Please don’t repost this article. It’s a private communication.
This is a long, rambling post. If you’re not in the mood for a long, rambling post, I’d suggest you just pass over it and go on to the next. If there is a next. I’m the guy who posts and I don’t plan for there to be a next post until much later in the day. Chezanni?
There is a reorganization of life that follows an awakening. Again I don’t wish to imply more than has occurred. I simply feel more in possession of my faculties and I have a new burst of energy for doing what I do.
But to say I feel more in possession of my faculties, I need to say what it is I’m speaking of, because I do know myself somewhat and the Boss has said more which adds to that knowledge. But there is a level of detail that it’s not prudent to go into at this time. There is also much background information to provide to make the discussion intelligible. I’m not sure what to give first.
Perhaps the background detail. We all know that the cabal is doing everything in its power to defeat the Light. And we can see that a fair amount of what they do actually takes in lightworkers. For instance, I’m quite sure that the cabal is working overtime floating any number of rumors about President Obama. And lightworkers obligingly climb onto that bandwagon and take up the rumors that are being floated.
But not one of our channeled sources has abandoned the President. And I think they would if he had strayed because they are committed to the truth and even, in most cases and certainly the case of legitimate, reliable channels, they are incapable of not telling the truth. (I’m speaking only of legitimate channels.)
So there is a need to be prudent so as not to furnish the cabal and its band of mischief makers with ammunition.
But there is another problem that haunts lightworkers and that is the problem of arrogance. I can think of six lightworkers without taxing my brain who’ve become infected with arrogance.
Some of them jealously guard their reputation as having “fathered” a field. They issue lists of their articles and generally pump themselves at every opportunity. Others call themselves the sole representative or contact for our space family. If someone were to call themselves that, I predict that our space family wouldn’t deal with them at all. Fifth-dimensional beings can recognize arrogance.
Others make a profession of attacking lightworkers and having made this comment, I now add four more “lightworkers” to my list so I’m now up to ten. The same individual who called himself sole representative issued a paper in which he attacked perhaps ten of our best colleagues. So he occupies both categories.
Notice the self-serving bias at work here. According to it, we maximize our own successes and attribute our failures to others. The most commonly used tool of the arrogant is the self-serving bias.
So, if we’re imprudent, we could be attacked from several directions, including the ranks of our own fellow lightworkers. And of course our own defense is yet another attack and pretty soon we have lightworkers divided and much easier for the cabal to conquer. If it weren’t for the legions of angels and galactics on our side, I think we would never defeat the cabal.
Arrogance lies at the heart of the process of our own disempowerment. It’s a constant danger to darkworkers and lightworkers.
But to go forward, I do need to share a little about myself and yet I also need not to share too much and I need to avoid the pitfall of arrogance.
So how do I do this? Hmmmm…. Well, first of all I need to share about spiritual talents since it’s a talent that’s awakened. Many of us have a talent. I hear you saying that some of you are telepathic. Others are clairvoyant or clairaudient. Some have been contactees and others can astral travel. Others are artists or healers.
I am not any of these. I know my own talent but it’s not something that can be easily discussed. It tends to invite ridicule and I spent the first 30 years of my life in fact dealing with that ridicule. Apparently I have a high IQ. What that means I don’t know. It shows up most as pattern recognition. Some say it translates into intelligence. If you were to ask me what my IQ is, I immediately start to run into the need for prudence.
I could tell you I don’t know. I once was tested by the psychological/vocational consultant that Employment Canada uses for these matters. The gentleman ran out of tests. He said he could not say what my IQ was. I sent the test results to Mensa Canada and they sent back a letter saying “Welcome aboard.” That’s as much as it’s prudent to say. All else would be embellishment and I would run the risk of inviting ridicule from others and opening the door to an infection of arrogance within myself. Nevertheless that is the talent I bring to the party.
The second matter that I need to broach with prudence is dimensionality. I know what dimension I’m from. I also know what dimension one of my parents comes from. But to say that out loud would invite ridicule and so I postpone that until a time when it’s safe to say. And I ask anyone who may have listened to a tape in which the matter is discussed not to discuss it further or you may do me an injury and limit the amount of good I’m able to accomplish in the doing of my task.
So when I say that a certain amount more of my capabilities have been actualized as a result of this stairstep awakening process, I’m speaking from the knowledge I already have of what is available to come online. I asked the Boss why I had so little awareness of higher dimensionality if what had been told to me in readings was true. And he said I had made an agreement to have a thorough experience of third dimensionality – as most of us have. So here I am wearing blinders until the time is right to remove them. And you are most likely wearing blinders too.
