I feel so much fire in my belly at this moment. And hearing from Linda Steiner today (1) was exactly what I needed to get me up off my backside and speak out in a way I hope everyone speaks out.
But if I’m the only one saying this, then I am. I cannot play small any longer. I need to roar if roaring is what’s needed.
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There are things that rise in me to be said and I can say them or die.
Violence against women and children is over for me in my world and it’s over for me because I say so. If I die to protect the next woman or child I see being abused, then I die. But I will not stand by and watch an instance of it.
Violence against people perpetrated against them by their government as with 9/11 and the London Bombings or connived in as with the Boston Bombings is over for me in my world and it’s over for me because I say so.
It’s not OK with me that women are treated inequitably in every system up till now run by men and it’s not OK with me because I say so.
It’s not OK with me that men throw acid in the face of women. It’s not OK with me that families shoot their daughters for choosing the man they want to marry. It’s not OK that men, if they cannot blackmail more money from their new wives’ families, pour kerosene on their brides and kill them. And it’s not OK with me by my say-so.
It’s not OK with me that my world does not work – that nations are bled dry by financiers, that oil cartels bleed the people dry, that agricompanies and chemical companies engineer tragedies for their profit. And it’s not OK for me by my say-so.
It’s not OK that medical care is not provided to all who need it, whether or not they can pay for it. It’s not OK that food and shelter are denied the poor, or transit, or electricity.
Never mind charity. It’s not OK that a society that calls itself one does not provide for the aged and the sick, the disabled and the young. In what way are they a society? And it’s not OK by my say-so.
On my say-so and by my say-so, I call out all who engage in corruption and cruelty and harm for their private gain or for any reason. On my say-so and by my say-so, I state here and now that a corrupt police force, a venal military, a corrupt regime has lost its right to serve the people. It’s not OK with me that such a situation last another day.
You assassins, hybrid supersoldiers, and men in black that murdered to keep the truth from being known, my name is Steve Beckow and you know where to find me. It’s not OK with me that you continue your work and it’s not OK with me by my say-so.
You have been called. And I will call you out again on my say-so.
By my say-so as a sovereign citizen of Planet Earth, I will not tolerate these conditions in my world another day. I will not brook whatever it is that exists in me that has me remain silent another day on matters such as these.
Some of you will say, oh, this is too much for me. Oh, are we going there again? Oh, what is he going on about now? If this blog turns its face from the ills of the world I’ve just mentioned or others like them, then this blog for me has no place in our world.
This blog was born of the effort to stop the cabal. It exists to see that women have equality in the world and that children have the protection they need in childhood.
If it’s not your commitment to build a world that works, including the heavy-lifting, including taking a stand on yourself and a stand on your world, then I’m truly sorry. I must have misled you at some step of the way. This may not be the blog for you. To bang on this anvil is what I came for.
Have I been hiding myself from you? have I been pretending that I was other than who I am. Who am I? I am one who came with a dedication to end the corruption, exploitation and oppression in my world and on my say-so, I will end it. I will bang on the anvil until it’s over.
No, not bang on it ceaselessly. I’ve said what I needed to say. I’m not insane, imprudent or unconscious of what you want. I’m actually more sane than I ever was because I will break the knots of fear, and I will break them publicly, wherever and whenever they arise in me.
I will have a world that works and I will have it by my say-so. I will not play small. I am not afraid of anyone and not afraid of death.
Is this emergence? Yes, I would say it is. I’m happy to emerge. And I’m happy to demonstrate that, after one emerges, one can return to normal life again as well.
I will have my world back again the way it was before so many of us (including me) lost our heads and hearts and courage. Anyone who wants to join me is welcome.
But strictly optional.
(1) Linda Steiner,”To Change Your Mind is to Change the World,” Social Consciousness, April 21, 2013, at http://drlinsteiner.wordpress.com/2013/04/21/to-change-your-mind-is-to-change-the-world-3/