I had a dream last night that I found myself in an organization and setting that I suspected did not serve the Light. There was to the setting an expectation that I would somehow be loyal to the dark and I realized in the dream that my service in that setting was to choose not be loyal to the dark but to the Light.
My choice did not involve harming the dark but merely choosing not to serve them and then, as the situation developed, taking the next step in the service of the Light, however I could see that as being. I didn’t hide the fact that I was resisting serving the dark and I took what came from it.
I saw that I need not follow the bias of the organization, but that I had the power to choose to follow the bias, the leaning of life itself, towards the service of the Light. I saw that I had been placed in the service of the dark to show or demonstrate what it looked like to leave its service. In the beginning, my service lay in mere choice alone.
I knew I’d never die so it didn’t faze me that my service might be to die rather than serve the dark.
I also became aware in my dream that I was acting the role of a pilot and yet I knew that my skills as a pilot were insufficient. I saw that my service at that moment didn’t lie in talking a good game, hiding my inadequacies, bluffing, etc., but in refusing to fly because I knew my ability to fly was inadequate and my duty lay in not flying an airplane under those circumstances.
I remember at one point taking up the service of planting trees in order to cut down the noise in the setting. I remember becoming aware that a tree did not need to block out 100 percent of the noise. It only needed to block out some of it to be an enhancement to the setting. Many trees planted brought the overall noise level down without blocking it out entirely and that was OK. It was a lesson in making finer distinctions than simply all or nothing.
Synchronistically Nancy has sent along this video, which states a parallel theme. I’ve posted it before, but it seems appropriate to post it again: Patricia Diane Cota-Robles’ Integrating Our I Am Presence:
I remember thinking there was a larger lesson to the situation with the trees, but that I needed only get for now the lesson at a general level. I recall knowing that the larger lesson would later and further unpack itself in its own good time and that I need not worry about the process at that moment.
I remember meeting and serving President Obama and realizing that I didn’t need to command all his attention all the time or be everything to him, but that I did need to do my one small service and command the needed modicum of his attention at that time and properly no more and for no longer than was necessary.
And everywhere I looked, I could see the way I needed to adjust my choices and my manner of relating to life to iron out in myself the kinks and vagaries of my character and how life showed up for me. It was I that needed to adjust to life, not life that needed to adjust to me, and the full power to do so lay in my choices.
I saw that life was a puzzle and purposely so made, and that each piece of the puzzle put in place yielded a tremendous increase in my understanding of the whole.
In the course of the dream, I emerged and emerged and emerged into the person I was, like an animal repeatedly moulting its skin. In fact I seemed to go from one situation to the next, emerging, emerging, emerging. It was as if life were an exam and each test passed resulted in emergence.