May 22, 2012
For a couple of weeks, we’ve been reading all the postings on the 2012 Scenario blog site for the buildup to May 20th and the eclipse.
On the outside, there’ve been beautiful displays and pictures we’ve seen posted on various web sites. Those were great experiences. They talked about the potential of experiencing a new bliss, a new sense of outpouring love.
Some also talked about the new love energy bringing up all of our old shadows and fears that we don’t like to face, producing a somewhat painful, but beneficial, healing process. Some said the experience could start a few days before and last few days after the 20th.
So, what was it like for you? Well, here’s my personal experience. You can take it or leave it, however it applies to you, but I seemed to experience it all!!!
On Thursday night, I went through an ‘ah-ha’ awakening moment.
I’d been experiencing some issues that I seem to have been struggling with my whole life. They just seem to keep recurring over and over again, in one way or another. I knew inside, if it was recurring, that somewhere I was not addressing the root issue needed for my own growth. I’d been spending time working through my own clearing process, asking Spirit to show me what it was that I needed to release and forgive. Yet it didn’t seem to be working as I couldn’t see anything where it was appearing.
Then it hit me, this may be a past life issue with memories buried deep within my subconscious mind.
So I pulled out my iPod where I have some mp3 recording programs for past life meditations. And lo and behold…it worked! During this 45-minute meditation process I was able to see an event in a past life that created a deep sense of fear, pain, shame and feeling of rejection. OK, so you may be asking…’What was it? do tell’…’Come on Dave, it’s time to spill the beans’…
Well, there are times to release your dirty laundry and there are times to keep it to yourself. (1) Let’s just put it this way, I did something that wasn’t very nice with another wonderful person; it was another wonderful and beautiful lady, if you get the drift. We both experienced the pain. Ironically we’re back together in this lifetime and working through our own forgiveness processes with each other again. So . let’s just leave it at that.
And don’t even think you’re exempt. We all have lived past lives of being the good guy and others being the bad guy.
But wow! I really experienced a breakthrough. That was Thursday.
On Friday, I experienced the joy of the release.
Still feeling the joy on Saturday, I went to bed that night. Midnight rolled around and I couldn’t get to sleep. I have no idea if it was the Cinderella hour or what, but right after midnight, something wonderful happened. The rush came, the bliss came, and then the deep love energy came. This wasn’t some neat, quick experience. This one was powerful, strong, and it stayed for over three hours.
I literally was experiencing the blissful rush of the energy. I felt like I was in heaven; outta here, and in another world. I had very little feeling or concept of being in a 3D world. I got up and out of bed, walked around, and felt like I was walking on air. I was experiencing the sense and feeling of being one with all around me. There were times I thought I was literally going to leave my body and float off to Wonderland. That lasted for three hours. I finally got to sleep around 5 am and dozed off, having some wonderful dreams of a new life.
I woke up around 9 am and noticed I was exhausted, tired and could hardly get out of bed. It wasn’t from the lack of sleep, but my body felt like I had gone through an exhausting ordeal.
Looking back, that’s what had happened. The new energy coming into my body was so strong that it needed some rest and time to catch up with what had happened. I ended up staying in bed most of the day, off and on sleeping or listening to different teachings on my iPod.
Sunday night, my body was aching. This seldom happens to me. I was feeling aches I hadn’t experienced in almost two years. I knew it would pass and it did.
But when Monday rolled around, I found myself facing some old fearful shadows, old memories I thought I was done with. I realized I was now experiencing all of the new love energies bringing up old stuff to clear, heal and forgive.
So, in about four days, I experienced it all: the extreme bliss, the physical stress, the deep fatigue and the new energy of love exposing some old shadows in need of clearing.
What a ride! It’s all a part of the Ascension process as we enter deeper and deeper into this magnificent year of 2012.
We’re almost six months into this magical year of transition. Regardless of what I experience for the rest of the year, I know it’s going to be filled with wonder, amazement and a great deal of positive change.
(1) Steve: In the growth movement, we’d say “I’m censoring myself” when sharing something was not going to be productive. That way we acknowledged there was something there but that we didn’t feel it the best thing to share at the present moment.