I also know that there is more ground to cover but covering it must be slow if I am/we are to avoid the pitfall of arrogance. Arrogance threatens everyone. If we go too quickly in our awakening, we become beset by arrogance.
When one awakens, new powers come online and one can feel quite satisfied with oneself, shading into smugness or arrogance. When arrogance infects a lightworker, it’s a devil to get rid of. I’m sure you can think of one or two people who are infected with it, if even just a little.
Arrogance is seductive. It feels good. Hey, why not praise that which we have? Why should we hide our light under a bushel? On and on the siren song goes until we’re firmly in its grips and it takes much hard work to reverse.
Given what I know of myself, I face a constant battle to remain uninfected by arrogance or smugness or self-satisfaction. Even that very statement sounds arrogant.
I said to the Boss that I felt the need of more confidence. I’ve had a lifelong battle with confidence, not because I couldn’t feel confident but because I did not want to feel confident if the price I had to pay was verging into arrogance.
And so I’ve long known the need to grow in confidence slowly and in a balanced manner so as to avoid veering into arrogance.
The Boss said he would help me with that, but I know, and undoubtedly he does, that that operation too, along with awakening, has to be handled slowly and in a balanced manner – to avoid being infected with arrogance. I say this not only for my own benefit but for yours as well so that you too, when the next awakening occurs, can watch for the pitfalls.
So my own dealing with yesterday’s awakening is two-pronged and I’m using the upset clearing process with at least a part of it. I’m observing the arrogance that arises with an expansion of capabilities and staying out of it. That’s the first prong.
And the second prong is that at times I’m actually allowing myself to feel the arrogance, not so that I can become arrogant, but so that, through the use of the upset clearing process, I complete the experience of it with awareness and hopefully become free of its reach. This second prong is a delicate process and must be done out of the public eye, which is why I may fall silent at some periods. I’m processing and it wouldn’t be wise to be writing at those times.
So it isn’t simply a fact of becoming more awake and then immediately beginning to use the new capabilities. No, one must restore balance first, make sure that the pitfalls of awakening are avoided, become comfortable with oneself, reorganize one’s life, and then begin.
And that’s what I’m doing at the moment.
One matter of reorganization has to do with email. I have to say that I no longer have the time to be conversational with people. There are just a very few people, a very small number (and most people who say “it must be me,” rest assured it’s not you and especially not people I’ve known for more than a month) who wish to have a conversation with me that does not have to do with the work that we’re both engaged in. It’s just conversation.
I now see that I no longer have the time to engage in it. I don’t mean that arrogantly; I mean it actually. I actually don’t have enough time in a day to get done all that needs to get done. And I have to create a way of living that will serve me and those I serve into the future.
I don’t want to be rude. I just won’t be responding any longer to email that doesn’t have to do with work or with serving the 2012 scenaro. Sometimes I also won’t respond to email because I’m behind in my time or for other reasons. So don’t think that because I didn’t respond it’s because you “did something.” I have to ask for your compassion in the area of email. You have to grant me leeway. I have a job to do. I’ve left relationships because I knew I had a job to do. Even though I didn’t know then what it was. I was definitely committed and you just have to trust me that things are working out even if I don’t get back to you as quickly as I should – or even ever!
That sounds so strange to say. But it’s true.
So I’m now dealing with the aftermath of an awakening. And I’m discussing it in part because you may also soon be dealing with the aftermath of an awakening.
My life will change as well in other ways. I now see that I absolutely must get out of this apartment at least once a day or I will go stir-crazy. I must eat well or my health will fail. I have to do my laundry. Etc., etc. I have to pay attention to the nickel-dime of my life as well as the work. I have to become more independent and less available if I’m going to be more reliable and more available. I know that sounds crazy but again it’s true.
Last thing. My direction is changing once again. I’ll have less time for posting stories and will need more time for research and writing. I know I’ve said that before but the need keeps getting greater. I’d be happy if someone wanted to come on board and take over posting the stories of current events. I’m already at work on an article about crystalline bodies and after that I want to do one on the galactics’ agenda. And there are many more behind those. Posting current-events stories is something I now need to pass on. Remember that you have links to other 2012 sites in the righthand column and more and more I may need to rely on those authors and editors to keep us informed of what’s happening outside. I need to target my attention on the 2012 scenario.
That is what I came to do.
OK, what time is it? 1:00 p.m.. Need to rest. Laundry to do. Need to go for a walk. So much to say. So much to do. So little time. How many hours in a day these days? It feels like a blink and already it’s time to call it a day. When are we getting those new computers? And when is telepathy coming online?