A vasana is a complex of beliefs, feelings, decisions, and other memory-based reactions anchored to a distant traumatic incident which go off like a volcano when triggered in the present.
I’m not sure I can do as good a job as she but then I’m able to type and she’s hovering near the ceiling in joy. So I do have her permission to talk about it.
The nub of it is to let go of the attachment to the message at the heart of the vasana. That way of being is what she discovered.
In her case, her parents, she believes, were disappointed that she was not born a boy. Her mother would say to her: “It’s easier for a boy.” Many women I’ve talked to recently in passing conversations, reveal a wariness of travel because they could get sexually assaulted. Men traditionally have less fear of that. It’s easier for a boy to travel.
It’s also deemed to be better for the parents because a boy is seen as a better provider. Life is easier if your child is a boy.
And men have fewer travails they have to attend to because of biological make-up (how’s that for stating the matter delicately?). On and on go the advantages, in some people’s minds, of being born a boy.
In her relationship with her ex-husband, she was constantly a disappointment, never measured up, was never good enough. And she believes she attracted a man of that persuasion because of the vasana she was anchored to.
Recently, while we were at Joshua Tree, she disappeared for around 12 hours and now I discover it was because she was wrestling with her vasana. She cried so hard that her jaws were clenched and her eyes were shut tight.
But, in the end, she discovered what made her vasana so toxic was that she was attached to it.
It was an anchor weighing her down. She would not give up her hold on being a disappointment, as strange as that may sound.
Having read the article before I posted it, she notes: “So true ~ attachment to a vasana that I didn’t even know was playing. It was too ‘hard/painful’ to look at. I didn’t want to look at it. I didn’t think I was ‘good enough’ to even try to find it! WOW!”
The vasana explained things. It showed her her role in life. It defined how she was expected to be – either not a disappointment or, if things failed, then a proper disappointment. She knew what to avoid, even if she didn’t necessarily know what to do.
She retraced her recent life and saw how some of the decisions that she now regards as unwise arose because she was attached to certain outcomes. She saw that once she attached to an outcome, there was no stopping her. (She was not going to disappoint!)
Along with that (since she’s psychic) was a message she received from the Divine Mother that said, “Child, you can never disappoint us because we never judge.” That message was the icing on the cake and freed her up.
So she now sees that letting go of attachments is yet another way to release a vasana. And, she says, releasing the vasana or limiting belief is what enables one to reach the higher vibrations.
Well, I can vouch for that. When doing New Maps of Heaven, I sometimes came across passages in which higher-dimensional spirits took lower-dimensional beings for a brief visit to the higher dimension by putting a cloak over them or lending them energy.
When the support wore off, they had to leave. And they had to leave because their belief system constricted them and did not allow them to stay in the higher dimension.
I also recall an incident recently in which I saw the value of non-attachment. I may not be able to go into it in detail. But I had an abrupt change of plans with regard to another person and simply let the matter in question go; then there was a second abrupt change in plans in which the situation totally reversed (the shoe was on the other foot) and the other person went through the roof. It enabled me to see for myself the value of non-attachment.
So I definitely knew what my colleague is talking about.
So to being with the vasana until it completes itself and handing it over to the Divine Mother, we can add a third way of handling the vasana: let go of the attachment that lies at the heart of it.
Notice that all three ways embody the divine qualities: the first, being aware and accepting; the second, surrender to God; and the third, non-attachment. Why are they divine? Well, God is total awareness; God accepts everything; God is surrendered to his devotees; and God is not attached to anything.
OK, I’ve done my job. I suggested my colleague write up her experience but she’s a bit busy playing her harp and wafting about on clouds so I hope I’ve done an adequate job of conveying what she wanted to say.
Yes, attachment is a killer. The energies we’re steeping in now, I think, are relieving us of the strength of our attachments and allowing us to be far more comfortable if something happens or if it doesn’t.
As Werner Erhard used to say, be OK if something happens and OK if it doesn’t. Even-mindedness, equanimity, detachment from every outcome but loving and knowing God.