from the old, you stepped away from any and all inhibitions that still clung to your frame in your previous lives, and as such, you are totally NEW in every sense of the word that you can think of, and then some. And with this newness comes a whole new way of BEing, a way of truly living from the heart, enabling this New energy to flow forth freely….
“So again we say go forth with your head held high and your heart wide open, and know that as you do just that, love will flow out in all directions….
“Your light is all-important in the time ahead, so do not make the mistake of trying to hide it away. For now, it is time for you ALL to stand tall and proud, so that your fearless light can be seen from every direction. …
“Also know that you can no longer hide your light from anyone around you.” (3)
I was moved to write Steve a new email sharing my new perspective and he invited me to share it with you. I’m guessing some of you are experiencing your new expanded Self as well.
I only needed to turn to look at it from a different perspective to see that Renewal is here, Now. I’m not waiting for it anymore. I can walk out the door now with new enthusiasm, the kind I used to have when I first started this journey.
Dr. Victoria Markham is a coach, consultant and teacher living in Charleston, SC.
(3) “The Constant Companions via Aisha North: A Short Update on the Energies – November 5, 2014” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/11/06/the-constant-companions-via-aisha-north-a-short-update-on-the-energies-november-5-2014/.