Hello dear readers,
Many other expressions of my Self have been speaking through my Sue Lie Self. However, recently I have been feeling a need to speak through the very human I just wrote about releasing. I will call these messages “Checking In” because the best way for me to check in with my Self is to write and share. Also, I feel a need to share my experience because I know that many of you are having similar experiences and may want to share them in the comments section.
It is important that we “come out” as our true Self, at least with the people who can take it. I have found that my inner Self lets me know if someone is a person who can handle that information. I am so happy that I took the Arcturians’ advice long ago to start a website. Because of that I can hear from people all over the world, as I am not hearing from people in my area.
You may think that “Beach Town California” would be a place where we can fully “come out.” However most people have learned to keep it to themselves or be judged. Hence, I offer this safe place for others, and myself, to talk about how the higher Light is messing with, and improving, our lives.
I will start by saying that this October has been, well it has been – WOW! So much was happening SO fast that I could not even stop to process it until now on November 4. Personally, I have too many up close and personal meetings with far too many expressions of my, what should I call them? Should I say my wounded ego, my dark side or my lower consciousness?
I think that the best and least self-judgmental way to name it is “my 3D coping mechanisms.” These coping mechanisms of impatience, overworking, worry, and the need to hide out came mostly from learning that if I wanted anything I would have to work hard and long to get it.
For one thing, it was a truth for much of my life, especially since I am a woman born in 1946. Women were the power behind husband, boss, family, men etc. Therefore, we had to work harder and do more. However, now, with the energies being this intense and this fast, working harder is much like running in deep mud. Before, our success was based on what we did more than who we were. Also, we had to force our reality into existence by our will-power and long striving.
NOW our reality can no longer be forced in any manner. For one thing, the process of our transmutation is so very exhausting that we can no longer force ourself to do or feel anything. If and when we try to do so, we are overwhelmed by intense exhaustion, dizziness, loss of short-term memory, blinking out of time, and feeling the demands of our transmuting body.
No longer can we skip sleep, eat poorly or have NO time to exercise, stretch, meditate or be creative. In fact, time is constantly being revealed as an illusion. If we are doing a 3D endeavor that we don’t want to do, we become totally exhausted, confused, impatient and even angry.
I can actually FEEL my left-brain hurting from the effort of thinking in a totally third dimensional manner. On the other hand, when I am doing something I enjoy – writing, art, listening to music, yoga – I can feel movement in my core. This movement feels good, like fresh air inside of me. However, when I don’t have “time” to do these things, I feel nervous, anxious, angry or depressed.
Time is now totally relative. While my Multidimensional mind is being stimulated, time is like a bird flying across a panorama of myriad possible realities. I can hold many thoughts at once, and they all intertwine with each other. However, while doing mundane 3D responsibilities, time is like a ball and chain that drags behind me making everything seem more difficult.
Also, writing about Mytre and Mytria, Sandy and Jason, the Arcturian and now Mytrian, I am having more experiences of my various versions of Self. There is a team that lives inside of me, and each member of that team represents a different frequency of my Self. However, the moment I get lost in ego, 3D thinking and my myriad coping mechanisms for physical life, Sue Lie is the only survivor.
And BOY, can she “work hard.” And what a wonderful martyr she can be that she works sooooo hard. Then the victim kicks in and she/I feel sorry for myself. Of course, fatigue, sorrow, confusion and depression kick in then. They did a lot of kicking in this month, but were countered with some REALLY amazing meditations, creative ideas, wonderful moments etc. etc.
Yes, Ascension is a ride on a roller coaster. You go up into the Sun, get your wings too hot, then fall down to Earth and crash. We ARE the Phoenix Bird individually and collectively. In case the term is new to you, there is a Phoenix Bird for every era. This grand expression of our Self flies high and oversees our life from a higher perspective.
Then, as the era comes to an end, that Phoenix Bird must surrender itself to the Great Mother so that another may be the overseer of life. It is at this point that the Phoenix nosedives down into the Earth and crashes into Gaia in a blaze of Light. For a while, there is only ashes of that which is over.
Then, slowly and carefully, our small beak peaks up through the ashes to begin the long, challenging process of re-birth. This is where we are now. The fire is over. Many of the ashes have been blown away by the winds of change, and we are peaking out through the remaining ashes of what is now ending to find that which is beginning.
However, this cycle is very special, for what is ending is time and what is beginning is the NOW. We are emerging into a world in which everything that we have known as real is being exposed as an illusion. Also, everything that we have known as impossible is being revealed as the Truth. We are no longer where or who we have been for myriad incarnations, but we are not yet where or who we are becoming.
If that is not enough, with the closing of time we are discovering that we have always been who we are becoming. So why are we having such difficulty with our transition? If we deny our difficulty we are denying our own inner truth. However, can we accept our inner conflict without judging ourself? Can we accept our transition without judging others?
One of the main concerns about being a Phoenix Bird is that we must first and foremost respond to our inner call. Since we perceive reality from a higher perspective we can see how the matrix is unraveling while most of the population is still deeply entrenched in the third-dimensional illusion. Hence, we must “go where no ONE has gone before,” with only our inner Self and a few trusted comrades to assist us.
The Arcturians have been telling me that we, the awakened humans, are the Portal Openers. We open our portals by using our physical bodies as step-down transformers. Hence, we are NOW accepting the higher frequencies of Light in through our pineal gland and pulling it down through our chakras. In each chakra we transmute our bodies via each nerve plexus, endocrine gland and primary organ to share a grounded version of this Light with Gaia.
Hence, as we “crash” into the Mother, we surrender our shell to be transmuted by the sum total of the energies that Gaia has been collecting in Her core from all the other open portals. Once we realize that we are NOT having a problem and that we ARE portals into the NOW, we can better relax into our process. Then we can relax into the ever increasing knowing within our core.
Now that I have shared the challenges, I would like to also share that there is a new me, a higher resonance, an inner sweetness that comes when I relax enough to surrender into the NOW. It is easy for us to complain about that which is completing, but it takes a special courage to share that which is developing.
Blessings to us all,