I know a lot of you are dealing with vasanas and transferences because your emails are being forwarded to me (two people read and forward them). (2) And some of what you’re dealing with is very heavy and complicated. The fireworks seem to be going off as if it were the Fourth of July.
Meanwhile the transference that I’m dealing with grows as well, entering now into my dreams, and encompassing more and more of my former life’s details, which I’ll get to in a minute.
I did want to repeat what I said to the reader who’s being swept up in Holocaust memories. She asked if it will ever end and where she can go or what she can do to help her get to the bottom of it.
The very best service I’ve come across for sourcing really deep and all-affecting memories such as those from the Holocaust is enlightenment intensives – particularly a seven-day intensive. Google “enlightenment intensives” and see if one is being held near you. Unfortunately they do cost.
Other useful techniques to get at persistent and deep memories such as these include bioenergetics, rebirthing, and body work. But they too cost.
I’ve mentioned on occasion watching a woman source her vasanas from having been ritually and sadistically raped by her parents (I know that sounds about as black as anything one might think to encounter). I was with her in at least five EIs and she went through the same memories every time.
Admittedly she emerged in a transformed state each time as well, but she still had to confront the same memories the next time. So don’t expect deep vasanas to lift the first time you work through them.
We know from Svali’s discussions of the Illuminati (3) that situations such as I just described do happen. I’d imagine there are many people who’ve been affected by dark situations which may not even be within their conscious recall.
In my own case, what started out as a simple transference of my mother onto another person has become a situation that’s drawing in many strands of my early life and requiring me to understand things my father did and forgive him.
In fact I’m being placed in a situation that’s similar to the most troublesome series of events in my life, only I’m now finding myself standing in my father’s role. Not standing in it actually, but mentally. Fortunately I saw the transference soon enough to vacate the place before … well, before now, let’s say, where it’s becoming much, much bigger every day.
I’m going to repeat in the footnotes what Archangel Michael said about lightworkers being used to illustrate clearing. (4)
I think this is happening to force me into understanding what happened back then and deal with it.
In later life, I took care of my father for a year, when he was around 90 years of age. One night we were sitting on the balcony of his apartment and I asked him why he was so hard on me as a child. And he replied: “I don’t know, Steve. I guess you just looked like your mother.” (And I did.)
So because I looked like my mother, I suffered for all those years. Not much compensation knowing the reason.
But what I’ve been coming to see is that, in the case of transference that I’m creating in the present day, the other person also “looks like” my mother. But “looks like” not in a physical way. I saw on the bus the other day that they have certain traits in common – behavior, smile, walk, etc. And because this person resembles my mother, I’m transferring.
Again no joy in seeing this. But seeing it is forcing the issue with my mother and my father.
And it cautions me to be very circumspect here having seen what my father did with his transference.
So now what began as a simple transference with my mother is drawing in my father and I say this just to have you see how this works. The whole spider’s web is coming in to my awareness.
And again there isn’t much I can do with the process but allow it to happen. To try to force it or channel it in any way, aside from working with a third person on it, will simply drive it underground and perpetuate it.
A colleague emailed me this morning and is about to enter into a situation that’s connected to her major vasanas. She asked for any comments. I’m not a therapist so I have to watch myself. But my comment was to remain open to the feelings that arise in her and simply allow them to play upon her for the time they need to and then to let them pass.
Don’t try to shape them, direct them, or resist them by displacing them with another feeling like “love.” I say “love” because I’m referring to something we deliberately place in our field of experience, not something that naturally arises. Anything we manufacture, so to speak, is or soon will be part of our persona or constructed self. We may think what we experience is “love” but it’s equally as likely not to be or to be only a pale reflection of natural love.
I suggest that we want to exit our persona, not further embellish it or add fresh layers to it. But again that is me speaking and not the sound advice of a professional.
People seem to be encountering their vasanas and transferences all over the place right now. Remember that there is a whole literature on the subject here. (5)
(1) “High Council of Orion via Karen Doonan: Meditation for Release,” May 11, 2013, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/05/high-council-of-orion-via-karen-doonan-meditation-for-release/
(2) I read all your email but I cannot answer it all. And if I do answer you, perhaps please don’t respond by starting an ongoing conversation. I’m afraid I cannot add to the workload any longer.
(4) Steve Beckow: Am I being used, so to speak, to illustrate the need for lightworker clearing?
Archangel Michael: Yes. Very.
SB: Can you say a little more about that for my own comfort. And also for the readers of the blog. They need to know that lightworkers are often being used for this purpose.
AAM: But they are being used and that is part of the soul agreement. That is part of being the activators, the human activators for the growth and the ascension particularly now that you have decided to ascend as one together.
So if you do not have human activation, if you do not have the clearing coming forth that is necessary for the anchoring in physicality of the higher realm and vibration, then you do not make the transition as smoothly or as effectively or as rapidly as all of you are wanting.
So yes you are acting as catalysts, not only to each other, but especially to each other, but you are also doing it for others as well. What you would think of as the main stream.
SB: We know about being catalysts and we know about clearing for the collective. But to actually be used as a model, an example, an instance, to have some piece of our history or whatever reactivated so that people can see somebody going through this, is that also part of this?
AAM: Yes it is.
SB: There are other lightworkers out there who will say, “Oh my God,” is there anything you want to say to other lightworkers about this?
AAM: What I am saying is, is that this is part of the service work you have volunteered for. This is part of your expression of love for the Mother. Do not be surprised, my dear friends,π if things that you thought were ancient history are being revisited and they are coming up again for that activation and that clearing.
SB: So we shouldn’t be ashamed of sharing about it?
AAM: There is no room for shame. That is outmoded. We want you, all of you, to get to the point where you can laugh about clearing and say – here we go again so that it is smooth as running water. Because that is what it is – it is running Light.
(5) “On Processing Vasanas,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/on-processing-vasanas/