I’ve just had what I can only think of as a watershed moment and now need to be with it for as long as it requires of me.
How to describe it? At around 8:30 this morning, I settled into the bath, lay back and relaxed and all care fell away from me. The experience settled upon me as gently as anything I’ve ever known. I passed into a state of being in which everything I was up to that moment departed from me.
How long this will last, I have no idea, but, at this moment at least, whoever I was until now has been entirely lost to me and whoever it is that I am now is entirely new to me.
Certainly this is a discontinuity – not a radical but a gentle one. One door has closed for the moment and another has opened.
I feel an absence of worry, hope and fear, an absence of care as in “careworn.” I can’t remember any promises I made to anyone so if I’ve made a promise to you, I ask to be relieved of it. I’m unable to see to any obligations I may have. I ask the editors of this site to take over from me until this experience has passed. I shall not be reading email at the moment or watching Skype.
I have one clue as to what may be happening. Last year at this time I attended a Vipassana workshop and had an hour-long experience of my native dimensionality. This experience I’m in at the moment reminds me of that. But that’s the only clue I have as to what may be occurring.
Like the experience last year, I feel no bliss attending it and hence I refrain from exaggerating its importance. In the past in the absence of bliss, the experience I’ve been in has never proved lasting.
I’ve asked Archangel Michael’s protection so that no dark influence slips in for as long as I’m distracted. For the rest, I let everything go and simply be present to whatever is occurring.