Well, it’s Sunday and I have to say that I’m still spending a great deal of time bawling my eyes out over things in Japan. I know that sounds very strange, but it’s actually not strange to me when I keep in mind what I learned from days spent long ago in encounter groups.
We had a notion then, back in the Seventies, of “arriving” in the group. A person “arrived” when they stopped treating things intellectually and made them personal. I know today we say a great deal about “not taking things personally” but the two issues are not at all the same.
What we meant in the Seventies was not about “taking things personally.” We meant that we we wanted to move beyond simply experiencing things intellectually – which we called “head-tripping,” in our somewhat abrupt manner of speaking. We wanted to experience things more deeply.
When a person moved beyond simply experiencing things intellectually and got them in a more integrated and deeper fashion, we said that person had “arrived.” That person had “shown up.” They were “present.” There was great jubilation in a group when a person “arrived.”
On a three-month residential encounter group, it took me half the time – six weeks – to arrive, six weeks to realize that I was out of touch with my feelings. It has taken me two weeks since the tsunami to “arrive” with that disaster. And it has hit me this weekend like a wall of water.
There isn’t much to say about how I feel because to say a lot would probably have me go back into my head and be intellectual with it. I’m just devastated at what has happened. The destruction caused was on such a scale as to seem to me absolutely monstrous. And when Matthew Ward attributed it to weather-control technology, it became more monstrous and absolutely unacceptable on any scale of acceptability I could imagine.
I can’t sit with an event so monstrous and conduct my life as if nothing has happened and it’s business as usual. My insides are rebelling. I have been crying as I walk on the street, crying as I wash the dishes, and am crying as I type here now. I simply cannot hide or ignore that something really monstrous has happened in my life and world.
I also know that there is precious little I can do about it other than to express myself – and weep. This is now the third day in which the emotion rolls out of me and I can only hope there will be an end. But I know very well that I can’t impose that end upon myself. I must let this process roll on like a tidal wave in response to a tidal wave.
Perhaps, in line with Tyco’s reminiscences, there is something Atlantean in it. I know it is a deeply-felt reaction, deeper than anything I have experienced in my life save my mother’s death. The suffering from dying in a tidal wave is one thing. The suffering from the memory of it is another and deeper thing and goes on far longer than the actual event.
There is nothing more to say about it. I know, from my studies, that all who died will be well-received and taken care of. Matthew has communicated some of that. I believe SaLuSa mentioned it as well. The astral planes are well-organized to restore victims of national disasters.
The victims are out of this veil of tears now and will enjoy themselves immeasurably in their new lives. They are the lucky ones. I know they’ll also want to join in the Ascension effort from their side.
And I know that the one thought they’ll want to convey to us is that they did not suffer, that death is painless and a great relief. So I don’t feel worry that we have consigned them to suffering. In fact we relieved them of it. It’s us who continue to suffer on this side of the veil.
And I also know that those who caused the tsunami, though they may feel they are unknown and will escape justice, are in fact precisely and copiously known and will not escape justice. Their deeds are written on the akasha. Nothing of them will escape notice. As Jesus said, there is nothing hid that will not be known.
Their actions will be the stuff of highly-accurate books written on the astral plane. Some of them they may even write them themselves as part of their process of needing to make amends.
And the judgment they themselves will make, as we all do. They will spend lifetimes trying to make good their deeds. If they only knew how they would suffer, and all at their own hand, they would not participate in heinous acts like these.
It is all ignorance which allows these things to happen, ignorance which, for the mass of us, will end in just a year or two.
Eventually ignorance will end for them as well but their suffering will go on for a great deal longer than that of their victims.