One of my critics once latched on to the fact that I laud Werner Erhard as being proof of my misleading people. He’d read the accounts of Werner being accused of sexually molesting his daughter, accounts which the daughter later retracted, acknowledging that she was promised a large sum of money for making her accusations, money that she never received.
Meanwhile, her action broke things apart and Werner felt himself obliged to turn his corporation over to the employees, etc.
But Werner IS one of the giants of our time, whatever my friend (because he was and still is my friend) may believe.
And one of the things my brother Paul and I did in Victoria last night was listen to an hour-long talk of Werner’s before an American university audience.
Years ago when I heard Werner discuss the matter he was talking about in the video, I hadn’t understood what he was driving at. All along, from the very first gathering he called that led to the founding of the est Training to this talk I was watching last night, Werner has been trying to describe, I believe, the space of unitive consciousness.
I could call it the “space of unitive consciousness,” or I could call it the Fifth-Dimensional space (but it could also be a much-higher-dimensional space). That which characterizes it is that it’s not a space of dualistic consciousness, as you’d find in the Third and Fourth Dimensions.
And I now see all the ways Werner has chosen to discuss it over the years. He originally called it “enlightenment.” Then he called it “everything/nothing.” Then he called it “space.” Then he called it, as he’s now doing, “a clearing.”
God is everything and no thing. So you call also call it God.
He could have called it “X” or “the New” or “the Now.” The name really doesn’t matter. It’s nameless, as so many basic phenomena are. And it’s not a concept anyways.
So I watched Werner work and admired his stamina. All these years he’s been hammering away at the same puzzle – trying to have people “get” that space by what he calls “languaging it” in more and more descriptive and engaging terms.
At the end of the est Training, the trainer works mightily to do or say or in any other way suggest what the “transformed space” is so we can get it. In my case, Trainer Ron Browning mimicked my facial expressions in a robotic manner (much like the buskers we see who do the robot routine) and I “got it.” I went above the line between unconscious and conscious awareness.
We too are now facing the task of finding words to describe all that’s happening for us. There are people who are seeing new colors that have no prior referent. There are people who, never mind what they’re seeing, are seeing in ways they never have before.
There are people who still bring along with them old 3D ways (well, most of us, probably). But there are a few who’ve broken through to 5D. Whereas before it was our family and friends who didn’t understand or agree with us, now it’s other lightworkers who haven’t had the experiences that these pioneers have had or are having, who are at risk of disagreeing. As if disagreement changes or contributes to anything.
The differences in perception and expectation are now happening within the lightworker community and people who once shared the same views are now finding themselves having trouble understanding each other. That’s one thing I see happening.
Another is that I’m also noticing that I particularly (and perhaps you share the same view) am making things more difficult for myself than need be. This may be a little difficult to communicate, but I’ll try, like Werner, nonetheless.
There’s what’s so and what’s not so, what’s true and what’s not true. And then there’s how we feel about it. In relation to this whole situation we find ourselves in with mass Ascension, Werner once said that the truth is X may happen and X may not happen. So Ascension happened or Ascension did not happen. Mass Ascension will happen or it will not happen. And then there’s how we feel about it.
In six months we’ll wake up and see that mass Ascension happened or didn’t happen. And none of us knows right now if it will or not. Blossom’s sources said they do not judge or scorn. But we do.
Even though the truth right now is that no one knows whether mass Ascension will happen or not, if it does happen, we’ll make those who predicted it would heroes and those who predicted it wouldn’t villains.
If it doesn’t happen, we’ll make those who said it wouldn’t happen heroes and those who said it would villains.
But the truth is that no one, at this point, knows whether it’ll happen or not.
The only leverage we have at this moment is over how we feel. Do we wish to feel disappointed every time something we think will happen doesn’t or something we think won’t happen does? Or would we be willing to acknowledge that we don’t know; it could or it couldn’t; and just be happy?
John de Ruiter once said that the state (of enlightenment) he was in was such that, if he were racing to the airport and ran out of gas, it’d be fine with him if he made his plane and fine if he didn’t. Sages have called this state of mind equanimity, serenity or tranquillity. I think its attainment is worth more to me than being right about a future event.
The events around 21/12/12 have reinforced in me the value of equanimity. Now as we orient towards what our sources say about a future time, I don’t think I want to leave behind the lesson of the value of equanimity. I don’t want to become disillusioned but I also don’t want to re-illusion myself, if there is such a word. I want to remain equanimous, in the middle, in the center, where the Self resides, there in the heart.
How many more cycles of illusion and disillusionment do I want to go through before I stop focusing on something that will happen or it won’t, and its happening or not happening are both neutral in valence compared, say, to the positive value of equanimity?