To your sentiments I say: Amen!
As a youngster, a blissful youngster experiencing the beginnings of the ‘dark side’, the gloomy side of a 3D existence, I used to hide under the bed when things got uncomfortable. It was a safe place. As I got older, I alternately burst forth with enthusiasm and retreated back into the current harsh ‘reality’ of Earth life. It was my hiding-under-the-bed way (not longer being able to fit under it) of handling the dumbing-down of my bliss, of taming my knowing that people were really suppose to be happy.
Now I’m reclusive. We live near a forest, filled with nature, far from the noise and demands of close city/town life. That’s why when you invited me some time ago to round out my story on my experience with the chemtrails early on when they started that program in earnest, I went back into ‘hiding’, not wanting to expose myself any more than I had to you. I wrote to the newspapers too, but could remain ‘in hiding’ with no more exposure than that.
While on the surface I may at times appear to be confused, angry, frustrated, and impatient about the present doings, inside me, I do realize it’s all an illusion. I do realize it’s of our own making to see how far we could go down and still come up again. I do realize I am a key player, and I do realize and accept that what I am passionate about does play an important part of our lives and our future. It is that passion that is the very quality that moves us to our destination. It’s the Driver.
I sometimes feel frustrated because I know inside that I am so much more than what is seen of me. I know that I can do so much more to create. And many times, I am startled at how long it takes to get something created, because I know it never took that long before. Before…this 3D life. And, that’s what keeps me motivated. I know and am moving towards more knowing and doing. (I wonder if this is what it’s like waking up from amnesia?)
There are times, too, when I wonder if I’ll remember how to be big again. How to be the master that I know I am. How to move into the bliss of our true existence that is me and you and everyone else. Will I really remember, and will I know how to do it? And yet, inside, I really know I will. I truly believe it.
Whenever 3D doubts set in, I just step back from myself and allow the impulses and answers to come. They always come. Joyfully and with love they come. And sometimes with a ‘tingling’ sensation of knowing the answer and knowing it came so lovingly. It’s joyous to the point of tears.
The connection is not broken. I know this. As a matter of fact, I was brought to a higher state one day last year and met with my loved ones from somewhere else. These were not my family who had passed from Earth, but family from my real home. For a short while we celebrated our reunion as the love flowed freely between us.
They told me they were so proud of me, of my work here, and would be waiting in celebration when I returned home. I don’t know how long it lasted…maybe two minutes. It doesn’t matter. It was the quality and the immersion into that reality that made the wonderful difference.
Thank you for your expressions. I’ll bet many, many people can relate.