Something fell away from me that had been with me, oh, for ninety percent of my life perhaps.
The tendency to see others through a sexual filter just dropped away.
It happened when I was in Starbucks having coffee. I looked up, saw the woman in the photograph, and commented to myself how angelic she looked.
In that moment, the whole screen of what I had been looking through for all this time just dropped away. I surreptitiously snapped a picture to have a record of the event.
I’m left feeling I owe a lot to a person I never met. Given that she was reading a book in Japanese, we may not even speak the same language.
After the filter dropped away, I was left with such a feeling of peace and love for everyone. I spent the next half hour just looking at faces and marvelling at how beautiful everyone looked.
Gone was the perennial preoccupation. In its place, love rushed in.
Gurdjeff once said that he would never have made it if there was a second contrarium like sexuality. I now see what he meant and agree with him.
What more needs to be said? I am in bliss.
It gets harder and harder to share. But what there is to share just gets more and more important.