If you’re a writer on the awareness path, committed to transparency and writing on authenticity, the situation becomes multiplied.
I can write at the moment on what’s up for me. But I cannot write as if nothing is up. To be ingenuine in my writing is not now and never has been possible for me or of any interest, no matter whom I serve. I’d rather serve by digging in the field than writing and needing to be ingenuine.
And so I have to say to you that I’ve been very much affected by a circumstance that happened yesterday. One of our key team members is unable to pay his rent and will soon have no funds at all to put food on the table. Whether or not he leaves the team, his energy will effectively be lost to us.
Now that’s no different than the situation so many people face. We’re not special on this team. Believe me, I know the situation is the same for everyone. Or at least for a great number of people.
We’ve weathered a tight financial situation for several months now, cleaned out whatever unworkable attitudes we had, written books, made appeals, and done anything else we could think of short of charging for this site. And charge for this site I will not do. It needs to be available to everyone, even if it becomes only a library of past articles.
Even with your amazing generosity, we remain a financially unviable and unsustainable effort. One person made a very generous donation yesterday and it paid for the site’s costs this month and partially helped several members of the team. But it won’t be enough to keep some members of the team onboard and their turning away to seek a job will mean large changes here. And could mean the end of our work, certainly together as a team and perhaps as a blog.
The prospect of it weighs on me and prevents me from writing as if this situation is somehow not happening.
I personally am not hurting financially. But I’m also not in a position to assist greatly either. I’ve run up a very large debt, much of which has been contributed to the team.
However I can assist by going to work, not because I need money myself. I can get by. But to contribute to the team. And the work I’ll get on such short notice won’t be pretty. The only job I can get immediately is … well, I’d rather not say. Let’s just call it minimum-wage work.
I’ve cancelled the conference on the New Economy I was to attend tomorrow, will be resting today, and then will start looking for a job tomorrow, to contribute to the team’s well-being.